dreams and dreamers
on loop: look what you've done ~ jet
"look what you've done, you've made a fool out of everyone... it seems such fun, until you lose what you've won." - look what you've done, jet
isn't it so funny that dreams come when we are in slumber? probably because at that interval between life and death, we are at rest and up to some degree, some form of peace. it is at these moments that we are free to picture the things that we would want for ourselves... plans and ambitions, wants and desires, minus the harsh realities of the waking world that somehow get between dreams and reality. we see what we would like to achieve for ourselves, what we would want to have and hold. what's so funny is that even if these beautiful ideas come in sleep, one must wake up and leave these dreams behind in order to reach them for real. i'm not being very clear here with what i'm trying to say, but someday the point will come.
i am so pissed, actually. the gravity of the situation only dawned on me a few minutes ago. i am out of school i am part of the population that should be in school, but is not. the sucky thing about this is that, i want to be in school... i can afford it, i have a school and i have plans. i know i'm being so selfish right now, just whining and complaining about things i brought about myself, but i just cannot deal with the fact that i was dropped like a hot potato by the school i have grown to love, admire, and pledge loyalty to. just because i could not shift into another course. where's the justice in that? well, i suppose i deserve this, i know i really do. that much i admit. but that doesn't mean i can handle it. because right now, i am just at a loss.
for the first time in the entire period from when my memory began to work, i am not in school. i honestly cannot recall a time when i was not enrolled in an educational institution, and the thought that i am out in the open field with nothing to my name but time and failure, is extremely disconcerting. i have no idea what to do. it isn't so easy, after all. i cannot afford to go lying around, really. first, because it is against my nature to be unproductive, not stressed and un-busy. second, i have no money to throw around while waiting for the world to come pick me back up again. and third, i am not prepared to face issues like this... but at the same time, no one else can fix it for me. i just have to face the music, i have failed... big time. there goes everything i had going for myself.
people might say things such as i'm being fatalistic or that i'm a silly girl or that there are more, much more people out there in worse situations than i am. i know that, but the thing is, i am not in their shoes... and they are not in mine. so let's just deal with our own problems, allright? it wouldn't be a problem if it weren't barricading me from something. and this something is a good future. then again, a problem isn't a problem if there isn't a solution. i have always told myself that. my dad told me that this is my "destiny for this matter" and he even went as far as to say that i will have an extremely difficult time to achieve my life-long dream and purpose. it's the same as saying all the hard work i've put in my whole life, no exaggeration, is now nothing. this is an all or nothing issue for me. i guess it ain't all. my dad said that this is a turning point in my life. i have turned and slipped. i've fallen.
i dunno why this is such a big deal... when people always fall out of school and stuff. but the thing is, i was happy with how my life was going. everything was in perspective. and suddenly, in a snap, it's all gone. it's not just being in school... it's the fact that i was in the school of my dreams, in the course of my dreams, living out my dream and yet i let it slip away because i let myself make wrong decisions. i guess i'm so miserable right now because i have no purpose anymore whatsoever. i have lost everything i have worked for. and i don't think i can get it back. and no, i don't want to busy myslef with 'other' things 'just for the heck of it', because that would be stupid. and i don't wanna be stupid anymore. for now, this is my time to be miserable and wallow in the fact that i suck. people should just please grant me this tiem and space to bang my head on the proverbial wall and try to reprimand myself and at the same time, knock some sense into my head.
"i was once a dreamer. i dreamed big dreams and hurdled many nightmares while i was at it. then the time came that i woke up and realized dreams aren't all they're made out to be. now i know where bitter realists come from." - |ñ??æ|, 11-05-04
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
realizations
realizations
on loop: say you love me ~ simply red
i realized something just now..... i'm too trivial. i don't take things seriously, i don't even take myself seriously. i dilly-dally too much with nonsense. i should definitely take control now. i want to let go of past baggage... forget all the pressures and stress that have been part of what put me down. of course, it's not that easy. i know that i simply cannot forget responsibilities... i just don't want to deal with them right now. i need some time for myself and with myself. as much as possible, i want to start anew. i feel like i am somehow... changing? not totally, but i guess in some ways that i have to. i also realized that too many other things occupied my mind (past tense, i'm trying to forget them) these past few months. i didn't get to arrange my priorities. i should have sensed what i needed and what i wanted... what could wait and what couldn't... what were immature nonsense and valuable necessities. i also realize that i associated myself with many things that i really didn't need and could have done without. tsk tsk shucks the mistakes.
i now know how to value my time more... everyone really should learn to look in upon themselves and see all the leaks and broken floorboards that somehow need repair. contemplation, as they call it. after which i bet one would come out refreshed and with a renewed sense of life. i thought i was pretty sensible... i was wrong. whenever i sat down and tried to sort out my thoughts, i end up shifting the blame to someone else or something else outside of myself. that way, i think i was unconsciously wiping myself free of blame and responsibility. now, i know better. that theres is no other way to deal with a problem than to face it. not put it off for later, hoping it'll rememdy itself on it's own. that doesn't work in this side of the universe. now my only problems are the leftover problems from the past. i have no intention of escaping them or leaving them be, i will fix them. but i want to do so on my own volition. all i ask for is some time work things out. no stress and pressure. i feel as if i would retalliate and then crumble into pieces if faced with pressure and stress. not very good. i am somehow at peace now. *crosses legs and eyes, then hums a buddhist chant* just kidding hehe Ü
on loop: say you love me ~ simply red
i realized something just now..... i'm too trivial. i don't take things seriously, i don't even take myself seriously. i dilly-dally too much with nonsense. i should definitely take control now. i want to let go of past baggage... forget all the pressures and stress that have been part of what put me down. of course, it's not that easy. i know that i simply cannot forget responsibilities... i just don't want to deal with them right now. i need some time for myself and with myself. as much as possible, i want to start anew. i feel like i am somehow... changing? not totally, but i guess in some ways that i have to. i also realized that too many other things occupied my mind (past tense, i'm trying to forget them) these past few months. i didn't get to arrange my priorities. i should have sensed what i needed and what i wanted... what could wait and what couldn't... what were immature nonsense and valuable necessities. i also realize that i associated myself with many things that i really didn't need and could have done without. tsk tsk shucks the mistakes.
i now know how to value my time more... everyone really should learn to look in upon themselves and see all the leaks and broken floorboards that somehow need repair. contemplation, as they call it. after which i bet one would come out refreshed and with a renewed sense of life. i thought i was pretty sensible... i was wrong. whenever i sat down and tried to sort out my thoughts, i end up shifting the blame to someone else or something else outside of myself. that way, i think i was unconsciously wiping myself free of blame and responsibility. now, i know better. that theres is no other way to deal with a problem than to face it. not put it off for later, hoping it'll rememdy itself on it's own. that doesn't work in this side of the universe. now my only problems are the leftover problems from the past. i have no intention of escaping them or leaving them be, i will fix them. but i want to do so on my own volition. all i ask for is some time work things out. no stress and pressure. i feel as if i would retalliate and then crumble into pieces if faced with pressure and stress. not very good. i am somehow at peace now. *crosses legs and eyes, then hums a buddhist chant* just kidding hehe Ü
Monday, November 01, 2004
acid test
acid test
on loop: these words ~ natasha bedingfield
it's such a shock to have your life all planned out one minute, then all empty and non-directional the next. so weird to have it happen right in front of you and yet you hardly saw it coming. that's probably what they mean when they say "you wouldn't know it till it bit you right in the nose". roughly 72 hours ago, i had quite a vivid blueprint of how i was going to live out the near future. i was going to study, of course, it is my number one priority (up there with family and God). it would be a prerequisite for my number two priority, career. i didn't want to end up as some jobless bum roaming around for hand-me-downs. i do not want to be mediocre. and i do not want to live a life of regret, knowing that at one point, i had somehow let go of everything because of several stupid decisions.
stopping school for this coming semester is not a decision for me. it is a consequence. though i could say that i could have stayed in school, i know that i am headed downhill. it's too soon to say that this LOA might be for the better, because i don't know if it really is. i should have made better use of my time these past few months. i was too jaded to realize that life cannot be lived on a day to day basis... i should have had some sense of forethought and planning for the future. i had forgotten about tomorrows, and lived for todays and yesterday. my dad told me that tomorrows are merely today's yesterdays, or something to that effect. he said that i am being put on "acid test", to determine what, i am not sure.
going on LOA isn't really a big, dramatic deal. i guess it's just the disappointment and loss of time that's not settling that well with me. i cannot afford to lie around thinking of things to do with my life... i have to keep moving. but unfortunately, things took a turn for something else. i know that there really is no one else to blame but me. i failed to be efficient with my life. i really should have known better. it really is true what my mom always told me when i was young that "nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi (regret is always at the end)". i should have listened to my parents. they certainly knew better. but i don't believe in dwelling on should-haves and what-ifs... contemplating about them is good enough, but as soon as you get the lesson out of the experience, i think i should move on and quit regrets and finger-pointing.
as of now, i really don't want to deal with any stress or pressure. i want to plan my time well. i'm thinking of getting a job, in a (typical filipino fashion) call center if ever i can learn the ropes of landing a job there. it's better that i earn some money while i'm not in school. my friend's sister works in one and he might help me apply there. it's not so easy as it seems after all, there are certain terms (such as CSR and TSR) regarding the industry that i should be familiar with. starting pay is around 12k a month. not so bad, i guess. i want to keep myself busy for the 6 months or so that i'll be out of school. it'll be my first real taste of life outside the academic environment. i'm scared, i admit. it is after all, my first tiem to venture into this. i want to be independent for now, and try to develop myself and know for sure what i really want in life. i shouldn't be dilly-dallying as if the years would just regress while waiting for me to make up my mind.
i hope that this time would be productive for me and that i'll be able to make up for lost time. if luck so provides, i would be able to grow and be more responsible and mature. i think i've been living too much of a teenager's life, with no worries and such. i should learn to let go of that mentality, even if i would want to remain young for as long as i could. maybe this time would be a good opportunity for me to work on myself, by myself. i want to see how well i'd do on my own. it's not as if i'm running away from home or what, my dad will still be around to guide and support me but i want to try to be more active in running my life. not just "going with the flow". i should set my priorities straight. i now know that in order for me to follow through with this plan, i should make some sacrifices and lifestyle changes. i should be able to let go of certain things and at the same time, acquire some others. it won't be easy but i keep in mind that i'm doing this for myself and ultimately, for everyone around me. hope i do well on the test... and that the acid won't sting too bad.
on loop: these words ~ natasha bedingfield
it's such a shock to have your life all planned out one minute, then all empty and non-directional the next. so weird to have it happen right in front of you and yet you hardly saw it coming. that's probably what they mean when they say "you wouldn't know it till it bit you right in the nose". roughly 72 hours ago, i had quite a vivid blueprint of how i was going to live out the near future. i was going to study, of course, it is my number one priority (up there with family and God). it would be a prerequisite for my number two priority, career. i didn't want to end up as some jobless bum roaming around for hand-me-downs. i do not want to be mediocre. and i do not want to live a life of regret, knowing that at one point, i had somehow let go of everything because of several stupid decisions.
stopping school for this coming semester is not a decision for me. it is a consequence. though i could say that i could have stayed in school, i know that i am headed downhill. it's too soon to say that this LOA might be for the better, because i don't know if it really is. i should have made better use of my time these past few months. i was too jaded to realize that life cannot be lived on a day to day basis... i should have had some sense of forethought and planning for the future. i had forgotten about tomorrows, and lived for todays and yesterday. my dad told me that tomorrows are merely today's yesterdays, or something to that effect. he said that i am being put on "acid test", to determine what, i am not sure.
going on LOA isn't really a big, dramatic deal. i guess it's just the disappointment and loss of time that's not settling that well with me. i cannot afford to lie around thinking of things to do with my life... i have to keep moving. but unfortunately, things took a turn for something else. i know that there really is no one else to blame but me. i failed to be efficient with my life. i really should have known better. it really is true what my mom always told me when i was young that "nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi (regret is always at the end)". i should have listened to my parents. they certainly knew better. but i don't believe in dwelling on should-haves and what-ifs... contemplating about them is good enough, but as soon as you get the lesson out of the experience, i think i should move on and quit regrets and finger-pointing.
as of now, i really don't want to deal with any stress or pressure. i want to plan my time well. i'm thinking of getting a job, in a (typical filipino fashion) call center if ever i can learn the ropes of landing a job there. it's better that i earn some money while i'm not in school. my friend's sister works in one and he might help me apply there. it's not so easy as it seems after all, there are certain terms (such as CSR and TSR) regarding the industry that i should be familiar with. starting pay is around 12k a month. not so bad, i guess. i want to keep myself busy for the 6 months or so that i'll be out of school. it'll be my first real taste of life outside the academic environment. i'm scared, i admit. it is after all, my first tiem to venture into this. i want to be independent for now, and try to develop myself and know for sure what i really want in life. i shouldn't be dilly-dallying as if the years would just regress while waiting for me to make up my mind.
i hope that this time would be productive for me and that i'll be able to make up for lost time. if luck so provides, i would be able to grow and be more responsible and mature. i think i've been living too much of a teenager's life, with no worries and such. i should learn to let go of that mentality, even if i would want to remain young for as long as i could. maybe this time would be a good opportunity for me to work on myself, by myself. i want to see how well i'd do on my own. it's not as if i'm running away from home or what, my dad will still be around to guide and support me but i want to try to be more active in running my life. not just "going with the flow". i should set my priorities straight. i now know that in order for me to follow through with this plan, i should make some sacrifices and lifestyle changes. i should be able to let go of certain things and at the same time, acquire some others. it won't be easy but i keep in mind that i'm doing this for myself and ultimately, for everyone around me. hope i do well on the test... and that the acid won't sting too bad.
Sunday, October 31, 2004
tick tock
tick tock
on loop: dare you to move ~ switchfoot
missed taking these *&@^%9$# (nothing profane or derogatory, don't worry) net quizzes :) more to come, i bet hehe.
*****
so much time, so little stuff to do. i need a life. and a direction too, i guess.
on loop: dare you to move ~ switchfoot
| How to make a Hyan |
| Ingredients: 5 parts friendliness 5 parts brilliance 1 part grace |
| Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge! |
missed taking these *&@^%9$# (nothing profane or derogatory, don't worry) net quizzes :) more to come, i bet hehe.
*****
so much time, so little stuff to do. i need a life. and a direction too, i guess.
immersion
immersion
on loop: fields of gold ~ sting
i remember something my friend bea told me some time back... the only way to truly realize something is if you truly let yourself feel... feel the emotion, be it hurt, anger, pain, joy, love, loss or whatever. once you cherish and savor the feeling, it is only at that moment that you will realize the enormity of the situation. and probably, you will have a clearer idea of what to do. allow yourself to feel the moment, and after you have exhausted the moment, that is when you can employ rationalization. i suppose this sort of mentality applies to my current situation right now. it still remains hazy and unclear to me what the future has in store, but i think that i must first sit down and sort out my feelings first before i can be able to put my mind to work. everything is still up in the air, actually. nothing is for sure yet though i do feel that i am headed that way already. i am just praying that i will be able to deal with whatever comes my way, be it disappointment, frustration, confusion, etcetera. there are too many things happening to me right now that i hardly have enough time nor strenght to catch up with it. i try to get by day by day, and i also only hope that the days don't take me astray... and let me lose everything i hold dear to me.
*****
had dinner with pam after we had the pictures taken of our birthdays developed. cool pictures! will post some here as soon as i can get them scanned. we also watched 'before sunset'... hrmmm. the movie was done in real time, meaning the length of the entire movie (roughly 90 minutes) was also about 90 minutes of the characters' lives. no skips and cuts from one scene to another. it was all about 90 minutes in the lives of jessie wallace (ethan hawke) and celine (julie delpy). story of love found, lost and regained. this film is a sequel of the 1994 film 'before sunrise'. the format was refreshing and was full of beautiful thoughts on love and life. after the movie, we walked around and got coffee. got home a little past twelve. had fun, thanks pam Ü
lapit na pasukan! hope everyone made good use of their sembreaks. and that everyone got good schedules and professors this coming sem... Ü
on loop: fields of gold ~ sting
i remember something my friend bea told me some time back... the only way to truly realize something is if you truly let yourself feel... feel the emotion, be it hurt, anger, pain, joy, love, loss or whatever. once you cherish and savor the feeling, it is only at that moment that you will realize the enormity of the situation. and probably, you will have a clearer idea of what to do. allow yourself to feel the moment, and after you have exhausted the moment, that is when you can employ rationalization. i suppose this sort of mentality applies to my current situation right now. it still remains hazy and unclear to me what the future has in store, but i think that i must first sit down and sort out my feelings first before i can be able to put my mind to work. everything is still up in the air, actually. nothing is for sure yet though i do feel that i am headed that way already. i am just praying that i will be able to deal with whatever comes my way, be it disappointment, frustration, confusion, etcetera. there are too many things happening to me right now that i hardly have enough time nor strenght to catch up with it. i try to get by day by day, and i also only hope that the days don't take me astray... and let me lose everything i hold dear to me.
*****
had dinner with pam after we had the pictures taken of our birthdays developed. cool pictures! will post some here as soon as i can get them scanned. we also watched 'before sunset'... hrmmm. the movie was done in real time, meaning the length of the entire movie (roughly 90 minutes) was also about 90 minutes of the characters' lives. no skips and cuts from one scene to another. it was all about 90 minutes in the lives of jessie wallace (ethan hawke) and celine (julie delpy). story of love found, lost and regained. this film is a sequel of the 1994 film 'before sunrise'. the format was refreshing and was full of beautiful thoughts on love and life. after the movie, we walked around and got coffee. got home a little past twelve. had fun, thanks pam Ü
lapit na pasukan! hope everyone made good use of their sembreaks. and that everyone got good schedules and professors this coming sem... Ü
Friday, October 29, 2004
dawn
dawn
Do What You Have To Do ~ Sarah McLachlan
What ravages of spirit,
Conjured this temptuous rage?
Created you a monster,
Broken by the rules of love.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do ...
And I have the sense to recognize,
that I don’t know how to let you go.
Every moment marked,
With apparitions of your soul.
I’m ever swiftly moving,
Trying to escape this desire.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
But I have the sense to recognize,
That I don’t know how to let you go...
I don’t know how to let you go.
A glowing ember
Burning hot, burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.
I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go.
*****
i have made one of the biggest decisions i have ever had to make in my life. i hope i made the right one. and i also hope that things would go according to planned. just in case anyone would care to know (could be me, in a few years time when i look back to this time), the three years i have been in ateneo have been among the very best i have ever had and quite possibly, will ever have.
Do What You Have To Do ~ Sarah McLachlan
What ravages of spirit,
Conjured this temptuous rage?
Created you a monster,
Broken by the rules of love.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do ...
And I have the sense to recognize,
that I don’t know how to let you go.
Every moment marked,
With apparitions of your soul.
I’m ever swiftly moving,
Trying to escape this desire.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
But I have the sense to recognize,
That I don’t know how to let you go...
I don’t know how to let you go.
A glowing ember
Burning hot, burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.
I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go.
*****
i have made one of the biggest decisions i have ever had to make in my life. i hope i made the right one. and i also hope that things would go according to planned. just in case anyone would care to know (could be me, in a few years time when i look back to this time), the three years i have been in ateneo have been among the very best i have ever had and quite possibly, will ever have.
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
pagmumuni-muni
pagmumuni-muni
naniniwala ako na kung tunay nga namang nararapat sa iyo ay makakamtan mo. pero paano naman kapag ang nararapat sa iyo ay hindi ang ninanais mo? karapat-dapat pa rin ba ito para sa iyo? sinasabi rin na kapag nakatakda na talaga para sa iyo, kahit na anong mangyari ay mangyayari sa mangyayari pa rin ito. ibig ba sabihin noon na kahit na tumulala na lang ako sa mga bituin at magmuni-muni, mapapasaakin pa rin ang tadhanang nakalaan sa akin? malamang, hindi. iyon siguro ang sagot ng nakararami. "siyempre kailangan mong pagtrabahuan ang kinabukasan mo!" ang isa sa mga maaring maging tugon sa kuro-kuro ko. o di kaya ang walang kakupas-kupas na "do your best and God will do the rest!". naniniwala nga naman ako sa mga iyan, at alam kong wala mararating ang tao kapag wala naman siyang ginagawa upang makaabot kung saan man...
pero hindi ko talaga lubos maintindihan kung bakit ba ang bagay na alam kong makabubuti sa akin at ang lubusuan ko namang pinagsisikapan ay pilit na nalalayo sa akin. kahit na naong nais kong magpatuloy, hindi na maari, dahil mayroon nang mga balakid na nakaharang sa aking daan. sana ay malampasan ko pa ang mga ito... pero iniisip ko pa lang ay tila nahihirapan na ako at nararamdaman ko na tila gusto ko na sumuko. parang wala na rin naman kasing kahahantungan kung magpumilit pa ako. sana na lamang ay mainitindihan ng mga tao sa paligid ko. mahirap ipaliwanang kung ano nga ba talaga ang sanhi ng monologong ito, dahil kahit ako ay naguguluhan rin sa aking mga sinasabi. pero ipinagdarasal ko na sana, sa hinaharap, ay maari akong tumingin pabalik sa panahon na ito at makuha pang ngumiti... dahil, kung papalarin, maiintindihan ko na rin ang mga dahilan ng mga pangyayari.
naniniwala ako na kung tunay nga namang nararapat sa iyo ay makakamtan mo. pero paano naman kapag ang nararapat sa iyo ay hindi ang ninanais mo? karapat-dapat pa rin ba ito para sa iyo? sinasabi rin na kapag nakatakda na talaga para sa iyo, kahit na anong mangyari ay mangyayari sa mangyayari pa rin ito. ibig ba sabihin noon na kahit na tumulala na lang ako sa mga bituin at magmuni-muni, mapapasaakin pa rin ang tadhanang nakalaan sa akin? malamang, hindi. iyon siguro ang sagot ng nakararami. "siyempre kailangan mong pagtrabahuan ang kinabukasan mo!" ang isa sa mga maaring maging tugon sa kuro-kuro ko. o di kaya ang walang kakupas-kupas na "do your best and God will do the rest!". naniniwala nga naman ako sa mga iyan, at alam kong wala mararating ang tao kapag wala naman siyang ginagawa upang makaabot kung saan man...
pero hindi ko talaga lubos maintindihan kung bakit ba ang bagay na alam kong makabubuti sa akin at ang lubusuan ko namang pinagsisikapan ay pilit na nalalayo sa akin. kahit na naong nais kong magpatuloy, hindi na maari, dahil mayroon nang mga balakid na nakaharang sa aking daan. sana ay malampasan ko pa ang mga ito... pero iniisip ko pa lang ay tila nahihirapan na ako at nararamdaman ko na tila gusto ko na sumuko. parang wala na rin naman kasing kahahantungan kung magpumilit pa ako. sana na lamang ay mainitindihan ng mga tao sa paligid ko. mahirap ipaliwanang kung ano nga ba talaga ang sanhi ng monologong ito, dahil kahit ako ay naguguluhan rin sa aking mga sinasabi. pero ipinagdarasal ko na sana, sa hinaharap, ay maari akong tumingin pabalik sa panahon na ito at makuha pang ngumiti... dahil, kung papalarin, maiintindihan ko na rin ang mga dahilan ng mga pangyayari.
Monday, October 25, 2004
baduyyy...
baduyyy...
just wanted to post some lyrics... not really relevant. just wanted to be slightly baduy hehe.
Ikaw Nga ~ South Border
(it's rare that i appreciate tagalog songs but this one's pretty good Ü lalang. more of the melody than the lyrics, for this one i guess. you could just hear the emotion in their voices Ü)
[I.]
Heto na naman
Nag-iisip, minsa'y nagtataka
Na sa 'kin na ang lahat
Bakit nangungulila
[II.]
At nang makita ka
Ibang sigla ang nadarama
Pag-ibig nga ba ito
Ako'y nangangamba
[Refrain I:]
Nais kong ipagtapat sa'yo
Sana'y dinggin mo
Ang lihim ng pusong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo
[Chorus:]
Ikaw nga ang syang hanap-hanap
Kay tagal na ako ay nangarap
Lumuluhod, nakikiusap
Ako ay mahalin mo sinta
Ikaw nga ang syang magbabago
Sa akin, sa aking buhay
Handang iwanan ang lahat
(upang makapiling ka / para lang sa'yo) sinta
[III.]
Nang makilala ka
Ibang saya ang nadarama
Alam kong pag-ibig ito,
Anong ligaya
[Refrain II:]
Nais kong ipatapat sa 'yo
Sana'y pagbigyan
Dinggin ang puso kong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo
.. upang makapiling ka sinta ..
*****
falling ~ keahiwai
(very cute song by a hawaiian girl.. easy listening Ü)
Wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see
[Chorus]
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
[Verse 2]
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you
[Chorus]
Bridge:
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold
[Chorus]
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
******
la lang... i learned that in life, you could never count on the future or on promises. for what are promises? these are simply decisions to give you something that person itself does not have yet and is not even sure yet that will have. what i'm saying is that, how can you promise the future when you don't even have it yet? not being pessimistic... just realistic. promises are nice and beautiful but not really stable and reliable. a lot could happen between now and the promise of tomorrow Ü
just wanted to post some lyrics... not really relevant. just wanted to be slightly baduy hehe.
Ikaw Nga ~ South Border
(it's rare that i appreciate tagalog songs but this one's pretty good Ü lalang. more of the melody than the lyrics, for this one i guess. you could just hear the emotion in their voices Ü)
[I.]
Heto na naman
Nag-iisip, minsa'y nagtataka
Na sa 'kin na ang lahat
Bakit nangungulila
[II.]
At nang makita ka
Ibang sigla ang nadarama
Pag-ibig nga ba ito
Ako'y nangangamba
[Refrain I:]
Nais kong ipagtapat sa'yo
Sana'y dinggin mo
Ang lihim ng pusong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo
[Chorus:]
Ikaw nga ang syang hanap-hanap
Kay tagal na ako ay nangarap
Lumuluhod, nakikiusap
Ako ay mahalin mo sinta
Ikaw nga ang syang magbabago
Sa akin, sa aking buhay
Handang iwanan ang lahat
(upang makapiling ka / para lang sa'yo) sinta
[III.]
Nang makilala ka
Ibang saya ang nadarama
Alam kong pag-ibig ito,
Anong ligaya
[Refrain II:]
Nais kong ipatapat sa 'yo
Sana'y pagbigyan
Dinggin ang puso kong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo
.. upang makapiling ka sinta ..
*****
falling ~ keahiwai
(very cute song by a hawaiian girl.. easy listening Ü)
Wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see
[Chorus]
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
[Verse 2]
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you
[Chorus]
Bridge:
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold
[Chorus]
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
******
la lang... i learned that in life, you could never count on the future or on promises. for what are promises? these are simply decisions to give you something that person itself does not have yet and is not even sure yet that will have. what i'm saying is that, how can you promise the future when you don't even have it yet? not being pessimistic... just realistic. promises are nice and beautiful but not really stable and reliable. a lot could happen between now and the promise of tomorrow Ü