on loop: regresa a mi ~ il divo
... walang sagot.
i tried to refrain from blogging about what's been bugging me lately, but sometimes people just need some form of release or outlet to vent out on. anyway.
wala naman akong isang malinaw na bagay na gustong talakayin maliban sa isyu na mayroong gumugulo sa akin. simula nang nangyari yung araw na iyon, para bang lahat na nga bagay ay nagkandalabo-labo na. bakit ba kasi hindi na ako natuto? kahit kailan talaga. malas nga naman oo. dumagdag pa tuloy sa mga problema ko. ayoko na sana mamroblema pa dahil napakadami nang tao ang namomorblema sa ngayon, ayoko nang makisawsaw pa pero hindi talaga kaya talikdan eh, makulit kasi.
mas naguguluhan pa ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ko nga ba itong problemahin or wala naman nang kelangan pag-usapan sa bagay na ito kung kaya mas nararapat na inaasikaso ko na lamang ang mga mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng aking trabaho at pag-aaral? sa tutuusin, maliit lang na predikamento ang bumabagabag sa akin kung ihahalintulad sa edukasyon, trabaho o pera.
isa pa iyon. gusto ko na sana mag-aral pero mukhang di iyon mangyayari... dahil nanaman sa kapabayaan ko. kaya naman di ko rin masisisi ang iilang mga tao diyan kapag may nasasabi sila tungkol sa akin (at hindi iyon mga kaibigan ko, cool silang lahat ;p). kung minsan kasi, mahirap naman talagang maging responsable na lamang palagi. pero sana nalaman ko noon pa na mas mahirap pala ang panagutan at panindigan ang mga resulta ng pagiging iresponsable.
sana malutasan ko na ang mga bagay na 'to. at sana rin ay maiayos ko na buhay ko. hirap talaga maging kalat eh. hirap din magtanong nang magtanong, wala namang mahanap na kahit man lang kalahating sagot. sa pagkakataon na akala mong makakukuha ka na ng sagot o di kaya't 'hint' man lang eh mas naging malabo pa ang mga bagay bagay. o baka naman kasi malinaw na talaga ang lahat? ako lang ang nagpipilit na ibahin ang sitwasyon. hay engerts.
sa ngayon, ang naiisip ko pa laman na kasagutan sa tanong ko ay... wala. hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay napag-uusapan dahil kung minsan ay mahirap din ito ipaliwanag o simulan. mas maigi kung kumilos na lamang tayo nang ayon sa tingin nating tama at karapat-dapat. madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin, lalo na kapag ang karapat-dapat na gawin ay taliwas sa hinahangad o ikaliligaya natin. ahahay. pero may tiwala ako na maayos din ang lahat nang ayon sa ikabubuti ng lahat, panahon at pasensiya lamang ang kailangan.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Sunday, May 01, 2005
run of the mill lives
on loop: ikaw ang lahat sa akin (really bad LSS)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)
Sunday, April 17, 2005
draggy sunday
on loop: high ~ lighthouse family
it's a very monotonous sunday morning... i've been lying around and eating the entire day. rarr. but i could really use the rest, after a long week. i'd love to go back to the beach kahit sandali lang, away from all the hustle and bustle of city life. wala lang. aside from being a monotonous day, it's also a very lazy one for me. i've been meaning to fix my site and put up the links and stuff but the weather's too warm and i'm just too lazy hehe. sorry :) will do next time, promise.
*****
speaking of vacations, beaches and warm weathers, our company is sponsoring a trip to malaysia for next week wednesday. this is a collaborative team-building seminar for upcoming supervisors. it actually serves a dual purpose since all the higher-ups and the promotees would get to spend some time together and participate in the annual Intel (Pentium) Conference to be held in malaysia as well. expense will be very minimal for the 4 day trip since a bulk of the stuff to pay for would be shouldered by Dell USA and SRTP already. i asked permission from my dad already and he said it was allright with him, but the problem is that my papers and my passport's all messed up and i'm not sure if i have enough time to fix it. another option would be Palawan, especially for those who don't have their passports ready and can't really fit it into their scheds to go out of the country, but most everyone's vouching for malaysia. bummer. hope i could come...
*****
along my train of thought, i was just thinking how time flies by so fast. it's been six months since i started on my job. wow. i never expected to last so long. it's been hard, but fun at the same time. some people looked down on call centers, thinking it's a no-nonsense job. i admit, i used to not think so much of this job, but ever since i was able to experience it, i realized how wrong i was. it's every bit as serious and difficult as all those high-falutin jobs makati offices and stuff offer. in fact, i think it's also incredibly pressuring since you have to deal with metrics and goals, every single HOUR. deadlines aren't by the week or month, it's by the HOUR and there's no one to help you out. just every man for himself. it may be asy to get in, but it's even easier to be terminated, people get terminated every single day and new people come in nearly every week. and to correct someone, it's no place for child's play.
*****
hayyy ang init. sarap maligo at mag-swimming... sana bakasyon na lang ang buong buhay eh noh. lalang :)
it's a very monotonous sunday morning... i've been lying around and eating the entire day. rarr. but i could really use the rest, after a long week. i'd love to go back to the beach kahit sandali lang, away from all the hustle and bustle of city life. wala lang. aside from being a monotonous day, it's also a very lazy one for me. i've been meaning to fix my site and put up the links and stuff but the weather's too warm and i'm just too lazy hehe. sorry :) will do next time, promise.
*****
speaking of vacations, beaches and warm weathers, our company is sponsoring a trip to malaysia for next week wednesday. this is a collaborative team-building seminar for upcoming supervisors. it actually serves a dual purpose since all the higher-ups and the promotees would get to spend some time together and participate in the annual Intel (Pentium) Conference to be held in malaysia as well. expense will be very minimal for the 4 day trip since a bulk of the stuff to pay for would be shouldered by Dell USA and SRTP already. i asked permission from my dad already and he said it was allright with him, but the problem is that my papers and my passport's all messed up and i'm not sure if i have enough time to fix it. another option would be Palawan, especially for those who don't have their passports ready and can't really fit it into their scheds to go out of the country, but most everyone's vouching for malaysia. bummer. hope i could come...
*****
along my train of thought, i was just thinking how time flies by so fast. it's been six months since i started on my job. wow. i never expected to last so long. it's been hard, but fun at the same time. some people looked down on call centers, thinking it's a no-nonsense job. i admit, i used to not think so much of this job, but ever since i was able to experience it, i realized how wrong i was. it's every bit as serious and difficult as all those high-falutin jobs makati offices and stuff offer. in fact, i think it's also incredibly pressuring since you have to deal with metrics and goals, every single HOUR. deadlines aren't by the week or month, it's by the HOUR and there's no one to help you out. just every man for himself. it may be asy to get in, but it's even easier to be terminated, people get terminated every single day and new people come in nearly every week. and to correct someone, it's no place for child's play.
*****
hayyy ang init. sarap maligo at mag-swimming... sana bakasyon na lang ang buong buhay eh noh. lalang :)
Friday, April 15, 2005
blurb
on loop: constantly ~ nina
everything's been so weird these past couple of weeks. i feel like some sort of caterpillar fresh out of my larvae... things around me seem so new and unsettling. oh well. anyway, la union was so cool! we stayed in coconut grove resort for FREE! hehe one of the people from our team owned it so... hurray :) though the trip was short and super bitin, it was a lot of fun. the people were great and i learned a lot during the trip. i also learned to appreciate someone so much more, as if i can finally say that the person really is a friend and not just a fleeting personality in my life. sad to say, this person left the company right after our trip without letting anyone know that was his plan. i hope things would pan out for him :) best wishes!
*****
some people just don't know when to give up! goodness... give it a rest. sana some people would know naman where to position themselves. sana lumugar naman sila sa tama. in the end, they'll be the ones who'll look foolish. eksena pa ng eksena, wala naman nang mangyayari. sigh... the things some people go through in the name of ||||, ahahay.
*****
speaking of giving up, it's so weird to realize that how your situation is right now with a certain event or person is exactly the same situation someone else is with you or a certain event. weird and real tough to explain, basta it's like twin circumstances between two people... somewhat like a psychotic chain of events. makes me understand that person better, and relate to that person as well since we share the same sentiments. just for different people. it's cool as well, you get to be at both sides of the fence at one time which could actually be an advantage in the long run :) anyway, i should lay low for now. and get back to work as well! harhar.
everything's been so weird these past couple of weeks. i feel like some sort of caterpillar fresh out of my larvae... things around me seem so new and unsettling. oh well. anyway, la union was so cool! we stayed in coconut grove resort for FREE! hehe one of the people from our team owned it so... hurray :) though the trip was short and super bitin, it was a lot of fun. the people were great and i learned a lot during the trip. i also learned to appreciate someone so much more, as if i can finally say that the person really is a friend and not just a fleeting personality in my life. sad to say, this person left the company right after our trip without letting anyone know that was his plan. i hope things would pan out for him :) best wishes!
*****
some people just don't know when to give up! goodness... give it a rest. sana some people would know naman where to position themselves. sana lumugar naman sila sa tama. in the end, they'll be the ones who'll look foolish. eksena pa ng eksena, wala naman nang mangyayari. sigh... the things some people go through in the name of ||||, ahahay.
*****
speaking of giving up, it's so weird to realize that how your situation is right now with a certain event or person is exactly the same situation someone else is with you or a certain event. weird and real tough to explain, basta it's like twin circumstances between two people... somewhat like a psychotic chain of events. makes me understand that person better, and relate to that person as well since we share the same sentiments. just for different people. it's cool as well, you get to be at both sides of the fence at one time which could actually be an advantage in the long run :) anyway, i should lay low for now. and get back to work as well! harhar.
Monday, April 04, 2005
ah shet
ah shet
arrgh. i was typing this really long and thought-of post to blog since i haven't blogged for quite some time plus i've put up a new lay-out but due to sheer crappiness, i clicked on 'publish' when the server went down and poof, there goes more than hour's worth of insights and narratives i've been working on. arrgh. that totally soured everything up for me. i really should start working on notepad or word next time. and get THIS, i did it TWICE pa *cue spastic laughter* after i typed my first attempt and that didn't go through, i typed an irritated post, but still with some sort of attempt to be sensible and worthwhile but NO... that just won't do. shallow na kung shallow but i should cool off. be back some other time when i'm less stupid or something. rarr.
arrgh. i was typing this really long and thought-of post to blog since i haven't blogged for quite some time plus i've put up a new lay-out but due to sheer crappiness, i clicked on 'publish' when the server went down and poof, there goes more than hour's worth of insights and narratives i've been working on. arrgh. that totally soured everything up for me. i really should start working on notepad or word next time. and get THIS, i did it TWICE pa *cue spastic laughter* after i typed my first attempt and that didn't go through, i typed an irritated post, but still with some sort of attempt to be sensible and worthwhile but NO... that just won't do. shallow na kung shallow but i should cool off. be back some other time when i'm less stupid or something. rarr.
Monday, March 21, 2005
the long wait home
the long wait home
on loop: pointless chatter
nope, it's not a typo. i really meant WAIT, not WAY. it's so hard to wait. nakakapagod talaga. it just drains evrything out of you... especially if hindi mo alam kung ano nga ba ang inaantay mo. malay mo, nagaantay ka lang pala sa wala. sometimes it's easier, and smarter, to give up. but that's easier said than done. all this waiting is messing up with my head so much so that i never realized i could get SO paranoid. this sucks. i can't even rationalize anymore, it's hard to think straight if you're the one involved. hirap talaga maging tanga. ahahay. i need a vacation hehe.
*****
can't hurry love ~ phil collins
My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes
*****
ang dami palang bagay ang pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng isang araw. gigising ka yuwing umaga, hindi alam kung ano haharapin sa araw na iyon. wala kang kamalay-malay na pwede na pala mawala sa iyo ang pinaka-mahalagang bagay sa buhay mo sa loob ng araw na iyon, 'o 'di kaya'y makamtan mo na ang pinaka-matagal mo nang inaasam at inaantay. tadhana nga naman (naks ang emo). anyway, ba't ko nga ba pinag-uusapan 'to? honestly, i don't really know. wala lang, naisip ko lang. inaaksaya ko lang oras niyo ehehehe. hay.
on loop: pointless chatter
nope, it's not a typo. i really meant WAIT, not WAY. it's so hard to wait. nakakapagod talaga. it just drains evrything out of you... especially if hindi mo alam kung ano nga ba ang inaantay mo. malay mo, nagaantay ka lang pala sa wala. sometimes it's easier, and smarter, to give up. but that's easier said than done. all this waiting is messing up with my head so much so that i never realized i could get SO paranoid. this sucks. i can't even rationalize anymore, it's hard to think straight if you're the one involved. hirap talaga maging tanga. ahahay. i need a vacation hehe.
*****
can't hurry love ~ phil collins
My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes
*****
ang dami palang bagay ang pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng isang araw. gigising ka yuwing umaga, hindi alam kung ano haharapin sa araw na iyon. wala kang kamalay-malay na pwede na pala mawala sa iyo ang pinaka-mahalagang bagay sa buhay mo sa loob ng araw na iyon, 'o 'di kaya'y makamtan mo na ang pinaka-matagal mo nang inaasam at inaantay. tadhana nga naman (naks ang emo). anyway, ba't ko nga ba pinag-uusapan 'to? honestly, i don't really know. wala lang, naisip ko lang. inaaksaya ko lang oras niyo ehehehe. hay.
Monday, March 14, 2005
offshore
offshore
on loop: hush ~ ll cool j
summer is SO in the air, you can practically taste it! how fun hehehe. i can't wait to go the beach :))) just a bit more of waiting... hehe.
by the way, i received great news today. i was a bit worried about my schooling and stuff and i tried to sort things out a bit this morning. turns out i'm not so hopeless as i thought i was. hurray!
was stuck at home the entire day, and as usual, i got into thinking. and i came up with a two-month plan for my life (a better one hehe ;p)! hahaha. boredom. i don't have anything exceptionally fantastic or incredible lined up or whatever, but it's a start for something better.
we have a team-building outing with the people from work... hopefully it'll push through within march. as for a summer outing with friends, that should be in the plans by april hopefully :)
beach na beach nako! to all the graduates, congratulations :) may you do even better in life now. to all the students, enjoy your summer. and to everyone else, summer na!!! (la lang, in case 'di nyo pa alam... hehe just kidding).
on loop: hush ~ ll cool j
summer is SO in the air, you can practically taste it! how fun hehehe. i can't wait to go the beach :))) just a bit more of waiting... hehe.
by the way, i received great news today. i was a bit worried about my schooling and stuff and i tried to sort things out a bit this morning. turns out i'm not so hopeless as i thought i was. hurray!
was stuck at home the entire day, and as usual, i got into thinking. and i came up with a two-month plan for my life (a better one hehe ;p)! hahaha. boredom. i don't have anything exceptionally fantastic or incredible lined up or whatever, but it's a start for something better.
we have a team-building outing with the people from work... hopefully it'll push through within march. as for a summer outing with friends, that should be in the plans by april hopefully :)
beach na beach nako! to all the graduates, congratulations :) may you do even better in life now. to all the students, enjoy your summer. and to everyone else, summer na!!! (la lang, in case 'di nyo pa alam... hehe just kidding).
Monday, March 07, 2005
boy bawang and choc-nut
boy bawang and choc-nut
on loop: true ~ ryan cabrera
gaahh. i'm so tired. there's so many things swimming around in my mind but i'm too much of a lazy bum and idiot to do anything about it. ANYWAY. i went on an errand spree today... had to buy a lot of things for the office today. mini-renovation. got super drained. had to move from one place to another, lugging bags and bags of (heavy) stuff all by myself. and by the way, there are new sales reps already whom my dad hired. ang daming cute! hehe just kidding :p they're good, smart people and i hope they do their job well. it's their first day today... and so far, they're allright.
at work, a new batch is coming up for our account if i was informed correctly. hehe how exciting. it seems not too far back when i was still a trainee... hehe those were the days. i'm excited for the new batch, hope they do well. and by the way, i received my first big break at work a few days ago. for the month of february, i was ranked as the number one agent on the floor. hahaha. how weird. i didn't even bother checking out the stack rankings when it came out, but everyone kept congratulating me and stuff. turned out i was number one. hehe feels great. and what feels even better is the bonus i received with last friday's payday and the bonus i will be receiving on the 20th's payday. hurrah!
last saturday, my teammate from work was giving out boy bawangs and choc-nuts. for those who don't know, boy bawang is this tiny little packet of corniks... hehe. lalang. i got so nostalgic and sentimental and reminescent and weird at te same time, sitting at my cubicle waiting for a call. made me think of life and stuff. haha mega emo once again. i really couldn't explain those times when i just drift off and think. think, think and think. i think opf everything and everyone and sometimes i feel as if i myself is being detached from my consciousness and i operate on auto-pilot. i think (there i go again, hehe jk) that's what they mean when they say 'drifitng away with your thoughts'. i don't really like it when i get those episodes... i have a hard time dealing with my thoughts and sentiments. weeeeeirrdd (and quite psychotic actually mwahaha).
a friend's dad moved on the sunday before last... and all though times like these will always be a part of life, nothing can ever preapre anyone for it. and all though remnants of the pain will always remain, one can grow and learn from it. i'm hoping that my friend and her family will be stronger and closer still. hey, my prayers are with you. anytime and anywhere, just let me know, for as much as i can, i will :)
on loop: true ~ ryan cabrera
gaahh. i'm so tired. there's so many things swimming around in my mind but i'm too much of a lazy bum and idiot to do anything about it. ANYWAY. i went on an errand spree today... had to buy a lot of things for the office today. mini-renovation. got super drained. had to move from one place to another, lugging bags and bags of (heavy) stuff all by myself. and by the way, there are new sales reps already whom my dad hired. ang daming cute! hehe just kidding :p they're good, smart people and i hope they do their job well. it's their first day today... and so far, they're allright.
at work, a new batch is coming up for our account if i was informed correctly. hehe how exciting. it seems not too far back when i was still a trainee... hehe those were the days. i'm excited for the new batch, hope they do well. and by the way, i received my first big break at work a few days ago. for the month of february, i was ranked as the number one agent on the floor. hahaha. how weird. i didn't even bother checking out the stack rankings when it came out, but everyone kept congratulating me and stuff. turned out i was number one. hehe feels great. and what feels even better is the bonus i received with last friday's payday and the bonus i will be receiving on the 20th's payday. hurrah!
last saturday, my teammate from work was giving out boy bawangs and choc-nuts. for those who don't know, boy bawang is this tiny little packet of corniks... hehe. lalang. i got so nostalgic and sentimental and reminescent and weird at te same time, sitting at my cubicle waiting for a call. made me think of life and stuff. haha mega emo once again. i really couldn't explain those times when i just drift off and think. think, think and think. i think opf everything and everyone and sometimes i feel as if i myself is being detached from my consciousness and i operate on auto-pilot. i think (there i go again, hehe jk) that's what they mean when they say 'drifitng away with your thoughts'. i don't really like it when i get those episodes... i have a hard time dealing with my thoughts and sentiments. weeeeeirrdd (and quite psychotic actually mwahaha).
a friend's dad moved on the sunday before last... and all though times like these will always be a part of life, nothing can ever preapre anyone for it. and all though remnants of the pain will always remain, one can grow and learn from it. i'm hoping that my friend and her family will be stronger and closer still. hey, my prayers are with you. anytime and anywhere, just let me know, for as much as i can, i will :)