better

on loop: i wonder ~ diffuser

after the really rotten week i had last week, i'm actually feeling better hehe. good for me :) now all i need is a phone and a sim.

last friday night, i got home a bit past 2 already and woke up with a slight fever. had to go to school yesterday morning and i didn't tell my dad i was sick 'coz he wouldn't let me out that night if he knew hehe. biogesic, decolgen and dolfenal works ;p tulog lang kailangan hehe.

anyway, got home around 3 already last night. we made our own bailey's... panalo! and chicken cordon bleu din... winner rin. practice makes perfect hehe.

bea's birthday is fast approaching... we're excited por yu ;p

i'm also going to receive a bottle of perfume from my job before... it's part of the rewards Dell computers offer to their agents (DHS Contest Zone). it's a Bvlgari Eau Parfumee Au The Blanc ;p fancy name no? sana mabango hehe.

thanks to everyone who gave me their numbers via YM and email. will text you as soon as i have a new number :)

also, advanced happy birthday, mel (liszy in ateneo ;p)! wish you the best and may you kick a*s in france! goodluck and keep safe on your trip... i'm proud of you.
2 more midterms to go: an exam for math and a baby thesis for socio. plus a couple more major papers for the others.

by the way, i'll be going on a short and temporary hiatus from blogging. i'm guessing that the next week or two is gonna be an imowshonal rollercoaster for me so i don't want to vent here, it's too public and people who aren't supoosed to read it, just might. so bye for now :) have a happy rainy august!

whatta week

on loop: amber ~ 311

grabe 'tong week na 'to. puro kamalasan... ang panget. gives a whole new meaning to hell week :( on top of the ton of school work i had to get through, ang dami pang kung ano-anong nangyari na nakakalungkot talaga :( it wouldn't be any problem if it were just school work, 'lang kaso yun 'no. but i just couldn't take everything else, sabay-sabay pa :( really messed me up, 'till now. i'm just hoping and believing in His plan for us... that everything happens for a reason. like what my mom always used to say and pray, He does not give us anything we won't be able to handle.

edit: by the way, my 09224309094 number is not active anymore. lost it (again! long story), please sned me your numbers either thru YM or here. thanks.

homebound

on loop: as long as it matters ~ gin blossoms

didn't go out tonight... was exhausted the entire day, and i got sick hehe. serves me right. anyway, post-it update again... just for the record ;p

- got to UP around 8 am and was supposed to meet up with a blockmate. when i got there, i tried texting her since she was in some store with her boyfriend and his friends, and that i should text her na lang daw when i get to the oblation... biglang failed! ran out of load. all i had was sun unlimited text lang (she had a globe #). was waiting for almost an hour since i couldn't reply when i started texting almost everyone i knew who had a sun number. thankfully i was saved hehe. thanks so much :) she got there about 10 minutes later after i was helped out. then we all went to ateneo for the art gallery. nice :)

- after ateneo, bea came by for lunch and we met up in starbucks katipunan. i studied for a bit then we decided to go to greenhills. near greenhills, we realized my phone was missing. shyet. left it in starbucks. decided to go back (now with sunshine), and thank God someone surrendered the phone to the staff when they found it lying around. dapat sakin eh, kinakadena ang cellphone! was a bit of a fright, since it was bea's phone and not mine. just loaned to me since i don't have one, after losing 3 units already within this year. goodness greshuss.

- greenhills after. tiangge and we also looked at phones. i saw a phone i've been wanting! sandali na lang... hehe. hopefully :)

- my team back in tele started a blogging community where we're all included. fun! great to hear from all of them regularly :)

- studio 23 showed "green mile" tonight. i've somehwat breezed through the book by stephen king a couple of years back but never really got to appreciate it. grabe. when i watched the movie, i watched the entire thing start to end. BEAUTIFUL. i have never cried so much and so hard for any movie, as in hagulgol talaga. but i loved it. such a touching film, that hits close to home. i highly recommend it to everyone who hasn't seen it to go check it out. trust me, definitely worth your time and money :) i wish everyone would get to see it, it really is very... inspirational? eh beautiful na lang ulit hehe, 'coz it really is.

- i'm sick again. gotta turn in early, for i plan to put in long hours tomorrow working the books for next weeks' prelims. wish me luck! and i'll be back in school by monday for another project i need to work on... so gotta save energy ;) anyway, happy weekend, everyone :)

on loop: demons ~ guster

watched "st. louis loves dem filipinos" last thursday night at UP. out of all the plays i've ever seen (i've been watching plays since i was about 7), this tops the list of my favorites. i was blown away by the production... the actors were so great, the music apt, and the storyline incredible. and to think this was based on an account of filipino tribes being sent out to the st. louis world expo in missouri (this was in 1904). it was so interesting, and i really admired the talents. the running time of the play was 2 hours and 47 minutes, and at first i thought that that was kinda long for a play on history, which i must admit, isn't the most riveting topic for me. started around 730, ended just before 11. the place was packed! this play was highly publicized and there were actually a lot of celebrities present. a number of other schools also had their students watch the play, 'coz there were a lot of people from ateneo, and even UST, DLSU, PUP and of course, UP.

after the play, the weather was really bad and it was late already. didn't want to be walking around UP in the rain at that time. good thing my dad picked me up, and we ate in JT's manukan and grille. it's this outdorr grille along gilmore in san juan. a lot of people frequent the place 'coz they serve really good food with reasonable prices, and it's a really quaint place to hang out in. it was my first time to eat there, even if i was always around the area and actually live quite close to it. saya, i recommend it to everyone. their kansi (ilonngo version of the bulalo) is really good, and opkors my peborit, chicken inasal hehe. got home pretty late but all's good since i didn't have anything lined up to work on or something.

finally finished my presentation for history... that report's been bugging and stressing me out. good thing it's finally over and my prof said i did good. hehe. yay! i actually should be sleeping now since i'm gonna be going to UP later this morning to see the oblation for a paper i've got due for humanities. after that, i'm also gonna have to go to ateneo and visit the art gallery. it'll also be for the same subject. thinking bout getting to go back to ateneo almost made me cry kanina. hehe o.a. ;p i'm just sad that i was too impulsive and left without really thinking about the repercussions of my actions. it's really hard to live with regret, and i'm not the best person when it comes to coping with stuff like this. i don't really like it whenever panghihinayang just creeps up on me when i least expect it. i just hope hope i'll get over it soon hehe. anyway, it's prelims week next week and i just realized i've actually got a lot of stuff to study for. i promised myself i won't cram anymore, para kahit sa ibang school, makapag-DL manlang ako harhar.

laughter therapy

on loop: i get knocked down ~ chumbawumba (hay.. hs days ;p)

first of all, the reason as to why i'm blogging at nearly 5 in the morning is 'coz my dad woke me up around 4 am... why? 'coz he thought it was 8am already! hello?! now i can't get back to sleep. rarr. anyway, might as well. so there, yesterday was fun... i was laughing almost the entire day. laughter really does lighten one's mood and brighten up a really drab day. i was actually really pissed and stressed yesterday for a number of different reasons i'd rather not dwell on, but there were instances and people that really made my day :)

- for sociology class, we were asked to bring chopsticks and chips. of course, i forgot to do that. i had a big presentation for the class before that and i was kinda engrossed with that that i completely forgot bout the chopsticks. i was really tired and hungry and stressed already when i got to class, and the person next to me asked me if i had my chopsticks and stuff. of course, i said no and when she found out she called out to her blockamtes and asked around for someone who had an extra pair. someone did, and lent it to me. plus gave me chips as well (charity work hehe). i'm extra-emotional lately so i found the gesture really touching, and that really took some of the load off of my back. and the class is really fun (my prof's also a professional magician, san ka pa hehe) though i find it senseless haha.

- after school, one of my friends from school and i were in a tricycle to seattle's best and the sky was overcast but it wasn't drizzling or anything. on the way there, somewhere near kfc, it suddenly rained! as in buhos ng ulan to the max. naturally, tricycles aren't very well-equipped to protect its passengers from the elements, and i got super wet! grabe, hassle. my skirt was sopping wet (piniga ko pa) and we couldn't get off when we got to seattle's 'coz the rain was really pouring hard and we didn't have umbrellas (sabi ko na nga ba eh...). anyway, we eventually had to get off the trike and run like crazy to get under a roof. just then, the rain stopped as abruptly as it had come. instead of getting really pissed and whine around, we found the situation really funny. mukha ba naman kaming mga tanga slash basang pusa haha panget.

- after school, bea texted me and asked if i wanted to catch a quick movie. at first, i was hesitant since i had some meetings to work on and school stuff to cram for but when i got home, i found out haydee lost her phone and my dad lost a significant amount of money. they were probably misplaced or snatched or something in the office. anyway, i didn't wanna hang around at home since everyone was quite depressed and down so i called up bea and took up her offer. we went to gateway and watched, of all movies, d' anothers! hahaha. korny na kung korny. baduy na kung baduy :D but i didn't expect the movie to be as funny as it is. thought it was gonna be one of those really bad pinoy slapstick trying-hard comedies, but it wasn't anything like that. i really really enjoyed the movie, even if we actually had to get in line (haba ng pila ha) after we got our tickets just so we could get into the cinema. kasi naman, first day of showing pala ngayon, bea didn't tell me. hahaha, excited. anyway, twas a-laugh-a-minute and dito talaga, nawala lahat ng stress ko.

- lastly, around 10 bea called about some cellphones i was asking her about. anyway, we ended up blabbering and her mom was in the room with her as well. bea's mom is a really, really cool mom. super funny and kalog. she and bea kept imitating these voices of cartoon characters and stuff. there were sesame street characters (like count and those two annoying aliens), even yoda and a bunch of other characters and personalities, like rocky and arnold schwarzenneger. grabe, funny. what a tandem, those two... very therapeutic :) fell asleep right after that, feeling really light after a long time of being perpetually stressed. wish i could have more days when i could just laugh away all the issues of life. haha. au naturelle, that's not possible so i guess occasional fits of laughter should get me by ;p

to wrap it up, i've got a long day ahead of me today. i have this play to watch in UP tonight, "St. Luois Loves Dem Filipinos". it's at 7pm so i dunno if i should go home first after class or just stay around in katipunan and wait. i'm probably gonna be going there with some people from my class but another dilemma is how i'm supposed to go home from UP... tsk tsk. i have no idea. i know how to get to UP from katipunan, but i have no idea how to get out of there. kinda scary, since the play's gonna end around 9pm, i think. ayayay. hopefully, my dad or someone could pick me up (and sana wag na umulan please! :D)

surprise!

on loop: dance with me ~ orleans

it's the surprise celebration of my friend from work today and in true call center fashion, sumulpot siya dito ng get this, 7:30 AM. exagg. i haven't even taken a bath, brushed my teeth, what-not. we ended up leaving a little past 8 already hehe. breakfast pala treat niya... weird hehe. it's my first time to attend a birthday party na breakfast yung setting. when i got to the house (philam, near SM North), a lot of people were there already and they had just come from work. wow, i hadn't realized i missed them so much! it was so nice to see all of them again. a lot has happened to them in the course of a few months, may mga engaged na, may mga biglang naging sila, etc etc. it was just really nice to be all together again, like before. kakaiyak.. hehe nag-drama eh noh. no but seriously, i met some of the best and nicest people when i was still working. i learned a lot from them and from the job itself... and the people i was with helped me a lot and made the working experience so much more special and memorable. the party was planned as a secret from the celebrant by the people from my work and they didn't inform me! kaya ayun, pati ako na-surprise hehe. pero ok lang, kilala naman sila ng dad ko kaya kahit papano he let me go out kanina hehe.

my first supervisor was there, my trainers, my team mates, even the other people who had also left tele already were there... it's like one giant reunion-slash-birthday party. we were served breakfast (sarap! lahat ng pagkaing breakfast meron ;p hehe), then some kindofa flavored coffee shakes na feeling frappe, hehe jk :) but they were good. after eating and drinking, we just hung around and talked, and catched up and stuff. there were also a lot of new people from who got in tele after i left, and i also got to meet them. i didn't have a gift for the celebrant kasi i didn't know he was gonna celebrate today (eh kasi naman, nung May pa yung birthday. some kinda delayed naman kasi eh hehe). around lunch, they were itching to go out and watch a movie then they'll go drinking daw (tanghaling tapat! o.a. hehe). too bad i had to go home already since i had a lot of stuff to do for school and i had to go to the dentist as well. pero sobrang saya, i missed them talaga :) medyo nabawasan nga sakit ng ipin ko eh hehe. anyway... happy birthday, panget! it was nice to see you again. atleast you got a phone for your birthday, finally hehe. and tenks for the ride to and fro. sa uulitin :)

iskeri

on loop: out of my head ~ fastball

i woke up really early today (despite having slept at 6am already) today with a really bad toothache :( the left side of my face was a bit swollen, and the lower left side of my gums are inflamed. my wisdom tooth is going at it... and in my friend's words, it's "erupting". it reaallyy hurts, i can't stand it. but more than the pain, it's very irritating. parang may nakabara palaging buto ng santol sa gilid ng bibig ko hehe. argh. i'm going to have it examined by a dentist and i have a sinking feeling that i may have to have it taken out surgically. its growth is pushing against the rest of my teeth in the lower part of my mouth. now i know how a teething baby feels like. i'm just scared of the surgery... i get queasy and nauseous. this is the reason why i did not pursue medicine even when my entire family was bugging me to when i was younger. bleh.

anyway, i was supposed to hang out with some of my former blockmates today but we weren't able to push through which is sad but probably just as well since i'm having this really rotten toothache. hopefully we'll get to hang out soon before the midterms come up or something. even if i wanted to stay home and sleep away the pain, i had a lot of things to do today. i went to UP for a play we were required to see, then i had to go to our house in BF to check on some things. got home around 11, then bea dropped by so we can get coffee hehe :) i got to study a bit, which was good instead of just lying around at home. actually, i just got home now but i can't sleep because of the tea in my green *duh* tea frappe.

oh and another thing. when i was in BF earlier this evening, Vanilla Sky was showing on tv. i never really got to watch it before, but i was able to see it earlier. i liked it!!! i rarely REALLY like a movie, but i liked this one. it's just such a bummer coz i was only able to catch the first half coz i had to leave BF already. magsho-shopping nga ako ng mga CDs and DVDs soon... haven't seen any movies lately nor bought any new CDs. i've been meaning to go metrowalk since i heard they have really good DVDs there, pirated nga lang. i'm really sorry to say but who has money for original ones, anyway? last time i checked, an orginal DVD copy ranged from 600 pesos up until a thousand bucks. *ehem* anyway before i go, i just want to post this prayer that i find really beautiful and meaningful :)

*****

the serenity prayer

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Living ONE DAY AT A TIME,
enjoying one moment at a time,
accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.

Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it.

Trusting that He will make all things right if I
surrender to His Will.

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen.

on loop: look what you've done ~ jet

just got home :) good thing my dad let me out tonight, had a lot op pan. we had a late dinner at aysee's, sarap pa rin talaga ng sisig nila. it really is the best sisig i have ever had, and it was good to go back. we then went to podium for coffee ('coz we're after the stamps! hehe lapit na end of promo... 7 more stamps to go ;p). talked about a lot of stuff, and i studied rin for a bit. but the highlight of the night was when a kitty came up... it's white and orange but it had engine oil splattered over it :( we bought a donut for it, and it's really the sweetest and cutest thing. so what else was there to do? eh di, i brought it home! hehe. the more, the many-er, 'di ba? we named her podium coz *duh*. anyway, had a good week... kahit medyo stressful. good thing weekend na ulit. monday's declared to be a non-working holiday, too bad we really don't have classes on mondays so no biggie for us. sayang, sana tuesday na lang hehe. so... weekly recap na lang ulit, para syort and swit hehe.

- i received great news today from my boss in tele before... i still have my back pay! it's being held until i show up in the office and work on my clearance, since my resignation was not approved so i awol-ed.

- i need to go to UP anytime this week and look at the oblation for humanities class... i have a major paper on it due on aug 5. i'm kinda worried 'coz i'm not too familiar with UP, mawawala nanaman ako niyan. tsk tsk :(

- lapit na birthday ni beeeaaaa! it's too rainy para mag-beach, bey :) sembreak na lang hehe. i'll get you your 'stuff' hehe (el pueblo na lang! cougar! hehe jk)

- met up with my former blockmates after class kanina. just had coffee in starbucks katipunan. grabe, na-miss ko sila. it was great to be with them again after a long while, and it was a good thing they were able to stay for a long time (kahit mukha akong ewan sa uniform ko hehe). ako pa naunang kelangan umalis hehe.

- sunshine lef for dagupan last night she's having her much needed rest :) see you next week, shine!

- "ang sakit (talaga) ng ipin ko." ilang beses ko 'to nasabi ngayong araw na 'to. sakit talaga eh :( probably why i'm slightly feverish rin.

- li, your lex shirts are really nice. hehe gusto ko din :D

- our presentation for history was moved to next week which is good since my partner and i weren't ready to present this afternoon hehe. bait talaga ni Lord :)

- i was told na AIM is really more of a masteral school... not really college/undergrad studies :( plus, $9,000 a sem ang tuition... hello?!

- note to self: don't force the issue.

- i've been sickly the entire week... if not sinat, nosebleed. kung hindi naman yun, rashes. it could be the weather or the stress. i've been worrying a lot lately, but only a few hours ago did i learn to not dwell on the past. stick around, do everything you can but if nothing comes of it, atleast i'll know i didn't fall short.

- i'm gonna start working again! na-miss ko eh. iba talaga when you start earning some money for yourself, then you go head back to having an allowance. i'll start by around november or october. there's a huge demand since the holidays would be coming up plus i'd be able to arrange my 2nd sem schedule around my work schedule!

hrrmm... yun na muna. dami pa sana ako sasabihin eh, pero i forgot most of them and i'm too sleepy to work on the others. they're nonsense anyway. just my fill of electronic post-its for the future, in case i'd look back. ulyanin pa naman ako hehe. and oh yah, i have this new prayer and it's really nice and inspirational. i'll post it next time. lots of activities lined up for next week, i'll also have to go to ateneo for another paper. ngerks. plus prelims week is coming up fast... wow tagal ko na pala sa miriam. i survived hehe. anyway, gotta sleep already naduduling nako eh ;p

*****

"I used to think that life had a plan for me,
Until I realised life had to be planned by me,
see that's the key" - N Dey Say, Nelly