nocturnity

nocturnity

on loop: free (fragile) ~ maria mena

the sucky thing about having nocturnal working hours is that you're up and about when everyone else is asleep, even when it's your day to be off from your work. so now i'm awake, and there's no way i can sleep since my body clock's all topsy-turvy already. and what happens is that i end up thinking. i really don't like it when i start thinking... i'm really bad at thinking good thoughts. when i'm not doing anything, i end up thinking of things that are best left in the recesses of my mind. and when i get going, i can't stop. i end up getting paranoid and stressed and pressured, and all sorts of ugly stuff like that. so now i'm blogging in an effort to take my mind off thinking about things. hrrmm... i wanna get back to work already.

anyway, i wish i could get back to school already and get a degree. by then, i could finally work full-time and go about doing the things that i want to with my life. i'm just scared that i might get too comfortable not being in school that i may not want to go back anymore 'coz honestly, i'm really enjoying the non-academic life right now. though i miss going to school and learning and stuff, there are also a lotta stuff that are gonna be hard to miss about school. the stress and pressure and stuff didn't settle well with me... which is why i'm outta school and working. hehehe. different strokes for different folks. that's why i really look up to people who graduate, coz i know the shit they had to go through just to get to where they are. i wish that i'd be able to get my degree too someday. and soon :)

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Free (Fragile) ~ Maria Mena

I`ve been walking around all day, thinking
I think i have a problem, I think I think too much
I`ve been taught to hold back my tears and avoid them
But you`ve made pain into something I could touch

I`ve been walking around all day, laughing
Think I`d be better off without you here
And I bet you are sweet and hard to get over
So I`ll cry and people will stop and stare
Now thats ok, let them stop and stare...

Coz I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...

I`ve been walking around all day, waiting
And waiting is all I seem to do
´cause I never get it unless I`m fed it
But this time I'll just have to
Yeah this time I'll just have to...

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And I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...

Say you're not around... am I finished?
If you`re not around that's too bad
Hope you´re safe and sound, not alone now
´cause you know I believe in you...

I am still fragile
I am still hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...

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