amusing

Homework, I Love You

Homework, I love you. I think that you're great.
It's wonderful fun when you keep me up late.
I think you're the best when I'm totally stressed,
preparing and cramming all night for a test.

Homework, I love you. What more can I say?
I love to do hundreds of problems each day.
You boggle my mind and you make me go blind,
but still I'm ecstatic that you were assigned.

Homework, I love you. I tell you it's true.
There's nothing more fun or exciting to do.
You're never a chore, for it's you I adore.
I wish that our teacher would hand you out more.

Homework, I love you. You thrill me inside.
I'm filled with emotions. I'm fit to be tied.
I cannot complain when you frazzle my brain.
Of course that's because I'm completely insane.

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found this poem in a valentine's card one of my blockmates gave... i found it so amusing i just had to share it with you. captured my sentiments entirely *thick overtones of sarcasm* enjoy ;p

nothing special

hearing: You first believed ~ Hoku & The art of letting go ~ Mikaila

i was feeling totally rotten yesternight and had to post a really negative blog. sorry 'bout that. actually skipped school for the day. anyway, i'm not feeling all that chipper yet but i'll live ;p a lot of thanks to everyone who dropped by and left a line... it's very much appreciated. thanks, made me feel better :)

had dinner out with a relative's friend last night. really weird since it was all out of the blue and all so i wore jeans and sneaks... to a really formal restaurant. wow, how fashionable. anyway, it doesn't matter. we ate out at chef & brewer, a cafe and restaurant in ortigas. i'm such an ignorant little ninny, the place totally overwhelmed me... there was a maitre'd and all, had a lot of people with a band performing (retrospect), little floating candles in every table, muted lighting, a well-furnished bar, don't get me wrong, the place was great and i really really liked but they charged exorbitant prices! my gosh, 220Php for their special "c&b fried rice"? yeesh, what was in it... gold slivers? haha. i was afraid my money wouldn't be enough in that place, good thing my friend offered to foot the bill ;p yes! lol. i promised next time i'll be the one to foot the bill (kaya mcdo lang tayo ha? harhar).

i dunno, but i had a lot of fun, even if it were only dinner out. retrospect (the band who performed) was good! i'd always see them on tv but i never really got to appreciate them. they're really great crowd pleasers :) they played two sets, the first set with about eight slow and mellow songs and four fast upbeat ones, most coming from the 70's to the 80's music scene. then they had a break before their second set... we left around that time since it was late already (around 11). i really liked the place and promised i'd suggest to my friends that we try the place out one of these days (when we have a substantial amount of spare money lol ;p), their mozzarella cheese logs are the BEST, a must-try :) hehe.

by the way, i didn't touch any nicotine or caffeine for the whole day yesterday and not a drop of alchohol the whole night. knowing me, that's a pretty commendable feat, especially the caffeine and nicotine part since i'm not much of an alchohic anyway lol ;p anyway, still got to study for a leadership & strategy exam i'm having later before lunch... that's why i'm up early. hope i do good. haha. just had to post a little something in here before i forget about the night ;p

nonsense

i'm so sick of school. i'm so tired of problems.. of life and all its complexities. ayoko na (i give up) and tama na, please (please, enough already) have been my constant word of mouth for the past five weeks or so. i'm so sick of waiting and working and trying and failing and of that sh*t. if only i could just let it all go.

i'm so da*n tired of life. i am so ready to just give it up.

actually, i'm just plain godamned tired.

and i'm so sick of whining. bull.

kara-okay! (LOL)

did you guys get a load of that title? da*n, i'm soo corny... and getting worse by the minute at that. must be all the stress ;p anyway...

...i've been searching for this song for so long already and am glad to announce that i've finally found it! haha *laughter of shallow happiness* had a hard time looking for it 'coz i didn't what it was called ;p loved it the very first time i really heard it (though it's an old song already). a very mellow and relaxing feel-good song. decided to post the lyrics since it really has a beautiful meaning, and i especially like the few lines i've highlighted.. never fails to make me smile. enjoy ;p

Baby I'm-A Want You ~ Bread

Baby, I'm-a want you
Baby, I'm-a need you
You're the only one I care enough to hurt about
Maybe I'm-a crazy
But I just can't live without...

Your lovin' and affection
Givin' me direction
Like a guiding light to help me through a darkest hour
Lately I'm a-prayin'
That you'll always be a-stayin' beside me

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Feeling all the while and never really knowing why...

Lately I'm a-prayin'
That you'll always be a-stayin' beside me.

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Then you came along and made me laugh
And made me cry...
You taught me why...

Baby, I'm-a want you
Baby, I'm-a need you

Oh, it took so long to find you, baby

Baby, I'm-a want you
Baby, I'm-a need you

i'm feeling quite song-y today and am going to post another song i've only heard recently but been loving as well :)

She Will Be Loved ~ Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

CHORUS:
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with a broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

CHORUS

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I wanna make you feel beautiful

CHORUS

And she will be loved (Please don't try so hard to say goodbye)
And She will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
(I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain)

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

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this and that

hearing: Real ~ Plumb & Just the way you are ~ Milky

have any of you encountered the new google, pinoy version? go take a peek and see the "filipinized" google, complete with tagalog translations of the usually english links and all ;p what a trip. quite nice to realize that pinoys are actually beginning to be recognized in international erm... suites, such as google Ü

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catched mandy moore's latest chick flick (on valentines day, no less ;p), Chasing Liberty. no need for me to give a synopsis of the film since it really wasn't deep or anything, and i'm sure you've heard of it one way or the other. if you haven't, don't worry. no big loss, really ;p truthfully, i had every conviction that i would NOT like the film whatsoever. hmmm, as what's becoming the latest trend nowadays, i was wrong. ehehe. the movie's actually pretty cute, with a lot of eye-candy, and i don't just mean the many tourist places they filmed but more especially a certain matthew goode. *rarr* haha. hottie (take into consideration that this is the first time i've addressed any guy a "hottie", must count for something huh ;p ). anyway, check him, i mean the movie (lol) out if you can and if you really want to.

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added some fanlistings to the links :) just a few that i really, really am actually a fan of. so far, it's just a mark herras (woohoo :D hehe) fanlisting and one of oh-so-lovable spongebob. i'm searching for a good LOTR (or aragorn) and friends (gotta love this show) fanlisting as i type this post, so i might add those up, too. anyway, that's that. just thought i'd share ;p

pooped

hearing: fast cars ~ tracy chapman & hanggang ngayon ~ kyla

just got home a few minutes ago. hayy. don't think i've ever felt so tired in my entire life. i've been out the whole day since 8 am, attending to a million and one things at a time. i could really use some efficient time management here. anyway, went out with my cousin (whom i've just met a few months back lol) and a friend. we just ate out in italliani's (they have the best cheesecake!) in makati and hung out in greenbelt's uhm... plaza? some sort of park there with a fountain that has colorful changing lights ;p i'm such a dunce when it comes to makati landmarks. around 930, some of my cousin's friends joined us for coffee. it was really great hanging out with them since they had so many crazy ideas and told so many stories about growing up in the states and everything :) after a while, they decided to drop by bay walk in roxas boulevard to check out the lova palooza (or something) kissing marathon. hmmm. the event was sponsored by colgate and it aims to break chile's record of having 5,000 couples kiss simultaneously by 12 mn when all the kissing's gonna happen ;p... when we got there a little past 11, the official registered count of couples was way past 10,000 already! whoa. there were literally thousands of people lol.

it was hard to find a parking spot anywhere near the area so we had to park in the westin philippine plaza lot (where my cousin's friends were checked in) and had to walk the (very long) distance to the bay walk. my cousin and his friends then had the crazy idea to go register and "join the fun" as they put it. it was easy for them to say since they were already in pairs: my cousin sancho and his girlfriend yvette, and their friends mike and kim who were also a couple. hmmm, so that leaves me and their friend ryan (who prefers to be called josh though). nyerks. no thank you. they were totally persuading me and when i totally (lol ;p) refused, they couldn't understand why. uhmm... duh? i barely knew the guy (though i do know him just about as long as i do my cousin) and i'm not very much into "kissing friendships". they wouldn't give the issue a rest and i've never been so thankful for the dark so as not to let them see my burning face (*embarassing*). haha. i'm such a maria clara lola as they put it. ( should i be offended? hmm. ehehe)

they couldn't understand what the big deal was since it was just for "ten seconds anyway" (the required duration of the kiss). hrrmmm. nuh-uh. i'm an old, conservative fuddy-duddy... so what? in the end, they gave in (or probably got tired and decided there was no chance i'd give in ;p) so they let me off the hook, and i half-ran half-skipped to the nearest coffee shop to seek solace in a cup of coffee. haha. i was accompanied by ryan/josh since he very well couldn't stay and be a third wheel with all the couples in the bay walk. when i was a bit calmer, i found the whole issue hilarious. never in a million years would i have imagined myself in such. i was even expecting josh/ryan to gloss over it again, but he didn't :) thank god. going home, i got a ride with their driver and josh.. nice guy. from san jose, california :) born and raised there but is a cebuano at heart. ANYWAY. moving on. all in all, the night was fun, a pre-valentine treat even. right now, i can't sleep which is probably from all the coffee or something. hope i'll get up in time for my 9am class tom :D, me being the eternal latecomer. eheh. wish me luck.

happy hearts day, everyone!

love-hate relationships

one of the most confusing ang frustrating enigmas of all time (at least, in my opinion) is a love-hate relationship. the title itself is quite explanatory but the phenomena actually goes deeper :) the relationship in question begins with fond (if not intense) emotions and feeling of love or maybe of like for a certain someone. these feelings somehow end up devouring your whole being... it takes up your time and your thoughts. despite this, the one feeling these erm.. feelings clam up. this person fails to fully relay what it is he/she really feels and instead strives to maintain his/her composure and sort of neutrality, when deep inside he/she is convulsing amidst all the turmoil within him/her.

and for what reason? this person somehow somehow feels that it is not needed that the situation be clarified, so it is left at that. he/she is under the pretense that what it is he/she feels is really no big deal and that in time, it'll wear off. even if there is an inkling between the two that there actually might be more to what they have than meets the eye, the issue never arises during the numerous conversations they have. as time goes on, the once intense feelings are now replaced by a numbness brought about by familiarity and a security that the object of affection (O.A. ;p lol) shall remain the way he/she is, keeping their blurry concept of a "relationship" intact.

one day, our object of affection suddenly acquires for him/her self an "object of affection" of his/her own. suddenly, like a tsunami of gibberish, our subject feels like he/she is being cheated... betrayed, even abandoned. he/she feels that after all the "love" (or whatever it is) he/she has bestowed upon his/her "OA", this person had the audacity to place it in disregard and go fall for another person. what happened to their "special understanding"? to their "unspoken agreement"? well, it's gone down the drain, that's what. this is how our subject feels. this is where the hate comes in. he/she begins to hate the OA supposedly for what he/she has "done"...

when in reality and upon close examination, it is really the feelings the OA generates within our subject that is being hated. simply because, our subject feels stupid, inane and unreasonable. stupid for not making any move and letting the OA slip away, inane for thinking it would not happen, and unreasonable because he/she knows that it is NOT right to focus all this hate at our OA... because the OA knew nothing of what our subject felt, hence our OA does not take these into consideration thereby rendering our subject's silent accusations invalid. but deep down the heart of hearts of our subjects, he/she will still find that after peeling away all the layers of hate, regret, misery and self-reprimanding, there still remains the feelings of love that started it all.

but even deeper is the knowledge that he/she is really the stupid one. smack-your-head-against-wall kind of stupid (whatever that is), and he/she then hopes that in time, this'll come to pass. for the meantime, our subject shall indulge him/herself with sappy heartbreak songs, get teary-eyed over silly memories and most of all, feel bitterness. and the rest becomes etched in the anals of our subject's history...

now, wasn't that such a stupid, vicious cycle? head-reeling. how uncomprehensible. daymn, even i don't understand what the heck i've been writing about up there. just felt like babbling out loud. don't mind me.. this has been a stupid post. nonsense, as a matter of fact (as i'm sure you've already deduced by now. lol) :p

hmmm. i should get back to my normal stressed out life. i'm starting to think crazy. later... ciao.

unbelievable

hearing: Feel ~ Robbie Williams & Some Sorta Fairytale ~ Tori Amos

hot daymn. you would not believe what just happened. for the past few days, everytime i'd drop by my blog, it'd look like dump truck ran over it, full speed ahead. being the illiterate i am when it comes to html, i presumed that i had bungled something up during my quest to discover what little html know-how i possess (if ever there are any). i had no idea where i went wrong... i kept coming back to the source for the page and making little adjustments to see if it would restore anything. well, it didn't. i was forced to let the site be, as horrible as it was, for a few days since i'm smack in the middle of my worst academic week ever (well, ain't i always). i have an accounting exam later and an hour long presentation on oligarchies (which i haven't started, by the way.. i am so dead), but i couldn't keep my mind on the work i had to do. images of my wasak blog kept coming back to haunt me. so putting aside the nerd in me, i decided to log on the internet and once more try to fix the mess that was my blog. after much tinkering and pondering, i have finally discovered the culprit. darrnn.. who would've thought. what actually happened pala was that my internet server (i won't mention anymore what it is, since i'm about to bash it big time and they might do the same thing to me again lol) where i upload my template files and images and all that stuff DELETED my account "without warning", as they put it. rarr.

to sum it up, it came off as a mild shock. i had not violated any of their "terms and conditions" which they say i did. mentally conducting a run-through of my blogging activities, i didn't see any plagiaristic or harrasing activities anywhere in it... or even slightly libelous. i had to find out what i did wrong (naks), expecting some terrible (oh so terrible) fault... well, guess what it was. my account was "deleted without warning" because (here it comes, brace yourselves) i had an "irregularly long filename" for one of my images. homaygad, isn't that such a bastardly offense? my oh my, flog me for naming one of my files with two words and forgetting to (horror of horrors) separate them with an underscore or something. sheesh. how idiotically mundane. so kids, remember: watch your filenames 'coz if they too long (insert sarcastic overtones), your server just might delete your account without warning. tsk tsk. that wouldn't be very pretty now, would it?. daymn.

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by the way, i've put in a midi file as background music ;p got the site for it from abi. it's a chinese track hehe (i won't say na by whom, those who know will know and those who don't... well, it's no biggie anyway ;p). i've abandoned hopes of putting in an mp3 file as background music. too traumatized, i guess. hmmm.. any feedback (comments... tips... suggestions.. anything)? just tell me if it's annoying or whatever, then i'll take it out. or change it. or something... :D

woop-de-doo

hrmmm.. i'm improving in this html thingamajig. i actually discovered (after much gnashing of teeth and tearing of hair.. lol jk :D) how to embed a sound file into my site. that way, background music would be playing on the well.. background ;p it's not very good or anything, since the sound file i uploaded "broke" somewhere along the way, but that's alright. there's always time to fix it next time, since i already know how (naks, nagfi-feeling na :P). in case anyone's wodering what the sound file was, it was the song of Pippin (a very soulful and moving one at that), one of the hobbits from Lord of the Rings 3: Return of the King. i chose that one since it was short, hence faster to upload (i just had to see if it'll work.. guess it didn't hehe), plus i do like the song :). some spurts of sound can be heard at times while one is viewing this site... please don't be freaked out ;) it's just pippin and my broken sound file. lol. fix it next time. a cr*pload of schoolwork is breathing down my neck.

starstrucked

for those of you who haven't heard of starstruck, this reality-based celebrity search airing on GMA7, i just want to ask... which cave did you isolate yourself in?! just kidding :) anyway, the show ran for fourteen weeks, in search of the ultimate idols (a female and a male) out of the thousands who auditioned and the fourteen who were finalists. the competition culminated last night in a jampacked Araneta Coliseum. the winners would go home with a P1-M exclusive contract with GMA7 and P500,000 pesos in cash.

during the first few weeks, i never really paid any attention to it. but the show caught my fancy around its last four weeks or so. okay, i admit... i had a crush! *evil laughter* anyway, mark herras truly got my vote. not just because he was ehem, gifted with (very) attractive features, he was also a SUPERB dancer, a good actor and had great people skills. a deserving artist. the industry definitely need more talents (who really do have talent) like him. and guess what, the industry got it! haha, mark won :) *yipee* his female counterpart was a jennylyn mercado who i was also rooting for because she had a great great singing voice and is really talented and attractive... really deserving as well :)

i just had to blog about this (ain't i the lamest). aharharhar. anyway, congrats to them and may they make good use of the oppurtunity granted. :)

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an afterthought (but definitely extremely important): andrea, wishing your dad a successful operation later and a swift recovery. i'll be praying for him :) take care.

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plugs: sprz and her spankin' new layout, lisa and her deep thoughts and contemplations (naks), shine (convince her to quit the hiatus! :D) and pam, mah beystpren ;p