on loop: here with me ~ dido
it's back to school season again. nothing new for most of the student populace but not so routine for me since i've been out of school for about eight months already (long story). i was an out-of-school youth! i just realized that now... and i'm not proud of it, before any of you get any ideas. i'm glad and relieved to know i'll be going back to school this june, and though it isn't a hundred percent sure yet that i'm getting into miriam, more or less, i'm getting a good feel of it already. transferring schools... scary stuff. but hopefully nothing i'll be breaking my back over. wow i've been going to ateneo a whole lot these past couple of weeks... i'm so going to miss that school. i'm gonna miss being an atenean, and i won't even deny it, i'll always regret losing my chance when i had it. as for now, i'll just be on the sidelines admiring them ateneans for their guts to stick it out, and for their smarts to not waste their turn like i did. but i'm not bitter, don't get me wrong, regretful probably and sad of course, but not spiteful. i'm not that low.
another thing... tag-ulan na! *duh* anyway, i love this kind of weather. makes me happy hehe. it may not be the most convenient weather for everyone but hey, nothing's ever easy anyway. i just look forward to this kind of weather all year long, when it's all cool and calm. i always tell my dad that this kind of weather makes me want to sit beside a window with a big mug of hot chocolate or noodles listening to better days by dianne reeves. haha pa-emote effect, kainis. owell. enough about the weather. i sincerely hope that miriam would be a good place for me and that i made a smart move transferring there. i haven't told my dad and i'm pretty sure he'll wring my neck or the like when i finally let him know that i'm officially out of ateneo already... but i'll survive. there's been worse i suppose. come to think of it, i never see any miriamites (is that right?) studying in katipunan... in fact, i don't remember seeing any have books or heavy-duty school stuff with them. do they actually study? will i be the first ever? haha i'm just kidding. no offense there. i have high regard for miriamites.
and i'll be in a uniform! hahaha. who would've thunk? by galigash, come to think of it, i've got so many things i've got to do and school's starting on the 8th! yikes. i don't have my uniforms yet... or my class sched... or a course... or shoes... my gosh, shoes! haha just kidding bout the shoes. but seriously, i haven't even enrolled. wow school hasn't even started and i'm already cramming. anyway, the change of pace will probably do me a whole lot of good. haha just the thought of me in a uniform again after all these years really makes me laugh. at least less wardrobe worries. oh and one more thing, i'm thinking if i should still work during school... even for just the first couple of months? i've officially resigned from my job last monday and honestly, and if it were possible, i'm having withdrawal symptoms. i still wake up in the middle of the night with a jolt thinking i'm late for work and i'm still haunted by the stuff i feel i should still be doing there. wow. i miss my job... most especially, the people (and the money! hehe). i'll have to think about that... it would be nice to earn some extra money but not at the expense of getting enough rest to accomplish my school stuff. school definitely comes first. i've slacked off too much in the past, time to learn my lesson ;p
Monday, May 30, 2005
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
beach and pieces
on loop: say that you love me ~ mymp
get it? beach (bits) and pieces? nyaha. ang corny nun... i don't even know why i put that in there. anyway, to cut a short story long, nag beach kami! wow sarap ng bakasyon :) i loved it. though there were many tough points during the travel, like the banca rides and the manyak banceros, everything was cool. there were underwater caves and a ton of beaches. we went island-hopping, grilled pusit and fish in the beach, got drunk, took a whole lotta pictures and generally had fun :) the house we stayed in was really nice. just like any regular house in manila with appliances, big neat rooms and bath tubs, one wouldn't think we were in a fishing village roughly 10 hours outta manila (counting a number of bus rides and banca rides). the food we ate was freshly caught from the sea straight to kitchen... super fresh pusit and fish. the sun was warm and the water was great. i'm no big fan of swimming (since i didn't know how) but i loved the water, especially in the caves where the waves were really big and fun hehe. i'll post some pics up some time as soon they're uploaded into a pc :)
after that trip, i suddenly feel like being lazy for the rest of the summer. nuff bout work and worries... which is a reason why i've been skipping work harhar. how irresponsible. owell, they had it coming. anyway, i would love to go to a beach again before classes officially start and everyone slips into stress-mode again. ayayay. i'm also hoping that my application for miriam college would pull through. for sure, i won't be going back to ateneo anymore for a number of reasons i'd rather forget. if ever miriam works out, i'll hopefully take up business administration there or accounting. then law afterwards. no real rush... just taking my sweet time but not to a point that i'm dilly-dallying already. i'm hoping that i would still get to see my old blockmates from ateneo, i miss them already. if ever, since i'll be just right beside them, we could hang out and get coffee or something. or even study hehe ;p speaking of, i was in katipunan this afternoon and i saw several people from ateneo from my classes when i was still there. we got coffee and did some catching up. hehe kaka-miss, even if we weren't really close at that time we had the same classes.
i haven't gone to work since last saturday (since we hit the beach this weekend) up until now and i'm kinda hesitant and embarassed to show up there again after skipping all my paperwork and duties just like that. but one of the people there still owe me more than 2k and it would really be bastos to just disappear without notice. so hopefully, i'll be brave enough later to show up at work and i also hope that no one would chew it out with me hehe. i'd really feel bad :D sana they missed me na lang... hehe just kidding. today was supposedly a big day at work since it's the QBR (qyuarterly business review) and the entire account's been suiting up for this, and i'm not there. boy, am i gonna get it. owell. i won't dry up and die if ever i lose this job... though i didn't want to leave this way, just happened to be so. no sense crying over spilled milk and missed business reviews. anyway, right now i'm just glad i got a vacation, albeit a short one. thanks to shine, kas and jun for the accomodations and planning. next time ulit :)
get it? beach (bits) and pieces? nyaha. ang corny nun... i don't even know why i put that in there. anyway, to cut a short story long, nag beach kami! wow sarap ng bakasyon :) i loved it. though there were many tough points during the travel, like the banca rides and the manyak banceros, everything was cool. there were underwater caves and a ton of beaches. we went island-hopping, grilled pusit and fish in the beach, got drunk, took a whole lotta pictures and generally had fun :) the house we stayed in was really nice. just like any regular house in manila with appliances, big neat rooms and bath tubs, one wouldn't think we were in a fishing village roughly 10 hours outta manila (counting a number of bus rides and banca rides). the food we ate was freshly caught from the sea straight to kitchen... super fresh pusit and fish. the sun was warm and the water was great. i'm no big fan of swimming (since i didn't know how) but i loved the water, especially in the caves where the waves were really big and fun hehe. i'll post some pics up some time as soon they're uploaded into a pc :)
after that trip, i suddenly feel like being lazy for the rest of the summer. nuff bout work and worries... which is a reason why i've been skipping work harhar. how irresponsible. owell, they had it coming. anyway, i would love to go to a beach again before classes officially start and everyone slips into stress-mode again. ayayay. i'm also hoping that my application for miriam college would pull through. for sure, i won't be going back to ateneo anymore for a number of reasons i'd rather forget. if ever miriam works out, i'll hopefully take up business administration there or accounting. then law afterwards. no real rush... just taking my sweet time but not to a point that i'm dilly-dallying already. i'm hoping that i would still get to see my old blockmates from ateneo, i miss them already. if ever, since i'll be just right beside them, we could hang out and get coffee or something. or even study hehe ;p speaking of, i was in katipunan this afternoon and i saw several people from ateneo from my classes when i was still there. we got coffee and did some catching up. hehe kaka-miss, even if we weren't really close at that time we had the same classes.
i haven't gone to work since last saturday (since we hit the beach this weekend) up until now and i'm kinda hesitant and embarassed to show up there again after skipping all my paperwork and duties just like that. but one of the people there still owe me more than 2k and it would really be bastos to just disappear without notice. so hopefully, i'll be brave enough later to show up at work and i also hope that no one would chew it out with me hehe. i'd really feel bad :D sana they missed me na lang... hehe just kidding. today was supposedly a big day at work since it's the QBR (qyuarterly business review) and the entire account's been suiting up for this, and i'm not there. boy, am i gonna get it. owell. i won't dry up and die if ever i lose this job... though i didn't want to leave this way, just happened to be so. no sense crying over spilled milk and missed business reviews. anyway, right now i'm just glad i got a vacation, albeit a short one. thanks to shine, kas and jun for the accomodations and planning. next time ulit :)
Monday, May 09, 2005
isang tanong...
on loop: regresa a mi ~ il divo
... walang sagot.
i tried to refrain from blogging about what's been bugging me lately, but sometimes people just need some form of release or outlet to vent out on. anyway.
wala naman akong isang malinaw na bagay na gustong talakayin maliban sa isyu na mayroong gumugulo sa akin. simula nang nangyari yung araw na iyon, para bang lahat na nga bagay ay nagkandalabo-labo na. bakit ba kasi hindi na ako natuto? kahit kailan talaga. malas nga naman oo. dumagdag pa tuloy sa mga problema ko. ayoko na sana mamroblema pa dahil napakadami nang tao ang namomorblema sa ngayon, ayoko nang makisawsaw pa pero hindi talaga kaya talikdan eh, makulit kasi.
mas naguguluhan pa ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ko nga ba itong problemahin or wala naman nang kelangan pag-usapan sa bagay na ito kung kaya mas nararapat na inaasikaso ko na lamang ang mga mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng aking trabaho at pag-aaral? sa tutuusin, maliit lang na predikamento ang bumabagabag sa akin kung ihahalintulad sa edukasyon, trabaho o pera.
isa pa iyon. gusto ko na sana mag-aral pero mukhang di iyon mangyayari... dahil nanaman sa kapabayaan ko. kaya naman di ko rin masisisi ang iilang mga tao diyan kapag may nasasabi sila tungkol sa akin (at hindi iyon mga kaibigan ko, cool silang lahat ;p). kung minsan kasi, mahirap naman talagang maging responsable na lamang palagi. pero sana nalaman ko noon pa na mas mahirap pala ang panagutan at panindigan ang mga resulta ng pagiging iresponsable.
sana malutasan ko na ang mga bagay na 'to. at sana rin ay maiayos ko na buhay ko. hirap talaga maging kalat eh. hirap din magtanong nang magtanong, wala namang mahanap na kahit man lang kalahating sagot. sa pagkakataon na akala mong makakukuha ka na ng sagot o di kaya't 'hint' man lang eh mas naging malabo pa ang mga bagay bagay. o baka naman kasi malinaw na talaga ang lahat? ako lang ang nagpipilit na ibahin ang sitwasyon. hay engerts.
sa ngayon, ang naiisip ko pa laman na kasagutan sa tanong ko ay... wala. hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay napag-uusapan dahil kung minsan ay mahirap din ito ipaliwanag o simulan. mas maigi kung kumilos na lamang tayo nang ayon sa tingin nating tama at karapat-dapat. madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin, lalo na kapag ang karapat-dapat na gawin ay taliwas sa hinahangad o ikaliligaya natin. ahahay. pero may tiwala ako na maayos din ang lahat nang ayon sa ikabubuti ng lahat, panahon at pasensiya lamang ang kailangan.
... walang sagot.
i tried to refrain from blogging about what's been bugging me lately, but sometimes people just need some form of release or outlet to vent out on. anyway.
wala naman akong isang malinaw na bagay na gustong talakayin maliban sa isyu na mayroong gumugulo sa akin. simula nang nangyari yung araw na iyon, para bang lahat na nga bagay ay nagkandalabo-labo na. bakit ba kasi hindi na ako natuto? kahit kailan talaga. malas nga naman oo. dumagdag pa tuloy sa mga problema ko. ayoko na sana mamroblema pa dahil napakadami nang tao ang namomorblema sa ngayon, ayoko nang makisawsaw pa pero hindi talaga kaya talikdan eh, makulit kasi.
mas naguguluhan pa ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ko nga ba itong problemahin or wala naman nang kelangan pag-usapan sa bagay na ito kung kaya mas nararapat na inaasikaso ko na lamang ang mga mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng aking trabaho at pag-aaral? sa tutuusin, maliit lang na predikamento ang bumabagabag sa akin kung ihahalintulad sa edukasyon, trabaho o pera.
isa pa iyon. gusto ko na sana mag-aral pero mukhang di iyon mangyayari... dahil nanaman sa kapabayaan ko. kaya naman di ko rin masisisi ang iilang mga tao diyan kapag may nasasabi sila tungkol sa akin (at hindi iyon mga kaibigan ko, cool silang lahat ;p). kung minsan kasi, mahirap naman talagang maging responsable na lamang palagi. pero sana nalaman ko noon pa na mas mahirap pala ang panagutan at panindigan ang mga resulta ng pagiging iresponsable.
sana malutasan ko na ang mga bagay na 'to. at sana rin ay maiayos ko na buhay ko. hirap talaga maging kalat eh. hirap din magtanong nang magtanong, wala namang mahanap na kahit man lang kalahating sagot. sa pagkakataon na akala mong makakukuha ka na ng sagot o di kaya't 'hint' man lang eh mas naging malabo pa ang mga bagay bagay. o baka naman kasi malinaw na talaga ang lahat? ako lang ang nagpipilit na ibahin ang sitwasyon. hay engerts.
sa ngayon, ang naiisip ko pa laman na kasagutan sa tanong ko ay... wala. hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay napag-uusapan dahil kung minsan ay mahirap din ito ipaliwanag o simulan. mas maigi kung kumilos na lamang tayo nang ayon sa tingin nating tama at karapat-dapat. madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin, lalo na kapag ang karapat-dapat na gawin ay taliwas sa hinahangad o ikaliligaya natin. ahahay. pero may tiwala ako na maayos din ang lahat nang ayon sa ikabubuti ng lahat, panahon at pasensiya lamang ang kailangan.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
run of the mill lives
on loop: ikaw ang lahat sa akin (really bad LSS)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)