fragments

on loop: city of blinding lights ~ u2

we held sunshine's surprise baby shower last night (mahilig kasi kami sa surprise, i think we have issues with predictability hehe). she just came back from dagupan earlier that night when we all barged in on her complete with pizza, cake and of course, gifts! she received the coolest and cutest gifts. good thing she had a good time (i hope!)... congrats, shine :)

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i missed my friends so much pala. its been some time since i last got to see them (mga 2 weeks, pero matagal na yun!). it was great to be with them again... pero malapit na sembreak. i can't wait. i'm excited... beach!!!

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i'm in school right now. been here since this morning since i have consultation with some of my profs. it's supposed to be time for lunch now but i'm really sleepy (430 nako nakatulog eh) so i decided i had do something to keep me awake. kung kakain pako tapos maulan-ulan pa, makakatulog na talaga ako nyan for sure. kaya internet na lang, quick post. i need to be here till late later then i'll be heading off to my blockmate's house to discuss our baby thesis. tomorrow i have an exposure trip and call time is 5 frickin' am. hello?!? 'di pa kaya ako nakakatulog nun. ayayay patay. i need to sleep early tonight (yeah right! hehe), since the trip's gonna last the whole day. scheduled arrival time is 8 pm. solid.

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ateneo - la salle later (or sunday?)! i'll be in school but i'm vacant at that time. 2pm right? makikinood na lang ako sa dorm nung blockmate ko hehe. by the way, my tv at home is busted. bad trip, sira siya. ayaw mag-on. pweh. sana pinaayos na pag uwi ko hehe :) anyway, wala nako masabi, and bored nako (in short, inaantok), kaya lalabas muna ako to get back with my blockmates. para may kausap ako, and di ako makatulog hehe.

ganda ng weather! sarap matulog, noh? o yan, happy sleeping :) o cge, next time na lang ako magpo-post ng mas matino... bye!

ala lang

on loop: lovely day ~ luther vandross feat. busta rhymes

just dropping in. haven't had any sleep since 7am this morning, and to think 3 hours lang yung tulog ko nun. had a lot of stuff to do today, rushed from one place to another getting one thing or another done. if i haven't had any sleep and i need to be in school by 8am later, what the heck am i doing still up, right? well, for starters i needed a break. the minute i got home this afternoon, i started on our backdrops already. i'm running out of paint (and i'm halfway done pa lang. patay mamaya na 'to kelangan)! anyway, decided to check my mail and print two of the papers i have due later, plus the invocation i made for the international day of peace etc (pinwheels for peace) since that's gonna be this morning as well. and to think i didn't even cram or what, i actually worked on everything as soon as i found out about them pero kulang pa rin. rarr.

pero ayoko nang mag-reklamo sa dami ng mga gawain ko ek ek (lahat na ata ng tao puro na lang reklamo hehe) kasi lahat naman ng tao ayaw ng may mga tambak na gawin eh, pero kailangan naman talaga eh so shyatap na lang ako. i'm lucky i've got a home to do my stuff in, a bed to sleep in after kahit 2 hours lang, food to eat, a ride to school, and... well, you get my drift. despite everything, everything's cool. ala lang... happy lang ako ngayon hehe (or baka kulang lang sa tulog kaya kung ano-ano na pinagsasasabi). sige, need to get back to painting again. sana na lang matapos na 'tong week na 'to!

hectic!

on loop: diamonds are forever ~ kanye west

had such a hectic day today (sat, sep.17)... unbelievable. when i got home yesterday, i had to get to work right away even if i were sick since i had so many things lined up. i usually lie around and just bum whenever it's friday since i've got a long weekend ahead of me, but this time i really had to get going. i ended up sleeping at 6am. had to get up around 930 since i had rehearsals in school at 1030, but au naturelle, i am never on time. after that, i got to go home for a bit, but had to go back for some other stuff. my dad also lost his n9300 (must run in the family hehe) and he was pretty bummed about it so i had to stay with him. when he was settled, i had to get right back to work since i had some fine-tuning to do for our script. gah! nasasakal nako sa stress. which is why i promise to go easy on myself tomorrow, or later, whatever basta sunday and cram everything else on monday... mwehehehe. baka tuluyan nakong lagnatin nyan, i'm not used to being too studious eh haha. so there. i can't wait! but for now, i'm slaving over a baby thesis that i need to get done before i get to sleep, as a condition for going light on myself after. para fair, 'di ba? (kahit mukhang 6am nanaman ako matutulog nito) hehe...

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anyway, sige na nga aamin, oops i mean, magre-react na 'ko. hehe. i actually find the Pinoy Big Brother show on abs amusing. i honestly thought it would be a cheap rip-off of the original international series, pero astig naman pala 'sya eh. got slightly hooked on it for a bit during its first few weeks but i haven't been able to watch it lately, kasi nalulunod nako sa mga gawain and parang medyo boring na siya 'coz i dunno what's going on na hehe. lalang... i hope uma wins though. haha. just 'coz he's cool and parang ayos kasama. pero krash ko si jb hehe, but i learned na he's not as pleasant as he would like people to perceive him pala. aww sayang... owell. ayun. naisipan ko lang ilantad para my slate is clean na ahehehe... 'di ba, li? *hint hint*

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ubod na ng kabagalan tong PC ko... and having worked in a PC company, i know i need more RAM. pero ang mahal nun eh! tsk tsk. dilemmas. don't wanna ask naman money from my dad... dami ko nang gastos these past couple of weeks. guess i'll have to live with this muna, kaya pag nag da-download ako, may dala nakong pocketbook para may gagawin pag nagaantay ng 10 years ahahaha. parang ngayon, dahil anim yung songs na dina-download ko, i really need a book to keep me awake. basahin niyo: 5 people you meet in heaven by mitch albom. cool siya :)

cheers!

on loop: no ordinary love ~ sade

to my dear friend,

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Andrea!!!

you've gone so far and been through so much

but it's great to know that you came out stronger and better.

here's to more kick-ass years for you!!!

TSERS!

***

admu lost to dlsu last thursday. BOO. and also, another BOO to arana for that unsportsman-like gesture. tsk tsk, taas pa naman ng tingin ko sa'yo. ayan na technical ka tuloy. ehehe.

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bad trip. i'm so sick :( dami dami dami dami ko pa namang kelangan gawin. pinaka-malaking BOO.

bumabati

on loop: you're beautiful ~ james blunt (super nice ;p)

bago pa ang lahat (para 'to sa 13 ng sep)...

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHINE!!!

wishing you the best in eveything...

peace of mind and prosperity of heart.

we lab you!

kaya mo 'yan! astig ka naman eh :)

*****

sa 83 years ko nang nagba-blogspot, ngayon ka lang na-realize na may ms word pala dito. hahaha. kakaaliw. it already appeared before, then went out for a while and i hadn't noticed it come back. very cool.

anyway... excited na ko bukas! hehehehe, alam nyo na kung bakit ;p

what's even more exciting is that by the first week of october, sembreak na!!! i can't wait sobra. in all the years that i've been a student, ngayon pa lang ata ako makaka-experience ng more than one month na sembreak. yeah!

*****

earlier this afternoon, there was a rally right in front ateneo. it was mostly a call for truth wherein passing motorists were asked to honk their horns or create some noise to show support for the cause. i wish i had a car... bubusina talaga ako hanggang maubos baterya ng sasakyan ko hehe.

ispiking of ateneo... i've been hearing a lot of things that have been happening in there. nako nako... the things the years can do to people nga naman oo. the most unlikely of people to get together, have. who would've thought? these two couples probably never even saw themselves together, and if they were told a couple of years back that this would happen, they would probably scoff at it. well, lookit them now :) meron din mga career changes! mga di mo inaakalang mga mangyayari, nangyari na. hehe. congrats. i don't mean to be gossipy or nosy, just surprised and pleasantly at that.

*****

and in last sunday's game, ateneo beat feu! yeah. astig tenorio.

huling hirit - "when you know what you want but you're not getting it, move on." oh so true.

survey from mari :)

on loop: blind ~ lifehouse

3 names you go by:
1. Hyannah
2. Hyan
3. Yan (for the lazy ones or those who can't read my name hehe)

3 screen names you have had:
1. hyanz
2. blueminded
3. hyannah (does this count?)

3 physical things you like about yourself:
1. Eyes
2. Hair (low maintenance hehe)
3. Ismayl

3 physical things you don’t like about yourself:
1. Feet
2. Uhm.. i slouch so i guess, my back? hehe
3. Weight

3 parts of your heritage:
1. Pinoy
2. To the
3. Bones hehe

3 things that scare you:
1. Losing my family
2. Failure, in general
3. Fear of the Unknown

3 things of your everyday essentials:
1. Cellphone
2. Money
3. My Dad

3 of your favorite musical artists:
I like a lot

3 of your favorite songs:
Sobrang dami but right now i'm listening to ~
1. cool ~ gwen stefani
2. ever after ~ bonnie bailey
3. you belong to me ~ jason wade

3 things you want in a relationship:
1. Support
2. Trust and Loyalty
3. Love

3 physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Smile
2. Eyes
3. Hands

3 non-physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Humor / Conversationalism
2. Mind (lalo na pag magaling mag-math! hehe jk)
3. Good treatment of his family and friends

3 of your favorite hobbies:
1. Write
2. Go out! (watch movies, eat, drink, shop, etc, especially with prends ;p)
3. Music

3 careers you’re considering/you’ve considered:
1. Law
2. Business
3. When i was young, i wanted to be a fashion designer hehe

3 places you want to go on a vacation:
1. Italy
2. Palawan
3. France

3 kids' names you like:
1. Kristen
2. Halley
3. Jason

3 things you want to do before you die:
1. Say my proper goodbyes (and ay lab yus hehe)
2. Confess! and go to mass/pray
3. Settle all unfinished businesses hehe

3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy/girl:
BOYS
1. i love basketball
2. i don't like skirts
3. i'm not poised and all my stuff is blue hehe

GIRLS
1. i scream when there's an ipis
2. i think like a girl
3. i always cry during sappy movies

3 celeb crushes:
1. Chad Michael Murray
2. Mark Herras (walang kokontra hehe)
3. Michael Vartan

3 people you would like to take this quiz:
(if you guys have the time ;p)
1. Reowr
2. Raberdaki
3. Friendly_Foe

*****

i just realized today's the birthday of one of the biggest and most unforgettable <3s (?) i have ever had (way back in HS pa 'to). this guy made such an impact on my life... thanks, for the good and even for the bad. hope you're doing great. happy birthday to you!

two birthdays are coming uuuuupppppppp... hehe. happy birthday shine (13th sep) and andrea (15th sep)! i love you both :)

anyway, hayyy. i'm bored. pasukan nanaman... mag-aral na nga ako.

wish ko laanngggg...

on loop: something about you ~ lifehouse

i want i want i want to:

- watch movies.
memoirs of a geisha (zhang ziyi! ken watanabe of the last samurai!)
sisterhood of the travelling pants
pride and prejudice
the da vinci code (tom hanks' in this one)
red eye
the 40-year old virgin
superman (i think there's this new one)
and of course, harry potter!

- travel.
lantuan island, hong kong disneyland (opening on monday!)
palawan (dos palmas actually kahit nagka kidnapping dun hehe)
cebu / zen spa (wow heaven 'to)
boracay (even if they say it's overrated)
italy (pang honeymoon din hehe)

- shop and splurge.
laptop (p4 with ht tech 3.0 ghz with atleast 256mb ram and nvidia geforce video card with sound blaster audigy sound card and cd-r / dvd-rom combo drive. dream machine!)
nike running shoes
the new slimtype ps2
astone allure mp3 flashdrive - 1 GB (malapit naaaa... saglit na lang hehe)
sony ericsson p910i or s700i
davidoff cool water for women (all-time favorite cologne)
rachel's tears (novel)
all the DVDs i want (mga 40 titles (yung iba pa dito mg series hehe) na yung nasa list ko ;p)
at eto malupet: 2004 ford escape. na black. wooowww.

SIGH. sarap naman mangarap eheh.

*****

anyway.

just got home. we got burger machine before we went home, na-miss ko! childhood memories :) roastbeef sandwich with cheese tsaka sansrival... sarap!

and for those who'd want to know, constantine maroulis (of american idol '05) is coming to manila in november, with the other idols as well i think. and i just have to say, natalie portman got a mohawk. wow, yun ang statement.

booorreddd....

on loop: why can't we be friends ~ sublime

gah! nauumay nako dito sa bahay... it's alternative classes week in MC and the only activities i've had to attend were till last tuesday only. since then up till monday, wala akong pasok. i should be happy for the long break after the incredibly stressful week we had but i can't stand being stuck at home! kulay abedsheet nako ahehehe. lalabas sana ako kahapon, pero nagkasakit naman ako and ang lakas ng ulan, plus may mga rally pa. rarr.

yesterday, i was surprised to receive a number of birthday greetings... parang, ngyeh. haha. turns out they thought my birthday was really on the 7th since i celebrated my 18th on that date. hehe. i didn't tell them na lang, just said thanks :) 'coz most of them waited pa talaga ng 12mn to call and text, didn't have the heart to tell them tapos na pala hehe. but thanks all the same guys, very much appreciated.

kasabay ng alternative classes week ngayon ng MC, may food fair din! wow sarap ng food grabe :) puro inihaw (bbq, isaw, liempo, chicken, etc etc), pika-pika, fusion cuisine, may yellow cab pizza by the slice pa, sno cones, mc do, greenwich, at marami pang iba. there's also a tech fair, may mga mp3 players (from ipods to mp3 flash drives), notebooks/laptops, digicams, etc etc. aside from that, syempre may tiangge as always... bumili nga ako ng spongebob na slippers eh hehehe ang cute kaaliw :)

of course, there were also a lot of activities and talks happening. gagaling actually, very interesting. i attended one on King Tut and another on the Da Vinci Code, among others. masaya pa dito, they're free! hehe :D shine and bea dropped by the food fair last tuesday, sayang nga i was supposed to take lisa as well yesterday but i wasn't able to leave coz i got sick (hanggang ngayon ={ may sinat pa rin). hopefully i'll get better so i can watch a movie with a couple of friends from work na ten years ko nang hindi nakikita hehe.

kagulo sa kongreso

on loop: come on ~ ben jelen

matapos ang napakahabang diskusyon na nagtagal ng magdamag, the congress has voted to trash the impeachment complaint. wala na talagang pag-asa na mabigyan ng katarungan ang mga pandarayang ginawa ng tinuringang pangulo ng ating bansa. at ang pinipintong dahilan nito ay ang nalalapit na paglabas at pagsali ni GMA sa united nations, at minarapat na rin nila na hindi nga naman daw kaayaaya na lumahok ang ating pangulo na may naka binbin na paghatol sa kaniyang ulo. administration personnel found it too much of an embarassing concern to have the president appear in an international conference with an impeachment complaint hanging over her head. grabe! i cannot believe the extent to which GMA is ensuring her political survival, tigasan na talaga ng mukha. i surely am not an expert in politics but is it not even more humiliating for the philippine nation to carry on with its affairs whilst being led by a president who cheated her way to that position?

and what's even worse is that she failed to acknowledge the terrible wrong she has done, and instead took the people for fools by issuing a statement attributing the chaos to a 'lapse of judgement' deserving of an 'i'm sorry' to remedy it all. i personally find that incredibly ridiculous. nagmumukhang tanga ang mga tao dahil hindi tayo nabibigyan ng pagkakataon upang mapadinig sa kamara ang boses ng duda. basta na lamang isinasantabi ang pagaalinlangan na lubusan namang pinaninindigan ng mga iilang katauhan sa pulitika na may natitira pang prinispyong nakabatay sa katotohanan. i pity the opposition, they really seem like the bad guys here trying to bring down the administration... though i am sure that they all have their own vested interests, but at least these opposition congressmen are fighting for an equal opportunity for this "offense" to be cleared and for the people to ahve closure as well. sana maawa naman na sila sa ating bayan, tama na ang lokohan.

i am pro-GMA, that much i admit. i believe in her platform and political agenda, and i'm sure she has high hopes for our country. but what is not to be appreciated in here is the way in which her political machinery seems to undermine the interests of the people. if she really is not guilty of any of these charges against her, bakit hindi niya harapin ang kamara nang mapatunayan niya ang pagiging malinis ng kaniyang konsensiya? hindi ba't mas maigi ito para sa kaniya dahil mas maisusupalpal niya sa mukha ng mga kumakalaban sa kaniya ang hatol na maglilinis sa pangalan niya? bakit ba siya takot na takot, na talaga nga namang kung ano-ano nang istratehiya ang pinapatakbo niya para lamang maibasura ang reklamo, o 'di kaya mabalin ang atensiyon ng bayan sa ibang mga isyu ng bansa? grabe nang pangloloko ito.

isa pa pala. masyado na ata ring nagpapadala ang mga tao sa daloy ng pulitika na kung minsan ay naibabalewala na ang saligang-batas natin. gaya ng mga rali sa commonwealth sa ngayon... grabe. ano na naman ito? hindi talaga ako pabor sa mga pagrarali. sa totoo lang, panggulo lang yan sa kalsada eh! masyadi nang nawili ang mga tao sa EDSA revolution kung kaya't inaakala nila na sa bawat pagkakataon na lamang ay magiging epektibo ang boses ng rali. sana naman ay wag natin abusuhin ang kapangyarihang taglay ng tinipon-tipong boses ng bayan. baka sa pagkakataong kailangan na nga talaga natin ito ay wala nang sumeryoso dito. kung minsan naman kasi ay halos lahat na lamang ay ibinabalin sa kalsada. tandaan po natin na mayroon tayong tamang proseso kung saan maaring idaan sa wasto at mahinahong paraan ang mga isyung pulitikal.

hindi ako ma-pulitikang tao pero hindi rin naman ito nangangahulugan na wala akong pakialam dito. lahat ng pilipino ay kinakailangan makilahok sa pagtatanggol sa katarungan. hindi nakakatuwa na ituring tayo ng mga personalidad na hinalal natin upang paglingkuran ang ating pangangailangan na tila mga wala tayong alam at madadaling mauto. hindi ito tama at higit sa lahat, maawa naman tayo sa sarili nating mga karapatan. 'wag nating hayaang lapastanganin nila ito. itaguyod ang batas at isakatuparan ang tamang proseso nito kahit pa man kaduda-duda na ang makinarya ng bayan. it may be true that the system has been infiltrated by corruption but we should not just wave it away inconsequentially. it is as if we are doing away with the governing body which we are fighting for. nakakalungkot nga lang dahil kung sakali man, mas malaking pagsasangtabi sa ating batas ang ginawa ng pangulo, na kaisa-isang trabaho na nga lang ay ang itaguyod ito. seryoso, mahiya naman sana siya. tama na, sobra na.

tenksgiving

on loop: home ~ brian mcknight

came upon this story through mail and decided to share it in here. it pretty much reflects my thoughts as of the moment. hope you guys like it as well:

The Mayonnaise Jar and the Beer

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day is not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar... and the beer.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - God, your family, your children, your health, your friends, your favorite passions, -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full."

"The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car.

The sand is everything else -- the small stuff."

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life."

"If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. There will always be time to clean the house, and
fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented.

The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked," he said.

"It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of beers."

*****
and today, i would like to express my heartfelt thanks:

to my mom, who is in a totally better place right now, i know you can read what i'm thinking :) though i will never stop missing you and wishing that you are here with me, i know i cannot be selfish enough to feel and mourn for the burden of my loss because i know that it was for the best, according to His plan. i just want you to know that for the times we were together, you did me well.

to my dad, who literally stood by me my entire life, through thick or thin, hell or high water, and just smiled while holding out his hand for me, i love you beri much and words will never be able to express how much i appreciate you and just how thankful and grateful i am to have such a cool dad like you. thank you for your everything, despite my everything.

and to my dear friends who have been a huge part of the 21 years i've been here, thanks so much for all the fun and support and it's always great to have you guys around. no one could ask for better friends, 'coz you guys are the best. the road is long ahead of us and i pray that we will continue to be together for the journey.

at sa lahat ng nakaalala, salamat :) (for the gifts and surprises as well).

*****

feeling awards night ah hehe. but the biggest kudos goes out to Him :) He knows what i'm talking about.

generally, i'm just basically thankful for eveything i have right now. even for the things that i don't have, i'm thankful for those as well because they help me realize and appreciate what it is i do have. at the same time, i guess i'm a bit melancholic and nostalgic as well. i guess these sort of sentiments come with the passing of age, some time to mull over years past then on with the years lined up ahead.

hurray to everyone today :) and to everyone else who's celebrating as well, happy birthday!