the long wait home
on loop: pointless chatter
nope, it's not a typo. i really meant WAIT, not WAY. it's so hard to wait. nakakapagod talaga. it just drains evrything out of you... especially if hindi mo alam kung ano nga ba ang inaantay mo. malay mo, nagaantay ka lang pala sa wala. sometimes it's easier, and smarter, to give up. but that's easier said than done. all this waiting is messing up with my head so much so that i never realized i could get SO paranoid. this sucks. i can't even rationalize anymore, it's hard to think straight if you're the one involved. hirap talaga maging tanga. ahahay. i need a vacation hehe.
*****
can't hurry love ~ phil collins
My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes
*****
ang dami palang bagay ang pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng isang araw. gigising ka yuwing umaga, hindi alam kung ano haharapin sa araw na iyon. wala kang kamalay-malay na pwede na pala mawala sa iyo ang pinaka-mahalagang bagay sa buhay mo sa loob ng araw na iyon, 'o 'di kaya'y makamtan mo na ang pinaka-matagal mo nang inaasam at inaantay. tadhana nga naman (naks ang emo). anyway, ba't ko nga ba pinag-uusapan 'to? honestly, i don't really know. wala lang, naisip ko lang. inaaksaya ko lang oras niyo ehehehe. hay.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
offshore
offshore
on loop: hush ~ ll cool j
summer is SO in the air, you can practically taste it! how fun hehehe. i can't wait to go the beach :))) just a bit more of waiting... hehe.
by the way, i received great news today. i was a bit worried about my schooling and stuff and i tried to sort things out a bit this morning. turns out i'm not so hopeless as i thought i was. hurray!
was stuck at home the entire day, and as usual, i got into thinking. and i came up with a two-month plan for my life (a better one hehe ;p)! hahaha. boredom. i don't have anything exceptionally fantastic or incredible lined up or whatever, but it's a start for something better.
we have a team-building outing with the people from work... hopefully it'll push through within march. as for a summer outing with friends, that should be in the plans by april hopefully :)
beach na beach nako! to all the graduates, congratulations :) may you do even better in life now. to all the students, enjoy your summer. and to everyone else, summer na!!! (la lang, in case 'di nyo pa alam... hehe just kidding).
on loop: hush ~ ll cool j
summer is SO in the air, you can practically taste it! how fun hehehe. i can't wait to go the beach :))) just a bit more of waiting... hehe.
by the way, i received great news today. i was a bit worried about my schooling and stuff and i tried to sort things out a bit this morning. turns out i'm not so hopeless as i thought i was. hurray!
was stuck at home the entire day, and as usual, i got into thinking. and i came up with a two-month plan for my life (a better one hehe ;p)! hahaha. boredom. i don't have anything exceptionally fantastic or incredible lined up or whatever, but it's a start for something better.
we have a team-building outing with the people from work... hopefully it'll push through within march. as for a summer outing with friends, that should be in the plans by april hopefully :)
beach na beach nako! to all the graduates, congratulations :) may you do even better in life now. to all the students, enjoy your summer. and to everyone else, summer na!!! (la lang, in case 'di nyo pa alam... hehe just kidding).
Monday, March 07, 2005
boy bawang and choc-nut
boy bawang and choc-nut
on loop: true ~ ryan cabrera
gaahh. i'm so tired. there's so many things swimming around in my mind but i'm too much of a lazy bum and idiot to do anything about it. ANYWAY. i went on an errand spree today... had to buy a lot of things for the office today. mini-renovation. got super drained. had to move from one place to another, lugging bags and bags of (heavy) stuff all by myself. and by the way, there are new sales reps already whom my dad hired. ang daming cute! hehe just kidding :p they're good, smart people and i hope they do their job well. it's their first day today... and so far, they're allright.
at work, a new batch is coming up for our account if i was informed correctly. hehe how exciting. it seems not too far back when i was still a trainee... hehe those were the days. i'm excited for the new batch, hope they do well. and by the way, i received my first big break at work a few days ago. for the month of february, i was ranked as the number one agent on the floor. hahaha. how weird. i didn't even bother checking out the stack rankings when it came out, but everyone kept congratulating me and stuff. turned out i was number one. hehe feels great. and what feels even better is the bonus i received with last friday's payday and the bonus i will be receiving on the 20th's payday. hurrah!
last saturday, my teammate from work was giving out boy bawangs and choc-nuts. for those who don't know, boy bawang is this tiny little packet of corniks... hehe. lalang. i got so nostalgic and sentimental and reminescent and weird at te same time, sitting at my cubicle waiting for a call. made me think of life and stuff. haha mega emo once again. i really couldn't explain those times when i just drift off and think. think, think and think. i think opf everything and everyone and sometimes i feel as if i myself is being detached from my consciousness and i operate on auto-pilot. i think (there i go again, hehe jk) that's what they mean when they say 'drifitng away with your thoughts'. i don't really like it when i get those episodes... i have a hard time dealing with my thoughts and sentiments. weeeeeirrdd (and quite psychotic actually mwahaha).
a friend's dad moved on the sunday before last... and all though times like these will always be a part of life, nothing can ever preapre anyone for it. and all though remnants of the pain will always remain, one can grow and learn from it. i'm hoping that my friend and her family will be stronger and closer still. hey, my prayers are with you. anytime and anywhere, just let me know, for as much as i can, i will :)
on loop: true ~ ryan cabrera
gaahh. i'm so tired. there's so many things swimming around in my mind but i'm too much of a lazy bum and idiot to do anything about it. ANYWAY. i went on an errand spree today... had to buy a lot of things for the office today. mini-renovation. got super drained. had to move from one place to another, lugging bags and bags of (heavy) stuff all by myself. and by the way, there are new sales reps already whom my dad hired. ang daming cute! hehe just kidding :p they're good, smart people and i hope they do their job well. it's their first day today... and so far, they're allright.
at work, a new batch is coming up for our account if i was informed correctly. hehe how exciting. it seems not too far back when i was still a trainee... hehe those were the days. i'm excited for the new batch, hope they do well. and by the way, i received my first big break at work a few days ago. for the month of february, i was ranked as the number one agent on the floor. hahaha. how weird. i didn't even bother checking out the stack rankings when it came out, but everyone kept congratulating me and stuff. turned out i was number one. hehe feels great. and what feels even better is the bonus i received with last friday's payday and the bonus i will be receiving on the 20th's payday. hurrah!
last saturday, my teammate from work was giving out boy bawangs and choc-nuts. for those who don't know, boy bawang is this tiny little packet of corniks... hehe. lalang. i got so nostalgic and sentimental and reminescent and weird at te same time, sitting at my cubicle waiting for a call. made me think of life and stuff. haha mega emo once again. i really couldn't explain those times when i just drift off and think. think, think and think. i think opf everything and everyone and sometimes i feel as if i myself is being detached from my consciousness and i operate on auto-pilot. i think (there i go again, hehe jk) that's what they mean when they say 'drifitng away with your thoughts'. i don't really like it when i get those episodes... i have a hard time dealing with my thoughts and sentiments. weeeeeirrdd (and quite psychotic actually mwahaha).
a friend's dad moved on the sunday before last... and all though times like these will always be a part of life, nothing can ever preapre anyone for it. and all though remnants of the pain will always remain, one can grow and learn from it. i'm hoping that my friend and her family will be stronger and closer still. hey, my prayers are with you. anytime and anywhere, just let me know, for as much as i can, i will :)