on loop: love song (cure cover) - 311
this morning while eating breakfast, ganito naging dialogue namin ng dad ko:
dad: 21 ka na diba?
me: ha?! ngeh hindi pa no! kayo talaga, pinapatanda niyo ko!
dad: ahh.. (laughter) sorry ha. malapit na rin naman eh di ba? so, anong plano mo? you've got to start thinking of what you want to do.
me: tagal pa po! excited kayo masyado. august pa lang eh...
dad: in denial ka na naman (tawa nanaman). 2 weeks na lang 21 ka na! ok lang yan, you look like you're 20 lang! (lalo pa nagtatatawa)
me: hay nako ewan. kelangan ko na po umalis, late na ko.
anyway, my point is... tanda ko na pala. hahaha. but mind you, i don't feel so old. as a matter of fact, i feel younger than most 18 year-olds (feeling!). but no one can really deny the fact that together with time come changes that are inescapable. most of my peers are already graduating after this school year. i was supposed to graduate with them but i lost track of the bigger picture and nagpadala ako sa mga kalokohan kaya ayun, got sidetracked (understatement of the year).
nalungkot tuloy ako. everyone tells me its allright, and i suppose it is but then again, i have never felt so strongly that i want to turn back time. kahit 1 year lang. but we all know that's not possible. the only thing i could probably gain from this experience is a lesson learned... may not remedy the situation much but hopefully, could avoid more mishaps in the future. hay nako, nagmumuni-muni nanaman ako. ayoko na nga, kung ano-ano naiisip ko eh hehe. basta, i never want to grow old (hahaha). nothing worse than losing one's youthful zest and outlook in life.
speaking of my birthday, i honestly did not realize that it was approaching so soon already. i don't have any plans for it, and come to think of it, i don't think i'd want to celebrate it that much anyway. i've always celebrated all of my past birthdays and i don't think it would make much of a difference if i missed out this year. a little get together of my current friends would be nice but nothing too all-out and prepared for. i vow to spend most of september 3 at home with my dad... haven't done that in a long time :)
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yay... walang pasok sa friday! 4-day weekend :)
6 comments:
hey i feel the same way too.. i dont wanna celebrate my birthday.. i'll just feel depressed bout getting old :P oi, bakit walang pasok sa friday? :) kami din wala? hahahaha
ahehehe. quezon city day :) you had yours na nung manila day eh.
nakita kita kagabi! you didnt hear me tinatawag kita wala pa naman ako ng bago mong number. hindi ko kasi alam favorite number mo! wahah
ma-j! hi, long time :) ows san mo ko nakita? hehehe san san kasi ako napadpad eh. fave number ko last number ng plate number mo hehe ;) how r u pala? sorry di ako nakasama sa inyo the last time, birthday ng friend ko eh :) sa susunod promise hehe.
saw you sa origas shell with your friend yata yun =) okay lang and advanced hapibardey to u =)
ahhhh. hehe we wanted to hang out there sana saglit kasi nag close na yung iba but theres like this city ordinance ek ek kasi :) sayang sana got 2 c u. anyway, thnx sa greeting. karl gave me your # pero i dont have load eh hehe. i'll c u guys soon ingat.
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