tick tock

tick tock

on loop: dare you to move ~ switchfoot

How to make a Hyan

Ingredients: 5 parts friendliness 5 parts brilliance 1 part grace

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!

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Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

missed taking these *&@^%9$# (nothing profane or derogatory, don't worry) net quizzes :) more to come, i bet hehe.

*****

so much time, so little stuff to do. i need a life. and a direction too, i guess.

immersion

immersion

on loop: fields of gold ~ sting

i remember something my friend bea told me some time back... the only way to truly realize something is if you truly let yourself feel... feel the emotion, be it hurt, anger, pain, joy, love, loss or whatever. once you cherish and savor the feeling, it is only at that moment that you will realize the enormity of the situation. and probably, you will have a clearer idea of what to do. allow yourself to feel the moment, and after you have exhausted the moment, that is when you can employ rationalization. i suppose this sort of mentality applies to my current situation right now. it still remains hazy and unclear to me what the future has in store, but i think that i must first sit down and sort out my feelings first before i can be able to put my mind to work. everything is still up in the air, actually. nothing is for sure yet though i do feel that i am headed that way already. i am just praying that i will be able to deal with whatever comes my way, be it disappointment, frustration, confusion, etcetera. there are too many things happening to me right now that i hardly have enough time nor strenght to catch up with it. i try to get by day by day, and i also only hope that the days don't take me astray... and let me lose everything i hold dear to me.

*****

had dinner with pam after we had the pictures taken of our birthdays developed. cool pictures! will post some here as soon as i can get them scanned. we also watched 'before sunset'... hrmmm. the movie was done in real time, meaning the length of the entire movie (roughly 90 minutes) was also about 90 minutes of the characters' lives. no skips and cuts from one scene to another. it was all about 90 minutes in the lives of jessie wallace (ethan hawke) and celine (julie delpy). story of love found, lost and regained. this film is a sequel of the 1994 film 'before sunrise'. the format was refreshing and was full of beautiful thoughts on love and life. after the movie, we walked around and got coffee. got home a little past twelve. had fun, thanks pam Ü

lapit na pasukan! hope everyone made good use of their sembreaks. and that everyone got good schedules and professors this coming sem... Ü

dawn

dawn

Do What You Have To Do ~ Sarah McLachlan

What ravages of spirit,
Conjured this temptuous rage?
Created you a monster,
Broken by the rules of love.

And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do ...

And I have the sense to recognize,
that I don’t know how to let you go.

Every moment marked,
With apparitions of your soul.
I’m ever swiftly moving,
Trying to escape this desire.

The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.

But I have the sense to recognize,
That I don’t know how to let you go...
I don’t know how to let you go.

A glowing ember
Burning hot, burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you

I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.
I know I can’t be with you,
I do what I have to do.

And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go.

*****

i have made one of the biggest decisions i have ever had to make in my life. i hope i made the right one. and i also hope that things would go according to planned. just in case anyone would care to know (could be me, in a few years time when i look back to this time), the three years i have been in ateneo have been among the very best i have ever had and quite possibly, will ever have.

pagmumuni-muni

pagmumuni-muni

naniniwala ako na kung tunay nga namang nararapat sa iyo ay makakamtan mo. pero paano naman kapag ang nararapat sa iyo ay hindi ang ninanais mo? karapat-dapat pa rin ba ito para sa iyo? sinasabi rin na kapag nakatakda na talaga para sa iyo, kahit na anong mangyari ay mangyayari sa mangyayari pa rin ito. ibig ba sabihin noon na kahit na tumulala na lang ako sa mga bituin at magmuni-muni, mapapasaakin pa rin ang tadhanang nakalaan sa akin? malamang, hindi. iyon siguro ang sagot ng nakararami. "siyempre kailangan mong pagtrabahuan ang kinabukasan mo!" ang isa sa mga maaring maging tugon sa kuro-kuro ko. o di kaya ang walang kakupas-kupas na "do your best and God will do the rest!". naniniwala nga naman ako sa mga iyan, at alam kong wala mararating ang tao kapag wala naman siyang ginagawa upang makaabot kung saan man...

pero hindi ko talaga lubos maintindihan kung bakit ba ang bagay na alam kong makabubuti sa akin at ang lubusuan ko namang pinagsisikapan ay pilit na nalalayo sa akin. kahit na naong nais kong magpatuloy, hindi na maari, dahil mayroon nang mga balakid na nakaharang sa aking daan. sana ay malampasan ko pa ang mga ito... pero iniisip ko pa lang ay tila nahihirapan na ako at nararamdaman ko na tila gusto ko na sumuko. parang wala na rin naman kasing kahahantungan kung magpumilit pa ako. sana na lamang ay mainitindihan ng mga tao sa paligid ko. mahirap ipaliwanang kung ano nga ba talaga ang sanhi ng monologong ito, dahil kahit ako ay naguguluhan rin sa aking mga sinasabi. pero ipinagdarasal ko na sana, sa hinaharap, ay maari akong tumingin pabalik sa panahon na ito at makuha pang ngumiti... dahil, kung papalarin, maiintindihan ko na rin ang mga dahilan ng mga pangyayari.

baduyyy...

baduyyy...

just wanted to post some lyrics... not really relevant. just wanted to be slightly baduy hehe.

Ikaw Nga ~ South Border

(it's rare that i appreciate tagalog songs but this one's pretty good Ü lalang. more of the melody than the lyrics, for this one i guess. you could just hear the emotion in their voices Ü)

[I.]
Heto na naman
Nag-iisip, minsa'y nagtataka
Na sa 'kin na ang lahat
Bakit nangungulila

[II.]
At nang makita ka
Ibang sigla ang nadarama
Pag-ibig nga ba ito
Ako'y nangangamba

[Refrain I:]

Nais kong ipagtapat sa'yo
Sana'y dinggin mo
Ang lihim ng pusong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo

[Chorus:]

Ikaw nga ang syang hanap-hanap
Kay tagal na ako ay nangarap
Lumuluhod, nakikiusap
Ako ay mahalin mo sinta

Ikaw nga ang syang magbabago
Sa akin, sa aking buhay
Handang iwanan ang lahat
(upang makapiling ka / para lang sa'yo) sinta

[III.]
Nang makilala ka
Ibang saya ang nadarama
Alam kong pag-ibig ito,
Anong ligaya

[Refrain II:]

Nais kong ipatapat sa 'yo
Sana'y pagbigyan
Dinggin ang puso kong ito
Kahit na tayo'y magkaibang mundo

.. upang makapiling ka sinta ..

*****

falling ~ keahiwai

(very cute song by a hawaiian girl.. easy listening Ü)

Wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see

[Chorus]
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you

[Verse 2]
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you

[Chorus]

Bridge:
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold

[Chorus]
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you


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la lang... i learned that in life, you could never count on the future or on promises. for what are promises? these are simply decisions to give you something that person itself does not have yet and is not even sure yet that will have. what i'm saying is that, how can you promise the future when you don't even have it yet? not being pessimistic... just realistic. promises are nice and beautiful but not really stable and reliable. a lot could happen between now and the promise of tomorrow Ü

refreshed

refreshed

on loop: over and over ~ nelly feat. tim mcgraw

nelly's new song is really nice Ü haha. just wanted to share. i didn't use to like nelly but the suit part of his twin bill album is coming out with really good cuts (including my place Ü). i also had my pc fixed this afternon and now my inetrnet connection is back! after so many months hehe. great Ü i can dl songs again and stuff. sembreak has been hreat. stress-free and very relaxing. though it's grade-releasing time again tomorrow... and i'm a bit edgy about one of my subjects. darn. hope i make it... coz there's a certain mark i need to make since i'm on probation. if not, it's bye to ateneo for me. anyway, whatever.

kinda tired right now so i'll just come back later on to post some more Ü and also, a very very happy birthday in advance to my friend pam! miss you na ;)

so and so

so and so

on loop: waiting in vain ~ annie lennox

wow. sembreak has been great so far. i'm really relishing every relaxed and stress-free moment, hoping that what i'll have this break would be enough to tide me over the rigors of next semester. yesterday i had a good day out with my friends pam and bea. me and pam met up in greenhills theater mall and grabbed a drink while waiting for a movie. around 630, we caught Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, it was great! super galing Ü loved it (and Jude Law too mwaharharhar)... there was a very good reason why it was the number 1 movie in America for the past few weeks.

after the movie, we grabbed dinner at dencio's greenhills. the live band was really great... they had good acoustic covers of many really nice songs. the food was fabulous... loved the kare-kare and the calamares. yum! hehe Ü we also had a round of san migs to cap off the dinner. bea followed after a bit and we atyed for a bit more in dencio's then headed to powerplay ortigas (on foot) to play counter hehe. it was a good night. had coffee in starbucks around 1230am already... on the way to the coffee shop, we came upon two very very very adorable kittens. sigh. lovable. i ended up sleeping over at bea's.

we got up around lunch time already. watched some tv while lying around then watched a dvd of The Whole Ten Yards Ü hilarious, that movie. left around six to grab some coffee then headed back. i'm here again... will be spending the night here again hehe. i have a volleyball tournament to join tomorrow and i'm really nervous about it since i was only informed about it this afternoon. darn... no practice. it'll be at greenhills west and some cash is up for grabs daw hehe. so i'm thinking twice about joining since i might mess the team up. aheheh. though i really miss playing and i'd really love to join, i just wish i had more time to internalize (hehe naks).

we're supposed to be Team Gray and i'll be with my blockmates... so thoughtful of them to include me. i'm really touched, actually hehe. it's always a pleasure to play with them since they're really good and were members of their respective leagues during highschool. it's at seven am kasi eh... too early to function. hehe. but i'll see about it Ü hrrrmmm. what else. i'll be working on my shifting soon, darn. i hope european studies-business track would take me in. their my only hope hehe. and i hope i didn't fail any subjects during the past sem... or else i'm out of ateneo for good. oh Lord please help me. eheh.

to everyone, enjoy your sembreaks! make the most out of it Ü

ho-hrmm

ho-hrmm

on loop:oh well ~ boyz ii men

super stress! the past two weeks have been killing me. school is incredibly demanding though i try to not let it show too much that i'm having a really hard time. i'm really tight with my time and i can't seem to get things done right. this week and the next one is harder yet so i really have to focus. i promised myself only one night of leisure from this day on up to the following week. sigh. this is going to be a long two weeks. the tension is breaking my back.

anyway, a group from my theo class had a presentation earlier and i found it really interesting. their topic was about relationships and they answered so many questions about it. makes you wanna say something like.. "ahh, now i know" or something like that.i'mplanning on posting about the things i discovered one of these days after finals next week. i really don't like whining but sometimes it can really help alleviate the pressure and the stress. i should go, i need some whine-time :s

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everybody's changing ~ keane

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move
Just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and
I don't feel the same


(instrumental)

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cos everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move
Just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and
I don't feel the same

lyrics time

lyrics

on loop: my entire playlist


it's been a really long while since i posted lyrics here so i thought now would be a good time as any to do so. so here goes nothing Ü

this is one of the nicer songs to date... great message ;p

If I Ain’t Got You ~ Alicia Keys feat. Usher

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But life was a bore
So full of the superficial

CHORUS
Some people want it all
But I don’t wanna been it all
If it ain’t you, baby
If I ain’t got you, baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need the dozen roses
And that’s the only way you prove you love him (listen baby)
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
No one who truly cares for me

CHORUS 2x

I ain’t got you with me, baby
So nothing in this whole world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me, baby

*****

this song is dedicated especially to sunshine hehe ;p

Who Do You Tell ~ Tamia

There you were in a crowded room
With someone, at least I assume
How did I know I would fall in love with you so soon?
Just one look in your eyes and I see the truth
And I try hard to hide that I’m made for you
But I know deep inside things that we could do
Just as long as we’re together

CHORUS
But who do you tell when you love someone?
Hoping that someone’s in love with you
Who do you tell when you love someone?
I think I might as well tell you

I can’t believe that I feel this way
There is so much I want to say
I wanna (touch you) hold you (feel you) please you
As we’re making love all through the night
We will talk to each other
We will laugh and play
We will play this forever
Every night and day
We would share every minute
Till the test of time
(In my mind) In my mind, baby

CHORUS 2x

I’ve hesitated much too many times
And I won’t let you slip away from me (No)
I know you’re for me I’m made for you
But I don’t know what to say or to do
So now that we’re together
I’m telling you

CHORUS

I think I might as well tell you

*****

have a good weekend everyone Ü