immersion

immersion

on loop: fields of gold ~ sting

i remember something my friend bea told me some time back... the only way to truly realize something is if you truly let yourself feel... feel the emotion, be it hurt, anger, pain, joy, love, loss or whatever. once you cherish and savor the feeling, it is only at that moment that you will realize the enormity of the situation. and probably, you will have a clearer idea of what to do. allow yourself to feel the moment, and after you have exhausted the moment, that is when you can employ rationalization. i suppose this sort of mentality applies to my current situation right now. it still remains hazy and unclear to me what the future has in store, but i think that i must first sit down and sort out my feelings first before i can be able to put my mind to work. everything is still up in the air, actually. nothing is for sure yet though i do feel that i am headed that way already. i am just praying that i will be able to deal with whatever comes my way, be it disappointment, frustration, confusion, etcetera. there are too many things happening to me right now that i hardly have enough time nor strenght to catch up with it. i try to get by day by day, and i also only hope that the days don't take me astray... and let me lose everything i hold dear to me.

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had dinner with pam after we had the pictures taken of our birthdays developed. cool pictures! will post some here as soon as i can get them scanned. we also watched 'before sunset'... hrmmm. the movie was done in real time, meaning the length of the entire movie (roughly 90 minutes) was also about 90 minutes of the characters' lives. no skips and cuts from one scene to another. it was all about 90 minutes in the lives of jessie wallace (ethan hawke) and celine (julie delpy). story of love found, lost and regained. this film is a sequel of the 1994 film 'before sunrise'. the format was refreshing and was full of beautiful thoughts on love and life. after the movie, we walked around and got coffee. got home a little past twelve. had fun, thanks pam Ü

lapit na pasukan! hope everyone made good use of their sembreaks. and that everyone got good schedules and professors this coming sem... Ü