changes

changes

on loop: inseperable ~ jasmine trias

hrmmm. haven't been blogging anything senseful lately... simply because i've been really lazy and busy at the same time. a lot of things have changed these past couple of months. a whole lot. i can't hardly keep track actually. sometimes i miss the good old days... there are certain times in the past that were just good... and i sometimes would really want to get back to how those times were. but too bad things don't really work that way. times really have changed. if one stops and thinks, he's realize that his life ain't really the same thing he's been living out. it's basicallt one whole garble of changes that's culminated to make up what he has right now. and i sometimes stop and think and try to fin out, whjen did all these changes start happening? and i just can't pinpoint the answer. i guess it's been a long time coming already... and before anyone knew it, it's right up our doorstep trying to break the door down.

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i heard that OB was gonna have an alumni get-together thing for our batch. hrrmmm. would i wanna go there? i mean, high school was cool and all but... oh well. there are some people i really wouldn't want to be plastic with anymore. but i suppose i'm gonna go... i wanna have my pictures back! the ones they got for the supposed yearbook bullcrap that's taking eons to finish. i don't even give two cents bout that year book anymore, i just want my pictures back. allright, i've made up my mind. i'll go. harhar. i'll just pop in to do my thing and get my stuff back, then ditch the plastic party. there really is no sense in sticking around trying to be all gooey with the people i don't really care about, whom i'm pretty sure feels somehow the same way bout me. i'm content with the friends i have right now. they're the only people from high school that actually matter to me. there's gonna be a lot of hulla-baloo going on, i just bet. not being fatalistic here, just realistic and actually... smarter.

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anyway. where's all that ranting come from? eheh. weird. must be near that tiem of the month for me. anyway... one other thing. i realized that people change and things change and stuff like that. and i also realized that i'm dealing with that kinda thing much better now. when i was younger, i hated change. i had a hard time dealing with stuff that changed, especially people and environments. i didn't want to change schools or i didn't wanna lose people in my life and stuff... but i've learned that these things happen and it's not so deadly after all. sure, it may suck for a bit and you might think that things will never be the same and the world's gonna and stuff, but come to think of it, you're right. things will never be the same again. and that chapter of your world will definitely end. but it doesn't mean that the new world's gonna be worse or that the changes are gonna be bad. if there's something i've learned that's helped be a better person is that i've realized that nothing is ever as bad as it seems. as in, nothing. everything will turn out all right. the only element in question is time. the when's. and sometimes, the how's. but it'll come.

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thank God for decent people who make great things happen :)