on loop: no regrets ~ robbie williams
masyado nakong OA. too much melodrama sucks the life out of me and out of other people as well. sorry 'bout that. anyway, miriam's not so bad. it's just bleh-ish since i'm always around girls. i've never been to an exclusive school and right now, it feels like a crash diet gone bad. pero i'm sure masasanay din ako. i'm taking up BS Accounting. wanted to challenge myself and at the same time, give na rin my dad what he wants. sucks to be a freshman again... and i can't help but have mental dull-downs because i'm basically surrounded by 16-year olds. i feel so old nyaha.
i have first year subjects and i slid so far back down the ladder that i can't even see the top anymore. i should have been a senior already but i guess i'm back to step one again. ahahay. at a minimum, i've got 3 years more to go before i graduate. plus another 4 years at law school. time isn't really an element right now but i just hope na 'di na ko ma-burn out. like what happened to me in ateneo. as a fellow ex-atenean liek me said, you may say 'so long ateneo' but remember that 'there is life after ateneo'. thanks, 'twas good to talk with you again :)
ah basta yun na yun. i don't feel so good tonight. bad stomach. got to watch Shutter today. good movie... scary, and has a sensible plot :) i also got to shop for my school stuff already and i'm excited to use my new notebooks! haha so grade 1. anyway, thanks bea for isyaping with me. hope you like your kitty notebook :) and also, advanced happy birthday, lisa! your dinner and sleepover was a blast. may you have a meaningful and fruitful life ahead of you :)
Monday, June 13, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
pasukan blues
on loop: here with me ~ dido
it's back to school season again. nothing new for most of the student populace but not so routine for me since i've been out of school for about eight months already (long story). i was an out-of-school youth! i just realized that now... and i'm not proud of it, before any of you get any ideas. i'm glad and relieved to know i'll be going back to school this june, and though it isn't a hundred percent sure yet that i'm getting into miriam, more or less, i'm getting a good feel of it already. transferring schools... scary stuff. but hopefully nothing i'll be breaking my back over. wow i've been going to ateneo a whole lot these past couple of weeks... i'm so going to miss that school. i'm gonna miss being an atenean, and i won't even deny it, i'll always regret losing my chance when i had it. as for now, i'll just be on the sidelines admiring them ateneans for their guts to stick it out, and for their smarts to not waste their turn like i did. but i'm not bitter, don't get me wrong, regretful probably and sad of course, but not spiteful. i'm not that low.
another thing... tag-ulan na! *duh* anyway, i love this kind of weather. makes me happy hehe. it may not be the most convenient weather for everyone but hey, nothing's ever easy anyway. i just look forward to this kind of weather all year long, when it's all cool and calm. i always tell my dad that this kind of weather makes me want to sit beside a window with a big mug of hot chocolate or noodles listening to better days by dianne reeves. haha pa-emote effect, kainis. owell. enough about the weather. i sincerely hope that miriam would be a good place for me and that i made a smart move transferring there. i haven't told my dad and i'm pretty sure he'll wring my neck or the like when i finally let him know that i'm officially out of ateneo already... but i'll survive. there's been worse i suppose. come to think of it, i never see any miriamites (is that right?) studying in katipunan... in fact, i don't remember seeing any have books or heavy-duty school stuff with them. do they actually study? will i be the first ever? haha i'm just kidding. no offense there. i have high regard for miriamites.
and i'll be in a uniform! hahaha. who would've thunk? by galigash, come to think of it, i've got so many things i've got to do and school's starting on the 8th! yikes. i don't have my uniforms yet... or my class sched... or a course... or shoes... my gosh, shoes! haha just kidding bout the shoes. but seriously, i haven't even enrolled. wow school hasn't even started and i'm already cramming. anyway, the change of pace will probably do me a whole lot of good. haha just the thought of me in a uniform again after all these years really makes me laugh. at least less wardrobe worries. oh and one more thing, i'm thinking if i should still work during school... even for just the first couple of months? i've officially resigned from my job last monday and honestly, and if it were possible, i'm having withdrawal symptoms. i still wake up in the middle of the night with a jolt thinking i'm late for work and i'm still haunted by the stuff i feel i should still be doing there. wow. i miss my job... most especially, the people (and the money! hehe). i'll have to think about that... it would be nice to earn some extra money but not at the expense of getting enough rest to accomplish my school stuff. school definitely comes first. i've slacked off too much in the past, time to learn my lesson ;p
it's back to school season again. nothing new for most of the student populace but not so routine for me since i've been out of school for about eight months already (long story). i was an out-of-school youth! i just realized that now... and i'm not proud of it, before any of you get any ideas. i'm glad and relieved to know i'll be going back to school this june, and though it isn't a hundred percent sure yet that i'm getting into miriam, more or less, i'm getting a good feel of it already. transferring schools... scary stuff. but hopefully nothing i'll be breaking my back over. wow i've been going to ateneo a whole lot these past couple of weeks... i'm so going to miss that school. i'm gonna miss being an atenean, and i won't even deny it, i'll always regret losing my chance when i had it. as for now, i'll just be on the sidelines admiring them ateneans for their guts to stick it out, and for their smarts to not waste their turn like i did. but i'm not bitter, don't get me wrong, regretful probably and sad of course, but not spiteful. i'm not that low.
another thing... tag-ulan na! *duh* anyway, i love this kind of weather. makes me happy hehe. it may not be the most convenient weather for everyone but hey, nothing's ever easy anyway. i just look forward to this kind of weather all year long, when it's all cool and calm. i always tell my dad that this kind of weather makes me want to sit beside a window with a big mug of hot chocolate or noodles listening to better days by dianne reeves. haha pa-emote effect, kainis. owell. enough about the weather. i sincerely hope that miriam would be a good place for me and that i made a smart move transferring there. i haven't told my dad and i'm pretty sure he'll wring my neck or the like when i finally let him know that i'm officially out of ateneo already... but i'll survive. there's been worse i suppose. come to think of it, i never see any miriamites (is that right?) studying in katipunan... in fact, i don't remember seeing any have books or heavy-duty school stuff with them. do they actually study? will i be the first ever? haha i'm just kidding. no offense there. i have high regard for miriamites.
and i'll be in a uniform! hahaha. who would've thunk? by galigash, come to think of it, i've got so many things i've got to do and school's starting on the 8th! yikes. i don't have my uniforms yet... or my class sched... or a course... or shoes... my gosh, shoes! haha just kidding bout the shoes. but seriously, i haven't even enrolled. wow school hasn't even started and i'm already cramming. anyway, the change of pace will probably do me a whole lot of good. haha just the thought of me in a uniform again after all these years really makes me laugh. at least less wardrobe worries. oh and one more thing, i'm thinking if i should still work during school... even for just the first couple of months? i've officially resigned from my job last monday and honestly, and if it were possible, i'm having withdrawal symptoms. i still wake up in the middle of the night with a jolt thinking i'm late for work and i'm still haunted by the stuff i feel i should still be doing there. wow. i miss my job... most especially, the people (and the money! hehe). i'll have to think about that... it would be nice to earn some extra money but not at the expense of getting enough rest to accomplish my school stuff. school definitely comes first. i've slacked off too much in the past, time to learn my lesson ;p
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
beach and pieces
on loop: say that you love me ~ mymp
get it? beach (bits) and pieces? nyaha. ang corny nun... i don't even know why i put that in there. anyway, to cut a short story long, nag beach kami! wow sarap ng bakasyon :) i loved it. though there were many tough points during the travel, like the banca rides and the manyak banceros, everything was cool. there were underwater caves and a ton of beaches. we went island-hopping, grilled pusit and fish in the beach, got drunk, took a whole lotta pictures and generally had fun :) the house we stayed in was really nice. just like any regular house in manila with appliances, big neat rooms and bath tubs, one wouldn't think we were in a fishing village roughly 10 hours outta manila (counting a number of bus rides and banca rides). the food we ate was freshly caught from the sea straight to kitchen... super fresh pusit and fish. the sun was warm and the water was great. i'm no big fan of swimming (since i didn't know how) but i loved the water, especially in the caves where the waves were really big and fun hehe. i'll post some pics up some time as soon they're uploaded into a pc :)
after that trip, i suddenly feel like being lazy for the rest of the summer. nuff bout work and worries... which is a reason why i've been skipping work harhar. how irresponsible. owell, they had it coming. anyway, i would love to go to a beach again before classes officially start and everyone slips into stress-mode again. ayayay. i'm also hoping that my application for miriam college would pull through. for sure, i won't be going back to ateneo anymore for a number of reasons i'd rather forget. if ever miriam works out, i'll hopefully take up business administration there or accounting. then law afterwards. no real rush... just taking my sweet time but not to a point that i'm dilly-dallying already. i'm hoping that i would still get to see my old blockmates from ateneo, i miss them already. if ever, since i'll be just right beside them, we could hang out and get coffee or something. or even study hehe ;p speaking of, i was in katipunan this afternoon and i saw several people from ateneo from my classes when i was still there. we got coffee and did some catching up. hehe kaka-miss, even if we weren't really close at that time we had the same classes.
i haven't gone to work since last saturday (since we hit the beach this weekend) up until now and i'm kinda hesitant and embarassed to show up there again after skipping all my paperwork and duties just like that. but one of the people there still owe me more than 2k and it would really be bastos to just disappear without notice. so hopefully, i'll be brave enough later to show up at work and i also hope that no one would chew it out with me hehe. i'd really feel bad :D sana they missed me na lang... hehe just kidding. today was supposedly a big day at work since it's the QBR (qyuarterly business review) and the entire account's been suiting up for this, and i'm not there. boy, am i gonna get it. owell. i won't dry up and die if ever i lose this job... though i didn't want to leave this way, just happened to be so. no sense crying over spilled milk and missed business reviews. anyway, right now i'm just glad i got a vacation, albeit a short one. thanks to shine, kas and jun for the accomodations and planning. next time ulit :)
get it? beach (bits) and pieces? nyaha. ang corny nun... i don't even know why i put that in there. anyway, to cut a short story long, nag beach kami! wow sarap ng bakasyon :) i loved it. though there were many tough points during the travel, like the banca rides and the manyak banceros, everything was cool. there were underwater caves and a ton of beaches. we went island-hopping, grilled pusit and fish in the beach, got drunk, took a whole lotta pictures and generally had fun :) the house we stayed in was really nice. just like any regular house in manila with appliances, big neat rooms and bath tubs, one wouldn't think we were in a fishing village roughly 10 hours outta manila (counting a number of bus rides and banca rides). the food we ate was freshly caught from the sea straight to kitchen... super fresh pusit and fish. the sun was warm and the water was great. i'm no big fan of swimming (since i didn't know how) but i loved the water, especially in the caves where the waves were really big and fun hehe. i'll post some pics up some time as soon they're uploaded into a pc :)
after that trip, i suddenly feel like being lazy for the rest of the summer. nuff bout work and worries... which is a reason why i've been skipping work harhar. how irresponsible. owell, they had it coming. anyway, i would love to go to a beach again before classes officially start and everyone slips into stress-mode again. ayayay. i'm also hoping that my application for miriam college would pull through. for sure, i won't be going back to ateneo anymore for a number of reasons i'd rather forget. if ever miriam works out, i'll hopefully take up business administration there or accounting. then law afterwards. no real rush... just taking my sweet time but not to a point that i'm dilly-dallying already. i'm hoping that i would still get to see my old blockmates from ateneo, i miss them already. if ever, since i'll be just right beside them, we could hang out and get coffee or something. or even study hehe ;p speaking of, i was in katipunan this afternoon and i saw several people from ateneo from my classes when i was still there. we got coffee and did some catching up. hehe kaka-miss, even if we weren't really close at that time we had the same classes.
i haven't gone to work since last saturday (since we hit the beach this weekend) up until now and i'm kinda hesitant and embarassed to show up there again after skipping all my paperwork and duties just like that. but one of the people there still owe me more than 2k and it would really be bastos to just disappear without notice. so hopefully, i'll be brave enough later to show up at work and i also hope that no one would chew it out with me hehe. i'd really feel bad :D sana they missed me na lang... hehe just kidding. today was supposedly a big day at work since it's the QBR (qyuarterly business review) and the entire account's been suiting up for this, and i'm not there. boy, am i gonna get it. owell. i won't dry up and die if ever i lose this job... though i didn't want to leave this way, just happened to be so. no sense crying over spilled milk and missed business reviews. anyway, right now i'm just glad i got a vacation, albeit a short one. thanks to shine, kas and jun for the accomodations and planning. next time ulit :)
Monday, May 09, 2005
isang tanong...
on loop: regresa a mi ~ il divo
... walang sagot.
i tried to refrain from blogging about what's been bugging me lately, but sometimes people just need some form of release or outlet to vent out on. anyway.
wala naman akong isang malinaw na bagay na gustong talakayin maliban sa isyu na mayroong gumugulo sa akin. simula nang nangyari yung araw na iyon, para bang lahat na nga bagay ay nagkandalabo-labo na. bakit ba kasi hindi na ako natuto? kahit kailan talaga. malas nga naman oo. dumagdag pa tuloy sa mga problema ko. ayoko na sana mamroblema pa dahil napakadami nang tao ang namomorblema sa ngayon, ayoko nang makisawsaw pa pero hindi talaga kaya talikdan eh, makulit kasi.
mas naguguluhan pa ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ko nga ba itong problemahin or wala naman nang kelangan pag-usapan sa bagay na ito kung kaya mas nararapat na inaasikaso ko na lamang ang mga mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng aking trabaho at pag-aaral? sa tutuusin, maliit lang na predikamento ang bumabagabag sa akin kung ihahalintulad sa edukasyon, trabaho o pera.
isa pa iyon. gusto ko na sana mag-aral pero mukhang di iyon mangyayari... dahil nanaman sa kapabayaan ko. kaya naman di ko rin masisisi ang iilang mga tao diyan kapag may nasasabi sila tungkol sa akin (at hindi iyon mga kaibigan ko, cool silang lahat ;p). kung minsan kasi, mahirap naman talagang maging responsable na lamang palagi. pero sana nalaman ko noon pa na mas mahirap pala ang panagutan at panindigan ang mga resulta ng pagiging iresponsable.
sana malutasan ko na ang mga bagay na 'to. at sana rin ay maiayos ko na buhay ko. hirap talaga maging kalat eh. hirap din magtanong nang magtanong, wala namang mahanap na kahit man lang kalahating sagot. sa pagkakataon na akala mong makakukuha ka na ng sagot o di kaya't 'hint' man lang eh mas naging malabo pa ang mga bagay bagay. o baka naman kasi malinaw na talaga ang lahat? ako lang ang nagpipilit na ibahin ang sitwasyon. hay engerts.
sa ngayon, ang naiisip ko pa laman na kasagutan sa tanong ko ay... wala. hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay napag-uusapan dahil kung minsan ay mahirap din ito ipaliwanag o simulan. mas maigi kung kumilos na lamang tayo nang ayon sa tingin nating tama at karapat-dapat. madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin, lalo na kapag ang karapat-dapat na gawin ay taliwas sa hinahangad o ikaliligaya natin. ahahay. pero may tiwala ako na maayos din ang lahat nang ayon sa ikabubuti ng lahat, panahon at pasensiya lamang ang kailangan.
... walang sagot.
i tried to refrain from blogging about what's been bugging me lately, but sometimes people just need some form of release or outlet to vent out on. anyway.
wala naman akong isang malinaw na bagay na gustong talakayin maliban sa isyu na mayroong gumugulo sa akin. simula nang nangyari yung araw na iyon, para bang lahat na nga bagay ay nagkandalabo-labo na. bakit ba kasi hindi na ako natuto? kahit kailan talaga. malas nga naman oo. dumagdag pa tuloy sa mga problema ko. ayoko na sana mamroblema pa dahil napakadami nang tao ang namomorblema sa ngayon, ayoko nang makisawsaw pa pero hindi talaga kaya talikdan eh, makulit kasi.
mas naguguluhan pa ako dahil hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ko nga ba itong problemahin or wala naman nang kelangan pag-usapan sa bagay na ito kung kaya mas nararapat na inaasikaso ko na lamang ang mga mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng aking trabaho at pag-aaral? sa tutuusin, maliit lang na predikamento ang bumabagabag sa akin kung ihahalintulad sa edukasyon, trabaho o pera.
isa pa iyon. gusto ko na sana mag-aral pero mukhang di iyon mangyayari... dahil nanaman sa kapabayaan ko. kaya naman di ko rin masisisi ang iilang mga tao diyan kapag may nasasabi sila tungkol sa akin (at hindi iyon mga kaibigan ko, cool silang lahat ;p). kung minsan kasi, mahirap naman talagang maging responsable na lamang palagi. pero sana nalaman ko noon pa na mas mahirap pala ang panagutan at panindigan ang mga resulta ng pagiging iresponsable.
sana malutasan ko na ang mga bagay na 'to. at sana rin ay maiayos ko na buhay ko. hirap talaga maging kalat eh. hirap din magtanong nang magtanong, wala namang mahanap na kahit man lang kalahating sagot. sa pagkakataon na akala mong makakukuha ka na ng sagot o di kaya't 'hint' man lang eh mas naging malabo pa ang mga bagay bagay. o baka naman kasi malinaw na talaga ang lahat? ako lang ang nagpipilit na ibahin ang sitwasyon. hay engerts.
sa ngayon, ang naiisip ko pa laman na kasagutan sa tanong ko ay... wala. hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay napag-uusapan dahil kung minsan ay mahirap din ito ipaliwanag o simulan. mas maigi kung kumilos na lamang tayo nang ayon sa tingin nating tama at karapat-dapat. madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin, lalo na kapag ang karapat-dapat na gawin ay taliwas sa hinahangad o ikaliligaya natin. ahahay. pero may tiwala ako na maayos din ang lahat nang ayon sa ikabubuti ng lahat, panahon at pasensiya lamang ang kailangan.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
run of the mill lives
on loop: ikaw ang lahat sa akin (really bad LSS)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)
it's a sunday afternoon and i am happily sitting at home in front of a large fan with a pitcher of ice-cold water beside me as i lazily surf the net... yeah boy, dis da life! hahaha such a shallow choice of activity but everything's been so hectic and busy lately that even i couldn't keep up with everything that's been happening. it's about time i relax and unwind. i think i'm tiring myself out too much... i've been getting sick more often nowadays and i've become more stubborn and hot-tempered lately. someone told me that it's the fatigue of work and stress over going back to school that's eating me up. kinda makes sense... so now i will promise to stay at home and nurse this fever away. thank God my migraine let up after an hour of eating me up.
all of this is also 'coz it's been incredibly hot and humid these past coupla weeks. i'm grateful air-conditioning in the office is really really cold so no problem with heat there... in fact, a jacket would be needed to keep you warm. but when you get out, wow it's all sweaty and sticky. bleurgh. i've been taking about four showers in a day (not that anyone would care hehe ;p). the heat is making my irritability worse. so i'm really sorry to anyone i may have snapped at ehehe. i've been very patient at work for the longest time that i've been there, but somehow i'm crabbier without me even knowing it. yikes weird. anyway, must be the summer weather. beach lang katapat nito ;) maybe we all need a break from the city life sometimes before we get gobbled up into all the hustle and bustle.
oh and another thing... Friendster came up with a new interface. they put up albums, blogs, horoscopes and a whole buncha other stuff. whoa. not that it's the most important issue in the world, but don't you guys find it to be a bit crowded already? or maybe i'm just not used to it. oh well, seems cooler anyway. i've really been meaning to put up my links and stuff in here but i just can't muster enough time and energy to do so right now, but i promise i will, soon :) i've just been wanting to be as lazy as i can be as often as i can since i can't stand to be too much of a hardworker that i am right now... haha kapal ;) come to think of it, if only time weren't an issue and if my dad wouldn't disapprove, i would love to keep my job. ireally, really would. i have a feeling i could really get a whole lot more out of it. i'm not really in a rush to get back to school but then again everyone else seems to think otherwise and unfortunately, the decision isn't mine.
anyway, it's payday again on thursday! hurray :) my dad's been bugging me to go shopping since i'm becoming too much of a fuddy-duddy hehe. my dad just had to be more fashion-conscious than i am hehe. so i promise to go out and get some new things along with some electronics i've been wanting (portable mp3 player and a dvd player). plus i'm keeping some money for something special i need to buy that's right on top of my priority list hehehe. i think i've been too stingy with money since i worked hard for it but my dad told me that i should enjoy the fruits of my labor and not be too crusty hehe. as he usually says, "money is meant to be spent" which i don't entirely believe in since i think money should be saved hehe. anyway, i'm excited and nervous for next week. lotsa things coming up... hope everything would work out for the best :)
Sunday, April 17, 2005
draggy sunday
on loop: high ~ lighthouse family
it's a very monotonous sunday morning... i've been lying around and eating the entire day. rarr. but i could really use the rest, after a long week. i'd love to go back to the beach kahit sandali lang, away from all the hustle and bustle of city life. wala lang. aside from being a monotonous day, it's also a very lazy one for me. i've been meaning to fix my site and put up the links and stuff but the weather's too warm and i'm just too lazy hehe. sorry :) will do next time, promise.
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speaking of vacations, beaches and warm weathers, our company is sponsoring a trip to malaysia for next week wednesday. this is a collaborative team-building seminar for upcoming supervisors. it actually serves a dual purpose since all the higher-ups and the promotees would get to spend some time together and participate in the annual Intel (Pentium) Conference to be held in malaysia as well. expense will be very minimal for the 4 day trip since a bulk of the stuff to pay for would be shouldered by Dell USA and SRTP already. i asked permission from my dad already and he said it was allright with him, but the problem is that my papers and my passport's all messed up and i'm not sure if i have enough time to fix it. another option would be Palawan, especially for those who don't have their passports ready and can't really fit it into their scheds to go out of the country, but most everyone's vouching for malaysia. bummer. hope i could come...
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along my train of thought, i was just thinking how time flies by so fast. it's been six months since i started on my job. wow. i never expected to last so long. it's been hard, but fun at the same time. some people looked down on call centers, thinking it's a no-nonsense job. i admit, i used to not think so much of this job, but ever since i was able to experience it, i realized how wrong i was. it's every bit as serious and difficult as all those high-falutin jobs makati offices and stuff offer. in fact, i think it's also incredibly pressuring since you have to deal with metrics and goals, every single HOUR. deadlines aren't by the week or month, it's by the HOUR and there's no one to help you out. just every man for himself. it may be asy to get in, but it's even easier to be terminated, people get terminated every single day and new people come in nearly every week. and to correct someone, it's no place for child's play.
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hayyy ang init. sarap maligo at mag-swimming... sana bakasyon na lang ang buong buhay eh noh. lalang :)
it's a very monotonous sunday morning... i've been lying around and eating the entire day. rarr. but i could really use the rest, after a long week. i'd love to go back to the beach kahit sandali lang, away from all the hustle and bustle of city life. wala lang. aside from being a monotonous day, it's also a very lazy one for me. i've been meaning to fix my site and put up the links and stuff but the weather's too warm and i'm just too lazy hehe. sorry :) will do next time, promise.
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speaking of vacations, beaches and warm weathers, our company is sponsoring a trip to malaysia for next week wednesday. this is a collaborative team-building seminar for upcoming supervisors. it actually serves a dual purpose since all the higher-ups and the promotees would get to spend some time together and participate in the annual Intel (Pentium) Conference to be held in malaysia as well. expense will be very minimal for the 4 day trip since a bulk of the stuff to pay for would be shouldered by Dell USA and SRTP already. i asked permission from my dad already and he said it was allright with him, but the problem is that my papers and my passport's all messed up and i'm not sure if i have enough time to fix it. another option would be Palawan, especially for those who don't have their passports ready and can't really fit it into their scheds to go out of the country, but most everyone's vouching for malaysia. bummer. hope i could come...
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along my train of thought, i was just thinking how time flies by so fast. it's been six months since i started on my job. wow. i never expected to last so long. it's been hard, but fun at the same time. some people looked down on call centers, thinking it's a no-nonsense job. i admit, i used to not think so much of this job, but ever since i was able to experience it, i realized how wrong i was. it's every bit as serious and difficult as all those high-falutin jobs makati offices and stuff offer. in fact, i think it's also incredibly pressuring since you have to deal with metrics and goals, every single HOUR. deadlines aren't by the week or month, it's by the HOUR and there's no one to help you out. just every man for himself. it may be asy to get in, but it's even easier to be terminated, people get terminated every single day and new people come in nearly every week. and to correct someone, it's no place for child's play.
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hayyy ang init. sarap maligo at mag-swimming... sana bakasyon na lang ang buong buhay eh noh. lalang :)
Friday, April 15, 2005
blurb
on loop: constantly ~ nina
everything's been so weird these past couple of weeks. i feel like some sort of caterpillar fresh out of my larvae... things around me seem so new and unsettling. oh well. anyway, la union was so cool! we stayed in coconut grove resort for FREE! hehe one of the people from our team owned it so... hurray :) though the trip was short and super bitin, it was a lot of fun. the people were great and i learned a lot during the trip. i also learned to appreciate someone so much more, as if i can finally say that the person really is a friend and not just a fleeting personality in my life. sad to say, this person left the company right after our trip without letting anyone know that was his plan. i hope things would pan out for him :) best wishes!
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some people just don't know when to give up! goodness... give it a rest. sana some people would know naman where to position themselves. sana lumugar naman sila sa tama. in the end, they'll be the ones who'll look foolish. eksena pa ng eksena, wala naman nang mangyayari. sigh... the things some people go through in the name of ||||, ahahay.
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speaking of giving up, it's so weird to realize that how your situation is right now with a certain event or person is exactly the same situation someone else is with you or a certain event. weird and real tough to explain, basta it's like twin circumstances between two people... somewhat like a psychotic chain of events. makes me understand that person better, and relate to that person as well since we share the same sentiments. just for different people. it's cool as well, you get to be at both sides of the fence at one time which could actually be an advantage in the long run :) anyway, i should lay low for now. and get back to work as well! harhar.
everything's been so weird these past couple of weeks. i feel like some sort of caterpillar fresh out of my larvae... things around me seem so new and unsettling. oh well. anyway, la union was so cool! we stayed in coconut grove resort for FREE! hehe one of the people from our team owned it so... hurray :) though the trip was short and super bitin, it was a lot of fun. the people were great and i learned a lot during the trip. i also learned to appreciate someone so much more, as if i can finally say that the person really is a friend and not just a fleeting personality in my life. sad to say, this person left the company right after our trip without letting anyone know that was his plan. i hope things would pan out for him :) best wishes!
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some people just don't know when to give up! goodness... give it a rest. sana some people would know naman where to position themselves. sana lumugar naman sila sa tama. in the end, they'll be the ones who'll look foolish. eksena pa ng eksena, wala naman nang mangyayari. sigh... the things some people go through in the name of ||||, ahahay.
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speaking of giving up, it's so weird to realize that how your situation is right now with a certain event or person is exactly the same situation someone else is with you or a certain event. weird and real tough to explain, basta it's like twin circumstances between two people... somewhat like a psychotic chain of events. makes me understand that person better, and relate to that person as well since we share the same sentiments. just for different people. it's cool as well, you get to be at both sides of the fence at one time which could actually be an advantage in the long run :) anyway, i should lay low for now. and get back to work as well! harhar.
Monday, April 04, 2005
ah shet
ah shet
arrgh. i was typing this really long and thought-of post to blog since i haven't blogged for quite some time plus i've put up a new lay-out but due to sheer crappiness, i clicked on 'publish' when the server went down and poof, there goes more than hour's worth of insights and narratives i've been working on. arrgh. that totally soured everything up for me. i really should start working on notepad or word next time. and get THIS, i did it TWICE pa *cue spastic laughter* after i typed my first attempt and that didn't go through, i typed an irritated post, but still with some sort of attempt to be sensible and worthwhile but NO... that just won't do. shallow na kung shallow but i should cool off. be back some other time when i'm less stupid or something. rarr.
arrgh. i was typing this really long and thought-of post to blog since i haven't blogged for quite some time plus i've put up a new lay-out but due to sheer crappiness, i clicked on 'publish' when the server went down and poof, there goes more than hour's worth of insights and narratives i've been working on. arrgh. that totally soured everything up for me. i really should start working on notepad or word next time. and get THIS, i did it TWICE pa *cue spastic laughter* after i typed my first attempt and that didn't go through, i typed an irritated post, but still with some sort of attempt to be sensible and worthwhile but NO... that just won't do. shallow na kung shallow but i should cool off. be back some other time when i'm less stupid or something. rarr.