easy going

easy going

on loop: jammin' ~ bob marley / boys don't cry ~ the cure

wow it's been a long week... feels like it's been a month already. anyway, got my pay last friday. wasn't as spectacular as i expected it would be, but i'll live hehe. another thing... i've also decided that i won't be going back to ateneo anymore. i want to have a fresh start somewhere else. someplace where i could forget about slacking off and failing. totally my fault but there's no law against wanting a new beggining, right? i promise to work on my applications by monday next week. i've put it off long enough. procrastinated too much already hehe. i hope it's not too late yet and i would be able to get into dlsu or ust by june... ehehe. another new environment and i'm looking forward to it already. we're young and have a lot of opportunities ahead of us, at least we have that going for us.

ho-hum. anyway, i had a great weekend. last friday, i got to hang out with shine. we went mall-hopping in ortigas and in cubao. went on a mini shopping spree for myself and my dad... just little nothings to reward myself for a two weeks' worth of hard work. then last saturday, my friends from work and i went to catch Constantine in megamall. cool movie. after that, we headed over to mucho's in ortigas to hang out. our supervisor was there along with other people... we were about sixteen all in all. we rented a room with a videoke machine for 6K, but for about 5 hours or so. plus the 6K was consumable in drinks and food. super fun. i haven't had that much fun in so long. made me appreciate the people around me even more. around 1130, we went to jade palace in pasig/shaw for a (very) late dinner. at that time, there were about nine of us left and five were pissed drunk. nyahaha. funny people. the place served good warm food.

got home around 230 the next morning, rode in a cab with two others who were nice enough to drop me home even if i was totally out of the way. the next day, sunshine came over since she had to use the pc here, but turns out my optical drive was shot so we transferred to bea's house. it was also a great opportunity for me to be able to visit bea's cat, a request she made before she left for the states. poor thing got so skinny. after going home at around 830, i went to mass and turned in early. was super tired. then sunshine calls around midnight and asks if she could come over... HUWAAT?! hehe just kidding, shine :) and so she did. good thing we were able to fix her school project. she left just a bit before 3am, if i remember correctly. for today, i just stayed home. stocked up on much-needed sleep and rest. also met several great people today. fast friends as they would say. very mellow day, good for the health hehe.

i'll be applying in discovery tomorrow. not for anything... just to accompany someone from work. but i doubt if i'll be quitting my job anytime soon. i'm paid decently and the people are perfect. couldn't have gotten together with better people. i was never chummy with anyone else aside from my friends and my family, but these people make it very easy for you to be at ease with them and it's as if you're one huge family. you look out for one another, and that's very valuable for me. nothing can ever replace that genuine concern for one another. makes working so much fun actually. i didn't have that in the first company i was with before i was with tele. God's been great by far. it's hard to earn for myself and i'm really thankful that my dad is always with me to support me in my endeavors. honestly wouldn't know where i'd end without him. thank God for great parents. i'm also paying for our electric, water and phone bills. it actually feels great and is very fulfilling to be able to help out with the expenses at home.

never thought i'd be able to pull it off getting by in such a drastic change of environment but i'm happy to say that so far it's been good. long way to go for me to actually be able to stand on my own two feet, but it's a start. and when i think about it, the path i trod wasn't exactly littered with rose petals. there were points when i had to contend with hell and high water, and by God's will, i was able to get by and eventually was able to comeout slightly wiser and better. i'm just so thankful for everything i've been through and am going through. i've been very much humbled by all these experiences and though i try to still stay the same, i know that somehow i've changed... but thankfully, to a stronger, thriftier and smarter person. hopefully, we'd all become better by virtue of life's experiences, not bitter. if there's anything i've learned from all the mess-ups i've made of my life, it's the fact that only you can clean up your own mess. and that for as long as you do try and exert effort, thigs will work out for you. He never lets anyone down, no matter how much unworthy one may have been.