back-out

on loop: santeria ~ sublime

i thought of something last night... attack of the impulse nanaman. i was ready to turn my back on a promise i've been very devoted to for the past years. to let it go, just like that. may nalaman kasi ako... which made me realize something. something which i somehow did not see. kala ko kasi everything was clear from the beginning, hindi pala. what i found out served as a catalyst for my enlightenment. so i mulled over it the entire night. and this morning, naisip ko na hindi ko pala kaya. i know that it's the right thing to do, to just walk away 'coz if i stay mas mahirap lang. pero 'di talaga kaya eh. so sorry na lang ako eheh. effort pa rin siguro. so ayun, i backed-out from doing the right thing... kasi naman, like what i've always thought of, the right thing isn't always in good terms with the things that we want.

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anyway, on a less somber note: friday na ulit! woohoo. weekend na :) i feel so relieved. since i've been staying home so much more these past few weeks, i'm gonna spend every single day of my weekend (including monday) out. to make up for all the times i was stuck at home. haha just kidding. i can't go out with my friends due to some constraints, so ako lang. ok yun, soul searching hehe. depressed naman ako eh. and i don't really have the entire saturday to myself since i have to go to school for an orientation (buti na lang 'di kelangan mag uniform... mukha talaga akogn ewan sa uniform haha). sunshine was telling me that she wanted to go to the coffee beanery in don antonio near our house in BF sa saturday, during the afternoon. tsk tsk... ulterior motives ha. hehe just kidding :) sure shine, anything for you.