backsliding

on loop: you'll never find another love like mine ~ michael buble (ehehe ;p)

i've been thinking... ano kaya gagawin ko in the future? like they say, the future is now. before you know it, andiyan na, gugulatin ka na lang. i know my usual plans... graduate (somehow hehe) and get a law degree. take the bar (and pass it!), work and hopefully manage my own business, and of course settle down. i have big dreams, i really do (i just don't seem like it ;p). i want to be able to make my first million by the time i'm 35. i want to be able to buy a house when i'm 35 din, but just be able not really buy one hehe, i have a house na eh :) basta, dami kong pangarap. most of which i keep to myself na lang. it's all nice and good to have goals and dreams and stuff like that, but it's in the achieving it where many falter.

people backslide. i admit i have... many times already. and no one is immune to it. backsliding is when someone regresses, away from the goal. usually caused by outside forces or even internal conflicts with oneself. and sometimes, it's so hard to stick to one's goals. we all want something, but then something else comes up and you momentarily forget about your long-term goals. before you know it, you're completely off track already. why am i talking about this? wala lang. baka umaga pa kasi, and nase-stress ako sa mga kelangan ko gawin hehe. no but seriously, i think i'm just airing my thoughts. kasi naman, i've been severely driven off track. but it's of my own doing, that i know. and of course, regrets abound. but then again, regrets can only take one so far. the rest is hard work and focus. ayun, that's what i lost: focus. kelangan yan :) i was just so scared to miss out on experiences before or to pass up on opportunities that i lost my focus on what my goal really was (and still is).

anyway, puro garble na tong pinagsasasabi ko eh. epekto to ng nakakulong lang sa bahay buong araw kahapon hehe. di talaga ako lumabas kahapon, bored na bored nako sa bahay. di kasi ako pinayagan eh :( slightly grounded tsk tsk tsk. babawi na lang ako next time. hehe just kidding. anyway, since walang sense tong post ko, alis na ko. bibili pako ng school shoes and pupunta pako sa house namin sa BF for the day. buti na lang may coffee beanery sa don antonio hehe, and may starbucks na rin daw sa may commonwealth! ayos, i will survive this day hehe. alis muna ako... have a good sunday everyone :)