... and i'm holding on. i'm gonna be your number one... number ONE."
*****
anyway, things have been incredibly hectic these past couple of weeks. i can't believe the emotional, physical and physchological rollercoaster i've been through (and am going through, come to think of it...). haven't had time for ANYthing except backlashes and stress points. don't bother figuring that out... it's an inside joke between me and my second personality (or was it the third? or fourth? errr..). just kidding :p anyway, got a chance to grab some free time for myself before the grind gets it on again, so i drop by in here. i'm now not a Legal Management major anymore. i have been booted out from my course... which is not so bad compared to the very close call i've had with being booted out my school itself! yikes. terrible experience, but thankfully i've survived the hurdle... so far.
i'm doing allright in my classes despite my full load and the propensity of the subjects i'm taking (or shall i say it's the other way around... with the subjects taking me hehe *sour humor*). i'm thinking of shifting to Meco (Management Economics) 'coz it's closer to my course but the thing is, it has a grade requirement. i don't see myself myself in any "pansy" course, as my dad calls them, so i'm thinking of pulling my grades up this summer sem or during the first sem of the regular schoolyear and shift by then. hopefully, it'll work out. for now i'm basically a "floater"... and in more ways than one.
i also sprained my left ankle yesterday in an effort to make it on time to my accounting exam... and in such an embarassing moment, if i may add. too bad i had to display an utter moment of ultimate klutziness in front of my "kras" :s owell. atleast, we already have a "moment", as my friend shine aptly phrased it.
ALSO, i'm looking for people who are interested to earn EASY money weekly! and it ain't no mere bucket o' peanuts either. you'll be earning a minimum of FOUR THOUSAND bucks a week, and the best part of it is, you're doing NOTHING! for real. there's no catch here. all you have to do is make one (and only one) really minimal investment and get two other people to do so, and you're on your way to the money factory hehe. seriously. you can even go as far as earning SIX HUNDRED ++ THOUSAND bucks a month. this is a very legal and fail-safe venture. there are also no hidden agendas or clauses that'll make you end up as some sort of salesman or what. you literally do nothing. for those who want to get on with this venture, message me here. or if you know my mobile number or e-mail address, you may contact me there. i'll be more than happy to answer your queries and provide you the details :) join na!
to end (since the first bell for my accounting class has rung), i'll leave you with the lyrics to my very favorite song "Balisong", and an equally good one "Telepono" :) see ya 'round, guys. keep safe.
"Balisong" ~ Rivermaya (dig the lyrics of this one... and hear it out. the best talaga :p)
Your face lights up the sky on the highway.
Someday, you'll share your world with me someday.
You mesmerize me with diamond eyes;
I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright.
But I am losing all control -
My mind, my heart, my body and my soul
Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted and more.
To speak or not to; where to begin.
The way dilemmas I'm finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end.
Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted (more).
You're everything I wanted
*****
"Telepono" ~ Sugarfree
Natatandaan mo ba kagabi
Apat na oras tayong nagbabad sa telepono
Inabutan na tayo ng umaga no'n
Ngunit bakit ngayon, malamig ka bigla
Magdamag na sa tabi mo, wala man lang "hello"
Hello, hello, hello
Naririnig mo pa ba ako?
Kung wala na tayo sa telepono
'Pag nandito na tayo sa tunay na mundo
Hello, 'di na kita naiintindihan
Malabo na ba ang linya sa ating dalawa
Hello, gising ka pa kaya?
Hello, nahihilo na ako sa 'yo
Tuwing gabi 'pag nagriring ang telepono
Ikaw ang naiisip ko
Tumawag ka, tumawag ka
O, please tumawag ka naman
Dahil kailangan lang marinig ang boses mo
O, ngayong gabi, managinip
Managinip ulit tayo sa sarili nating mundo
*****
Enjoy ;p
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Monday, April 19, 2004
gonna be gone...
sad to say but true... i'll be gone for a while. at least for the length of summer classes. i've been through a very harrowing experience and i'm not completely out of the shit storm yet, just struggling with my paddle as of the moment. don't miss me too much, okay? lol. i'm just kidding.
and to my good friend whose dad just passed away... don't worry, time has a way of healing all things. God's time, that is. i was just with him lst saturday and i heard today that that very same day his dad passed away. i'm sorry to hear that. in case, you drop by here, keep in mind that you and your dad have my prayers. keep safe.
"absent in the flesh, but present with the Lord..."
be seeing you soon, everyone :) wish me luck...
and to my good friend whose dad just passed away... don't worry, time has a way of healing all things. God's time, that is. i was just with him lst saturday and i heard today that that very same day his dad passed away. i'm sorry to hear that. in case, you drop by here, keep in mind that you and your dad have my prayers. keep safe.
"absent in the flesh, but present with the Lord..."
be seeing you soon, everyone :) wish me luck...
Sunday, April 11, 2004
heat wave
hearing: Satisfaction (DJ Launch Remix) ~ Benny Banassi (yihee shine, it's our song! hehe ;p)
my gosh i can't remember the last time summer in the philippines was this hot! the humidity is stifling *gag*. for the past two weeks that will now officially be known as my "summer vacation" (nearly non-existent, don't you think?), the heat was no let-up in it's seemingly perverse want to suffocate us. it would be divine to be able to lounge around in a beach somewhere or probably go a more elevated and cooler place, instead i'm stuck in manila waiting for the wonderful dawn of summer classes *oh the joy*. but seriously, i'm not complaining. just the fact that i'm still in the school that i have learned to love and admire is enough to keep me grounded and sane.
i'll be receiving my grades tomorrow and i'm incredibly relieved to be confident enough to know that i passed everything (unless some surprise bummer pops up *knocks on wood*). and on tuesday, it'll be time for summer registration. i hope i'll get the classes i want... timing is crucial 'coz i'll be taking up three really tough subjects (economics 111, mathematics and accounting 30) and i've set up timeslots for each so that i won't be so brain dead everyday and have enough time left for my math and accounting tutors. i'm crossing my fingers that the slots for my chosen won't run out... since i unfortunately ended up with a sucky random number registration: i'm 767th in line or something equally horrid as that. well at least , i'm below a thousand. eheh. sigh life.
enjoy your summer, guys! and happy easter Ü
my gosh i can't remember the last time summer in the philippines was this hot! the humidity is stifling *gag*. for the past two weeks that will now officially be known as my "summer vacation" (nearly non-existent, don't you think?), the heat was no let-up in it's seemingly perverse want to suffocate us. it would be divine to be able to lounge around in a beach somewhere or probably go a more elevated and cooler place, instead i'm stuck in manila waiting for the wonderful dawn of summer classes *oh the joy*. but seriously, i'm not complaining. just the fact that i'm still in the school that i have learned to love and admire is enough to keep me grounded and sane.
i'll be receiving my grades tomorrow and i'm incredibly relieved to be confident enough to know that i passed everything (unless some surprise bummer pops up *knocks on wood*). and on tuesday, it'll be time for summer registration. i hope i'll get the classes i want... timing is crucial 'coz i'll be taking up three really tough subjects (economics 111, mathematics and accounting 30) and i've set up timeslots for each so that i won't be so brain dead everyday and have enough time left for my math and accounting tutors. i'm crossing my fingers that the slots for my chosen won't run out... since i unfortunately ended up with a sucky random number registration: i'm 767th in line or something equally horrid as that. well at least , i'm below a thousand. eheh. sigh life.
enjoy your summer, guys! and happy easter Ü
Saturday, April 03, 2004
God is Good
i passed my accounting removal exams!!! i am so overwhelmed with happiness and gratitude. there is no way i could have done this without our Lord's help and the support of my friends and family. i was in such a slump when i learned about the all-too-real fact that i was a step away from getting the boot-out of ateneo... the idea of giving up surely crossed my mind more than once, but God instilled in me the determination and initiative to go on and at least try. every event that led to this is surely worthy of a plaque in my life's hall of magical and miraculous moments. makes me want to be a changed person... *sigh* God is infinitely good. i hope i won't slide back into that old rotten rut i got myself into these past sems or i'd surely find myself out on the road to bumdom. i pray for one last thing: that i'd get along day by day IN ateneo (i don't want to get kicked out, really). as if i haven't stressed it enough, i'd really love to stay and graduate from my school. even if i have jumped this hurdle, the ghosts of past failings still haunt me and are all too ready to creep up my neck and give me the heebie-jeebies... it's as if they are permanently installed shadows constantly reminding me that i have yet to rest to rest on my laurels 'coz the worst ain't over just yet. this is where i entrust my faith to God... asking for the will and the strenght to carry on according to His will. i will do my best and hopefully, He will do the rest.
Monday, March 29, 2004
bah
nature has this really funky way of evening things out, doesn't it? like, you can't have too much good things happen to you so the good 'ol guys in charge of this balance throws in a dash or two of bad luck or what-not just for good measure... and vice versa.
last thursday, i found out that i failed my accounting subject. i was around seven grade points away from the passing score. it was so unbelievably depressing that i ended up staring off into space for the whole night contemplating about my life... and life itself in general. now what's so deathly about flunking an impossible subject, you ask? none actually... since it's pretty much normal news to flunk a subject that was meant to be flunked anyway (just kidding). anyway, this was to be my second time to take this subject already ('coz, guess what? that's right, i flunked it the first time i took it), so it was essential that i pass it if i wanted to keep my course, which i so badly wanted to. what was worse was the fact that i've failed a number of subjects from past semesters (math ones, what else?) which means i'm in serious trouble of getting kicked out. i could go look the other way about the matter and say that it's all right to fluvk a few subjects and end up getting kicked out... it's a hard university anyway and there are others where you'd get in to after. believe me, i tried to make this mentality work... and only ended up having a panic attack slash nervous breakdown. i love my school. 'nuff said. i don't want to leave. at that moment, i understood completely what probably was the state of mind of the son of one of our affluent and infamous female senators. her son took his life after failing a subject in ateneo law school. melodramatic i know, but for a moment, i wasn't far from following in his footsteps then i guess the smarter part of me decided to slap me to get me to get up and go and stop thinking 'bout silly stupid-ass stuff.
so anyway, the next day i immediately went to school with the resolve to appeal for permission to take the removal exams ('coz i was only two grade points away from the removal exam qualification). when i got to the management department, i was ready to launch into a sob story so as to illicit a few merciful nods from the powers-that-be. what greeted me shocked the daylights outta me. i was already part of the list who were to take the exam! God has granted me another chance. it's so simple right now as i type it down but the cesspool of emotions gurgling all over me at that time were so intense that i ended up running out into corridors smiling while crying (psycho, i know). the removal exam was to be the next day after i found out... not much time to study 12 accounting chapters, but i was determined and invigorated. i spent the entire night and day before the test isolating myself in a dingy, sparsely furnished room in my dad's office studying (something i have ever done before). and when the time came for me to take THE TEST, i felt ready yet apprehensive. to cut it short, i feel good and happy about the exam... hope i passed :)
that, among other positive things have been happening to me for the past few days. but as i said, nature decided to rear it's head into my business and decided that i've had enough of the miracle happy pill and had me take some of the bitter stuff. first, i lost my puppy. one i love so dearly and am only learning to appreciate and creat a bond with. found out only a few hours back... how sad. another thing is the realization that i am never really sure if i won't get kicked out (i failed a ton of subjects back then)... i know it's really all my fault and i have no intention of pinning the blame on anyone, but the fact that i have come to terms with the my-fault thingy is quite a pulldown. that and a number of other things have sprung up these last few days and are bugging me intensely. i'm just praying for the strenght to get over this. it may seem so trivial as compared to what others might be going through but the thing here is that i don't do comparison of problems. i think it's dumb and pointless. it wouldn't be a problem if it were inconsequential and meaningless... also, it wouldn't be a problem if it didn't have a solution. that keeps me going.
i also have a feeling that i won't be able to go to any beach for the entire summer. sob. i've been dying for a break! i hope my feeling's wrong. it's too soon to assume, i guess. sigh. life.
last thursday, i found out that i failed my accounting subject. i was around seven grade points away from the passing score. it was so unbelievably depressing that i ended up staring off into space for the whole night contemplating about my life... and life itself in general. now what's so deathly about flunking an impossible subject, you ask? none actually... since it's pretty much normal news to flunk a subject that was meant to be flunked anyway (just kidding). anyway, this was to be my second time to take this subject already ('coz, guess what? that's right, i flunked it the first time i took it), so it was essential that i pass it if i wanted to keep my course, which i so badly wanted to. what was worse was the fact that i've failed a number of subjects from past semesters (math ones, what else?) which means i'm in serious trouble of getting kicked out. i could go look the other way about the matter and say that it's all right to fluvk a few subjects and end up getting kicked out... it's a hard university anyway and there are others where you'd get in to after. believe me, i tried to make this mentality work... and only ended up having a panic attack slash nervous breakdown. i love my school. 'nuff said. i don't want to leave. at that moment, i understood completely what probably was the state of mind of the son of one of our affluent and infamous female senators. her son took his life after failing a subject in ateneo law school. melodramatic i know, but for a moment, i wasn't far from following in his footsteps then i guess the smarter part of me decided to slap me to get me to get up and go and stop thinking 'bout silly stupid-ass stuff.
so anyway, the next day i immediately went to school with the resolve to appeal for permission to take the removal exams ('coz i was only two grade points away from the removal exam qualification). when i got to the management department, i was ready to launch into a sob story so as to illicit a few merciful nods from the powers-that-be. what greeted me shocked the daylights outta me. i was already part of the list who were to take the exam! God has granted me another chance. it's so simple right now as i type it down but the cesspool of emotions gurgling all over me at that time were so intense that i ended up running out into corridors smiling while crying (psycho, i know). the removal exam was to be the next day after i found out... not much time to study 12 accounting chapters, but i was determined and invigorated. i spent the entire night and day before the test isolating myself in a dingy, sparsely furnished room in my dad's office studying (something i have ever done before). and when the time came for me to take THE TEST, i felt ready yet apprehensive. to cut it short, i feel good and happy about the exam... hope i passed :)
that, among other positive things have been happening to me for the past few days. but as i said, nature decided to rear it's head into my business and decided that i've had enough of the miracle happy pill and had me take some of the bitter stuff. first, i lost my puppy. one i love so dearly and am only learning to appreciate and creat a bond with. found out only a few hours back... how sad. another thing is the realization that i am never really sure if i won't get kicked out (i failed a ton of subjects back then)... i know it's really all my fault and i have no intention of pinning the blame on anyone, but the fact that i have come to terms with the my-fault thingy is quite a pulldown. that and a number of other things have sprung up these last few days and are bugging me intensely. i'm just praying for the strenght to get over this. it may seem so trivial as compared to what others might be going through but the thing here is that i don't do comparison of problems. i think it's dumb and pointless. it wouldn't be a problem if it were inconsequential and meaningless... also, it wouldn't be a problem if it didn't have a solution. that keeps me going.
i also have a feeling that i won't be able to go to any beach for the entire summer. sob. i've been dying for a break! i hope my feeling's wrong. it's too soon to assume, i guess. sigh. life.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
honk
i'm over here at andrea's house right now. what was meant to be a day of watching movies and hanging out turned to be a night for a sleepover... eheh. my cellphone line got cut since i failed to pay for ny five grand bill on time. oh well. tough... so i can't contact my dad and ask him to pick me up so here i am... spending the night over :)
anyway, i have FINALLY seen the Passion of Christ, albeit through a pirated VCD copy. this film has been warped in hype ever since any word of it came out... snippets of the supposed morbidity, gore and life-altering effects of the movie did not fail to reach my expectant ears and so i have eagerly anticipated the moment when i would finally be able to see the film for myself since people say there has been nothing like it before and that the mere experience of being able to see it for oneself is in itself an experience (huh? darn... i'm rambling). so anyway, the film. mel gibson's directorial debut was superb. my goodness, the film elicited such a profound effect on me, so much so that i could not discern whjat it is i wanted to do more, cry, shout expletives at those ignoramic pharisees or simply re-evaluate my christological perspectives.
in the end, i ended up doing all of it. words fail to explain just how magnificent the film is. hard hitting would be an apt adjective for it. i'm sure anyone who'd go and see it would definitely find something in it that would trigger some soprt of fancy within him. it's coming out in manila on march 31 if i'm not mistaken, and i'm sure everyone's gonna go rush to the nearest cinemas to see for themselves what all the hype is about. it most certainly is worth every centavo one might shell out for the movie. see it.
anyway, i'm just checking in since i haven't blogged for a while and actually, this is the first time i have ever blogged from a friend's house. peculiar. anyway, i had my last final exam today! woohoo i'm free! for two weeks anyway... by april 14, i'm back to the wonderful world of school... summer school, that is. my course requires that i take them. so anyway, you guys enjoy your well-deserved breaks... relish them enough for the both of us ;p happy summer!
anyway, i have FINALLY seen the Passion of Christ, albeit through a pirated VCD copy. this film has been warped in hype ever since any word of it came out... snippets of the supposed morbidity, gore and life-altering effects of the movie did not fail to reach my expectant ears and so i have eagerly anticipated the moment when i would finally be able to see the film for myself since people say there has been nothing like it before and that the mere experience of being able to see it for oneself is in itself an experience (huh? darn... i'm rambling). so anyway, the film. mel gibson's directorial debut was superb. my goodness, the film elicited such a profound effect on me, so much so that i could not discern whjat it is i wanted to do more, cry, shout expletives at those ignoramic pharisees or simply re-evaluate my christological perspectives.
in the end, i ended up doing all of it. words fail to explain just how magnificent the film is. hard hitting would be an apt adjective for it. i'm sure anyone who'd go and see it would definitely find something in it that would trigger some soprt of fancy within him. it's coming out in manila on march 31 if i'm not mistaken, and i'm sure everyone's gonna go rush to the nearest cinemas to see for themselves what all the hype is about. it most certainly is worth every centavo one might shell out for the movie. see it.
anyway, i'm just checking in since i haven't blogged for a while and actually, this is the first time i have ever blogged from a friend's house. peculiar. anyway, i had my last final exam today! woohoo i'm free! for two weeks anyway... by april 14, i'm back to the wonderful world of school... summer school, that is. my course requires that i take them. so anyway, you guys enjoy your well-deserved breaks... relish them enough for the both of us ;p happy summer!
Sunday, March 21, 2004
compensation
hearing: Take Me In Your Arms ~ Texas
i've been spending less and less time away from bloggin that i feel like school is all i ever do. all work and play makes hyannah... the cutie she actually is. of course, that's ajoke. anyway, thought i'd fill this space with something other than whinings about school and depressing stuff like that so i've decided to share some of the more interesting things i've been up to lately.
lately, i've rediscovered my love for movies. i've bought copies of some films i've seen and very much loved. despite the hefty price, i've been more than willing to obtain for myself a copy of these films to be made available whenever i'd wish to watch it. some of the titles i got are: Serendipity, The Firm, Moulin Rouge, Little Nicky, Liar Liar, The Juror, Disturbing Behavior, and Ever After. i've made it a point to see a film at least twice a week, and as of the moment i have just finished seeing Ever After. Beautiful! loved it :) i am such a sucker for sappy romantic films... and cinderella plotlines hehe.
an unexpected treat lately was when i got to spend time last friday night with my highschool friends over at the mall. it's been some time since we last got together and it was really fun to hang out again. there was also a sale going on and the prices were just so low! hehe... shopper's paradise (or at least for those who's got the cash ;p). last night, i finally got to watch 50 First Dates (Adam Sandler & Drew Barrymore who incidentally was also in Ever After hehe). it's the cutest movie ever!!! hehe. it's very refreshing and original... quite funny and very sweet as well. you can't go wrong with this film so go try and catch it before it exits the theaters :)
i'm now anticipating the release of "The Passion of Christ", Mel Gibson's directorial debut and highly controversial film. i have to see it. aside from renewing my love for movies, i am also restoring my first ever love for reading. i'm currently into John Grisham novels (me being a wannabe lawyer and all :p lol), very lurid and brilliant i must say :) must-reads. anyhow, i think my attemp to try to convince anyone that i've been leading a fun-filled and exciting life seems to have failed miserably so i should leave now ;p hehe.
i'll leave you with the lyrics to the song Aam Sandler (and actually written and arranged by him) sang to drew Barrymore in 50 First Dates. i'm sure anyone who's seen the movie will want to hear about this one ;p enjoy and i hope you all have a great summer ahead of you :)
Forgetful Lucy
La-woo-kee-low is the place
Where I first saw your face
We liked each other right away
But you didn’t remember me the very next day
Forgetful Lucy
Has got a nice caboose-ie
I used to trick you into pulling your car over so we could chat
But my favorite time was when you beat the shit out of Ula with a bat
Than we drove up to see Dr. Keets
And find out why Doug always has to change his sheets
Forgetful Lucy
Cracked her head like Gary Busey
But I still love her so
And I’ll never let her go
Even if while I’m singing this song
She’s wishing I had Jocko The Walrus’ shlong
Forgetful Lucy
Her lips are so damn juicy
How about another first kiss?
*sigh*
(i'll post some inetersting film stills next time. busy as a bee... gotta buzz ;p)
i've been spending less and less time away from bloggin that i feel like school is all i ever do. all work and play makes hyannah... the cutie she actually is. of course, that's ajoke. anyway, thought i'd fill this space with something other than whinings about school and depressing stuff like that so i've decided to share some of the more interesting things i've been up to lately.
lately, i've rediscovered my love for movies. i've bought copies of some films i've seen and very much loved. despite the hefty price, i've been more than willing to obtain for myself a copy of these films to be made available whenever i'd wish to watch it. some of the titles i got are: Serendipity, The Firm, Moulin Rouge, Little Nicky, Liar Liar, The Juror, Disturbing Behavior, and Ever After. i've made it a point to see a film at least twice a week, and as of the moment i have just finished seeing Ever After. Beautiful! loved it :) i am such a sucker for sappy romantic films... and cinderella plotlines hehe.
an unexpected treat lately was when i got to spend time last friday night with my highschool friends over at the mall. it's been some time since we last got together and it was really fun to hang out again. there was also a sale going on and the prices were just so low! hehe... shopper's paradise (or at least for those who's got the cash ;p). last night, i finally got to watch 50 First Dates (Adam Sandler & Drew Barrymore who incidentally was also in Ever After hehe). it's the cutest movie ever!!! hehe. it's very refreshing and original... quite funny and very sweet as well. you can't go wrong with this film so go try and catch it before it exits the theaters :)
i'm now anticipating the release of "The Passion of Christ", Mel Gibson's directorial debut and highly controversial film. i have to see it. aside from renewing my love for movies, i am also restoring my first ever love for reading. i'm currently into John Grisham novels (me being a wannabe lawyer and all :p lol), very lurid and brilliant i must say :) must-reads. anyhow, i think my attemp to try to convince anyone that i've been leading a fun-filled and exciting life seems to have failed miserably so i should leave now ;p hehe.
i'll leave you with the lyrics to the song Aam Sandler (and actually written and arranged by him) sang to drew Barrymore in 50 First Dates. i'm sure anyone who's seen the movie will want to hear about this one ;p enjoy and i hope you all have a great summer ahead of you :)
Forgetful Lucy
La-woo-kee-low is the place
Where I first saw your face
We liked each other right away
But you didn’t remember me the very next day
Forgetful Lucy
Has got a nice caboose-ie
I used to trick you into pulling your car over so we could chat
But my favorite time was when you beat the shit out of Ula with a bat
Than we drove up to see Dr. Keets
And find out why Doug always has to change his sheets
Forgetful Lucy
Cracked her head like Gary Busey
But I still love her so
And I’ll never let her go
Even if while I’m singing this song
She’s wishing I had Jocko The Walrus’ shlong
Forgetful Lucy
Her lips are so damn juicy
How about another first kiss?
*sigh*
(i'll post some inetersting film stills next time. busy as a bee... gotta buzz ;p)
Friday, March 19, 2004
sad news
first of all, i would like to express my deepest condolences for everyone who knew Kyle Andrew Castillo who passed away recently due to colon cancer. let us offer a prayer for the eternal repose of his soul. rest in peace, kyle :s
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even if i wanted it to be otherwise, i had to end up starting my "return of the comeback" post on a very somber note. i recently found out that a quasi-childhood friend-slash-classmateforthelongesttime kyle castillo passed away to be with our Lord. it came as a complete shock. i was never particularly close to him, but he was always there in the same way i always was. co-existence, one might say. it is so hard to imagine someone who's always existed as one to always be there to be gone. he was always full of life, i even thought of him as mysterious and enigmatic for a while... actually, for the whole while that i was in school with him. always thought that he'd turn out allright even after he left for CSA, then later on for the states. it's safe to say he is well loved and will be sorely missed. i sincerely hope he's doing great where he is now...
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school's gobbling me up... which is so sad since i might be kicked out in a matter of days, i guess i'm somewhat halfway there already, i'm just waiting for the formal indictment. but then again, i am hoping that i could stay. it may not show in my academic performance but i really love my school... and i honestly don't see myself anywhere else. it would really break my heart to have to leave. darn... regret really does always come in the end, doesn't it?
anyway, i haven't updated for so long since i've hardly had time to even sleep-eat-drink... you know, normal activities of the living. i am so dead. i did try to post a few days back but just when i was ready to hit the Publish button in order to share with the world my incredibly witty and humorous entry, my pc hanged. must've been an omen. the world wasn't ready for such intellect yet. just kidding. anyway, felt too rotten and pissed to write another one after that so... here i am now, making this other post.
before i go, i would just like to extend my thanks to everyone who peridically drops by here and leaves little tags. i do see them and it's very much appreciated :) thanks. hope to return the favor sometime real soon (finals are coming up *rarr*). hope everyone keeps safe and good.
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even if i wanted it to be otherwise, i had to end up starting my "return of the comeback" post on a very somber note. i recently found out that a quasi-childhood friend-slash-classmateforthelongesttime kyle castillo passed away to be with our Lord. it came as a complete shock. i was never particularly close to him, but he was always there in the same way i always was. co-existence, one might say. it is so hard to imagine someone who's always existed as one to always be there to be gone. he was always full of life, i even thought of him as mysterious and enigmatic for a while... actually, for the whole while that i was in school with him. always thought that he'd turn out allright even after he left for CSA, then later on for the states. it's safe to say he is well loved and will be sorely missed. i sincerely hope he's doing great where he is now...
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school's gobbling me up... which is so sad since i might be kicked out in a matter of days, i guess i'm somewhat halfway there already, i'm just waiting for the formal indictment. but then again, i am hoping that i could stay. it may not show in my academic performance but i really love my school... and i honestly don't see myself anywhere else. it would really break my heart to have to leave. darn... regret really does always come in the end, doesn't it?
anyway, i haven't updated for so long since i've hardly had time to even sleep-eat-drink... you know, normal activities of the living. i am so dead. i did try to post a few days back but just when i was ready to hit the Publish button in order to share with the world my incredibly witty and humorous entry, my pc hanged. must've been an omen. the world wasn't ready for such intellect yet. just kidding. anyway, felt too rotten and pissed to write another one after that so... here i am now, making this other post.
before i go, i would just like to extend my thanks to everyone who peridically drops by here and leaves little tags. i do see them and it's very much appreciated :) thanks. hope to return the favor sometime real soon (finals are coming up *rarr*). hope everyone keeps safe and good.