gateway mall
on loop: hari ng sablay ~ sugarfree
went to the new gateway mall in araneta center last night with bea. very cool place! the cinemas are incredible. i can't wait to see a movie there :) the shops are great and the mall itself is very pleasant and cozy. the crowd is also a-ok... not too thin, but not too many either. i hope that this mall won't turn out into one of those mobster malls where everyone goes to hang out and stuff. a crazy crowd would just ruin it. hehe i'm so selfish. but oh well, different strokes for different folks. it's so near my place! there's italianni's, taco bell, and even go-nuts donuts mwahahaha. very cool :) btw, thanks for the coffee, bey. plano natin ha? just kidding hehe ;p
sigh. everyone's gone out to the provinces... sunshine's in dagupan, pam's in hrrmmm, surigao, i think? or something, junelle's in dubai. i wish eveyone would come back already and let's drink (water). harhar just kidding. i'm bored again. anyway, i'll be back to work later at 4am, and it will be my first taste of the floor (which means it'll be my first time to take calls for the whole shift with no supervision). i'll be left to my own devices! oh no. i hope i'll be able to manage it. just thinking bout it makes me feel queasy but excited at the same time. i hope it'll be a good first day for me as a bonafide technical sales rep :) hehe. i can't wait! anyway, gotta work on my spiels for now so ciao, till later..
Monday, December 27, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
tum-ti-tum-tum
tum-ti-tum-tum
on loop: could've been you (could've been me) ~ u-turn
nothing new today... just bumming around the house with nothing to do hehe :) hay i wanna go out and watch movies. i heard that the manila film fest entries were really good. i personally want to watch aishte mas (spell check ;p) and spirit of the glass and sigaw. hehe :) paskong pasko magho-horror ako. owell. woke up really late since stayed nearly half the night talking to a friend i haven't spoken with for about a year or more already for four hours. almost slept on him hehe (sorry! ;p). i have to go to greenhills to get some stuff and check out the sony ericccon t638i (i think?) for my sun cel # and i'm hoping my dad would take me later and i'm also hoping that i won't be too lazy to get a move-on. i would love to go shopping but too bad i don't have enough money hehe... next time (hopefully by january) :)
sigh. i'm rattling off nonsense. just bored. can't wait to get back to work! i think i'm becoming a workaholic... i can't bear being away from work for more than a day or so. i'm always itching to go back already hehe. yikes... who would've thunk. oh and by the way, my guestbook is up and running again! horray :) i've also put a site stat counter in here... a very cool looking one actually hehe. halata na bang bored ako kahapon? i finally got to work on those things and they're found on the navigation bar on the left in case you guys have nothing better to do and would want to go have a look-see :) the guestbook still needs some work but i'm just glad that it's finally working again hehe.
sigh. i want a new phone. i really really really do. my dad received a nokia 6260 for christmas from his friends. lucky duck! i want one as well... that was the model i wanted but now my dad has it, and my friend pam as well, and about three people from work. rarr, hehe :) but i looked around and found another great model! it doesn't look half as cool as the 6260 does but the features are incredible. totally power-packed and the price isn't that far from the 6260. meet the nokia 6670 - the handheld version of the nokia 9210 plus more. i really like it as well... now i can't pick what phone to get. if i wanted the 6260, i could just get my dad's (harhar *eeeeevvilll*) but i wouldn't wanna do that since it is after all, a gift for him. on the other hand, if i go buy the 6670 next month, i'd have to scrape up around 30k for it. yipes! i was actually thinking of applying for globe's deferred installment plans, where i could get the phone model of my choice and pay it off in small monthly installments. that's easier on the pocket since i could pay it off with my salary from work... no need to bug my dad bout it. hrmmm.
this?...
or maybe this... 
?
decisions... decisions... (mouse-over the images to see the model), wonder which i should get? hahaha i speak as if i've got the dinero/ moolah/ money/ cash/ resources (or whatever else you call it, doesn't change the fact that i don't have it harhar). owell... wishful thinking, it ain't so bad to dream once in a while :) it is free after all. might be gone for some time when work resumes on tuesday, so i'm putting in long posts just in case i'll have no time to blog again soon... hehe so please bear with my useless ramblings :)
on loop: could've been you (could've been me) ~ u-turn
nothing new today... just bumming around the house with nothing to do hehe :) hay i wanna go out and watch movies. i heard that the manila film fest entries were really good. i personally want to watch aishte mas (spell check ;p) and spirit of the glass and sigaw. hehe :) paskong pasko magho-horror ako. owell. woke up really late since stayed nearly half the night talking to a friend i haven't spoken with for about a year or more already for four hours. almost slept on him hehe (sorry! ;p). i have to go to greenhills to get some stuff and check out the sony ericccon t638i (i think?) for my sun cel # and i'm hoping my dad would take me later and i'm also hoping that i won't be too lazy to get a move-on. i would love to go shopping but too bad i don't have enough money hehe... next time (hopefully by january) :)
sigh. i'm rattling off nonsense. just bored. can't wait to get back to work! i think i'm becoming a workaholic... i can't bear being away from work for more than a day or so. i'm always itching to go back already hehe. yikes... who would've thunk. oh and by the way, my guestbook is up and running again! horray :) i've also put a site stat counter in here... a very cool looking one actually hehe. halata na bang bored ako kahapon? i finally got to work on those things and they're found on the navigation bar on the left in case you guys have nothing better to do and would want to go have a look-see :) the guestbook still needs some work but i'm just glad that it's finally working again hehe.
sigh. i want a new phone. i really really really do. my dad received a nokia 6260 for christmas from his friends. lucky duck! i want one as well... that was the model i wanted but now my dad has it, and my friend pam as well, and about three people from work. rarr, hehe :) but i looked around and found another great model! it doesn't look half as cool as the 6260 does but the features are incredible. totally power-packed and the price isn't that far from the 6260. meet the nokia 6670 - the handheld version of the nokia 9210 plus more. i really like it as well... now i can't pick what phone to get. if i wanted the 6260, i could just get my dad's (harhar *eeeeevvilll*) but i wouldn't wanna do that since it is after all, a gift for him. on the other hand, if i go buy the 6670 next month, i'd have to scrape up around 30k for it. yipes! i was actually thinking of applying for globe's deferred installment plans, where i could get the phone model of my choice and pay it off in small monthly installments. that's easier on the pocket since i could pay it off with my salary from work... no need to bug my dad bout it. hrmmm.
this?...
or maybe this... ?
decisions... decisions... (mouse-over the images to see the model), wonder which i should get? hahaha i speak as if i've got the dinero/ moolah/ money/ cash/ resources (or whatever else you call it, doesn't change the fact that i don't have it harhar). owell... wishful thinking, it ain't so bad to dream once in a while :) it is free after all. might be gone for some time when work resumes on tuesday, so i'm putting in long posts just in case i'll have no time to blog again soon... hehe so please bear with my useless ramblings :)
Saturday, December 25, 2004
smooth sailing
smooth sailing
on loop: can i walk with you ~ india arie
had a different kinda christmas :) twas great. i thought it would be just like any ordinary day but the presence of special people made it all better and memorable. everything's working the knots out of themselves... which is good. smooth sailing so far :) anyway, i hope we all had a meaningul and memorable christmas... and that we would all have a blessed new year ahead of us :) let us not forget the true significance of this day... so here's to You on Your very special day. CHEERS!
random thought: a silly though came into my mind... i'll get married na kaya? mwahahaha. just kidding! like i said, random (and silly) thought ;p mga ten years pa before that'll happen hehe.
*****
can i walk with you ~ india arie
I woke up this morning
You were the first thing on my mind
I don't know were it came from
All I know is I need you in my life, yeah
You make me feel like I can be a better woman
If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place
Can I walk with you through your life
Can I lay with you as your wife
Can I be your friend 'till the end
Can I walk with you through your life
You've got me wonderin'
If you know that I am wonderin' about you
The feeling is so strong that,
I can't imagine you're not feeling it too, yeah
YOu've known me long enough to trust, that I want what's best for you.
If you wanna be happy, then I am the one that you should give your heart too.
Now every day ain't gonna be like a summer's day.
Being in love for real, it ain't like a movie screen.
But I can tell you, all the drama aside, you and I can find what the world's been looking for forever, friendship and love together.
on loop: can i walk with you ~ india arie
had a different kinda christmas :) twas great. i thought it would be just like any ordinary day but the presence of special people made it all better and memorable. everything's working the knots out of themselves... which is good. smooth sailing so far :) anyway, i hope we all had a meaningul and memorable christmas... and that we would all have a blessed new year ahead of us :) let us not forget the true significance of this day... so here's to You on Your very special day. CHEERS!
random thought: a silly though came into my mind... i'll get married na kaya? mwahahaha. just kidding! like i said, random (and silly) thought ;p mga ten years pa before that'll happen hehe.
*****
can i walk with you ~ india arie
I woke up this morning
You were the first thing on my mind
I don't know were it came from
All I know is I need you in my life, yeah
You make me feel like I can be a better woman
If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place
Can I walk with you through your life
Can I lay with you as your wife
Can I be your friend 'till the end
Can I walk with you through your life
You've got me wonderin'
If you know that I am wonderin' about you
The feeling is so strong that,
I can't imagine you're not feeling it too, yeah
YOu've known me long enough to trust, that I want what's best for you.
If you wanna be happy, then I am the one that you should give your heart too.
Now every day ain't gonna be like a summer's day.
Being in love for real, it ain't like a movie screen.
But I can tell you, all the drama aside, you and I can find what the world's been looking for forever, friendship and love together.
Friday, December 24, 2004
confetti
confetti
on loop: mundian tu bach ke ~ punjabi mc
to start off, i would like to greet everyone a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!. i hope that we all will experience a meaningful and significant holiday season as well as a blessed and refreshing new year :) this year has brought each and every one so much strife and dilemma, but in the end, it is the love, joys and peace that stand out. we must thank the Lord for all of His blessings and guidance by way of His merciful heart. i'm just so thankful right now for everything, despite everything :)
*****
work was especially draining today because it is our last day of academic and product training. by next week, we would be hitting the floors full time already... which means that we were already given our team assignments. it's so heart-breaking to know that we were being broken up into different teams with different shift scheds. my closest friends there were also all dissipated into various teams. so sad to know that we won't be seeing each other that frequently anymore. i loved working with them for these past four weeks that seemed like ten years already. i got into team moe... of which i am very thankful for, because i had been hoping to get into his team. moe is the greatest supervisor ever... and the coolest as well. there's even an atenean in my team, but he's already in fourth year, with yet to work on his thesis. small world :) my shift sched is still the same, 4am to 1pm... sucky timeframe but the team makes up for it all. my off-days would most probably be from 1pm of saturdays till 4am of tuesdays. not bad hehe :) i'm nervous and excited at the same time and i sincerely hope that i do well on my job. and though it saddens me to be working apart from my friends there, i'm sure that everything would work out just fine.
*****
we had a christmas buffet in astoria this morning. we were all together: the entire class of 33 and our 7 trainers. it was both happy and sad. happy since shempre kainan nanaman hehe, but at the same time slightly bittersweet since it would virtually be our last time together in a long time. no more eating together, or yosi breaks together, or chika sessions. sigh. we were all trying to stay as long as we could, in the hopes of cramming enough time together till the next time that we would be able to do so again. it was with a heavy heart that we tried to appear as jolly as we could, but we'll work it out. coz we believe that one doesn't just give up on great people just like that ;)
*****
on a latter note, i've been feeling a bit sentimental these last few days. i think it's because i got it this morning or maybe it's the holiday spirit or something. i suddenly realized that i value my friends very much, and of course, my dad. i'm just so thankful to have such great and wonderful friends who's been with me through hell and high water, and an incredible dad that leaves nothing to be asked for. every one i've met all throughout these years: in college and in work, they've all been true and endearing to me. the personalities that have made my life colorful, who've shared experiences with me even as i trod through the storms in our lives and as i float in the goodness of it as well. the great people in my life... i really am so blessed to have them. i hope there never comes a time that i would take them for granted and lose them just like that. coz i'd know that it would be the biggest mistake i'll be making in this lifetime. they are the people i would never forget... not just as fleeting personalities in my life, but as the life itself in my life. thank God for them, sure made life a whole lot interesting :)
once again, happy holidays, everyone! and enjoy the vacation...
on loop: mundian tu bach ke ~ punjabi mc
to start off, i would like to greet everyone a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!. i hope that we all will experience a meaningful and significant holiday season as well as a blessed and refreshing new year :) this year has brought each and every one so much strife and dilemma, but in the end, it is the love, joys and peace that stand out. we must thank the Lord for all of His blessings and guidance by way of His merciful heart. i'm just so thankful right now for everything, despite everything :)
*****
work was especially draining today because it is our last day of academic and product training. by next week, we would be hitting the floors full time already... which means that we were already given our team assignments. it's so heart-breaking to know that we were being broken up into different teams with different shift scheds. my closest friends there were also all dissipated into various teams. so sad to know that we won't be seeing each other that frequently anymore. i loved working with them for these past four weeks that seemed like ten years already. i got into team moe... of which i am very thankful for, because i had been hoping to get into his team. moe is the greatest supervisor ever... and the coolest as well. there's even an atenean in my team, but he's already in fourth year, with yet to work on his thesis. small world :) my shift sched is still the same, 4am to 1pm... sucky timeframe but the team makes up for it all. my off-days would most probably be from 1pm of saturdays till 4am of tuesdays. not bad hehe :) i'm nervous and excited at the same time and i sincerely hope that i do well on my job. and though it saddens me to be working apart from my friends there, i'm sure that everything would work out just fine.
*****
we had a christmas buffet in astoria this morning. we were all together: the entire class of 33 and our 7 trainers. it was both happy and sad. happy since shempre kainan nanaman hehe, but at the same time slightly bittersweet since it would virtually be our last time together in a long time. no more eating together, or yosi breaks together, or chika sessions. sigh. we were all trying to stay as long as we could, in the hopes of cramming enough time together till the next time that we would be able to do so again. it was with a heavy heart that we tried to appear as jolly as we could, but we'll work it out. coz we believe that one doesn't just give up on great people just like that ;)
*****
on a latter note, i've been feeling a bit sentimental these last few days. i think it's because i got it this morning or maybe it's the holiday spirit or something. i suddenly realized that i value my friends very much, and of course, my dad. i'm just so thankful to have such great and wonderful friends who's been with me through hell and high water, and an incredible dad that leaves nothing to be asked for. every one i've met all throughout these years: in college and in work, they've all been true and endearing to me. the personalities that have made my life colorful, who've shared experiences with me even as i trod through the storms in our lives and as i float in the goodness of it as well. the great people in my life... i really am so blessed to have them. i hope there never comes a time that i would take them for granted and lose them just like that. coz i'd know that it would be the biggest mistake i'll be making in this lifetime. they are the people i would never forget... not just as fleeting personalities in my life, but as the life itself in my life. thank God for them, sure made life a whole lot interesting :)
once again, happy holidays, everyone! and enjoy the vacation...
Thursday, December 23, 2004
sewerage systems
sewerage systems
on loop: through with you ~ maroon 5
i am just so drained and exhausted for these past few weeks. everything's gone by in one giant blur. it's as if i blinked and before i knew it, i'm here. but it's all good... life's great and i'm loving everything about it, even the things that aren't so great for me. there are aspects that i could damn to hell forever but hating's a thing of the past. live and let go. hard but smart. keep on rockin' as they say. and while you're at it, roll as well.
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learned a new word from work: happy trash. mwahehehe... i could think of some trashy people and some trashy things and stuff and oddly enough, it makes me happy in a twisted and perverse sorta way. weird.
****
i will. i will. i will. i will.
i will be able to do it. i will be able to do what i have to have... and i will be able to have what i want. i will. i will. i will. will work work work for 'em. i'll get by :)
****
this season's real sad for me... first of all, i'm broke as heck. i don't even have a flat penny to my name. i haven't even had my money and it's not mine anymore. harhar the harsh realities of life. plus work's really bearing down on me and the people are getting on my nerves though things are still bearable hehe. but it's ok. everything's getting by just fine... there are shit storms and a shortage of paddles.. but everyone will get through :)
****
i'm really into cost-cutting right now. i will probably have to be in scrooge-mode till around january or maybe even february if i wanna be able to pay off my debts and get the new phones i want. mwahehehe. i want the new 7260 from nokia! harharhar... or the new sony ericsson. hehehe. sigh. dreams. and so i'm wishing everyone a very happy and blessed holidays Ü hope we all have a meaningful and significant Christmas. let's all look forward to bigger and better new year ahead of us as well. keep safe everyone! :) ciao for now.
on loop: through with you ~ maroon 5
i am just so drained and exhausted for these past few weeks. everything's gone by in one giant blur. it's as if i blinked and before i knew it, i'm here. but it's all good... life's great and i'm loving everything about it, even the things that aren't so great for me. there are aspects that i could damn to hell forever but hating's a thing of the past. live and let go. hard but smart. keep on rockin' as they say. and while you're at it, roll as well.
****
learned a new word from work: happy trash. mwahehehe... i could think of some trashy people and some trashy things and stuff and oddly enough, it makes me happy in a twisted and perverse sorta way. weird.
****
i will. i will. i will. i will.
i will be able to do it. i will be able to do what i have to have... and i will be able to have what i want. i will. i will. i will. will work work work for 'em. i'll get by :)
****
this season's real sad for me... first of all, i'm broke as heck. i don't even have a flat penny to my name. i haven't even had my money and it's not mine anymore. harhar the harsh realities of life. plus work's really bearing down on me and the people are getting on my nerves though things are still bearable hehe. but it's ok. everything's getting by just fine... there are shit storms and a shortage of paddles.. but everyone will get through :)
****
i'm really into cost-cutting right now. i will probably have to be in scrooge-mode till around january or maybe even february if i wanna be able to pay off my debts and get the new phones i want. mwahehehe. i want the new 7260 from nokia! harharhar... or the new sony ericsson. hehehe. sigh. dreams. and so i'm wishing everyone a very happy and blessed holidays Ü hope we all have a meaningful and significant Christmas. let's all look forward to bigger and better new year ahead of us as well. keep safe everyone! :) ciao for now.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
bad trip
bad trip
on loop: my thoughts
fart. i had the suckiest night... i just got home and everything, and i mean everything, just went wrong today. as in big time wrong. it's the kind of night that'll haunt you till you get old and die or something like that. i won't elaborate anymore on the details since some other people are involved with the events but one of the things that really sucked about this night was that during our company christmas party in rockwell, everything was just baaaddd shit. the day started out allright, things were cool and cozy but as the night wore on, everything just flopped. big time belly flop. anyway, during the party, they were calling out ticket stubs to receive prizes like appliances, laptops, entertainment systems and the like. they were gonna give out dvd players and when i heard about that, i really wanted to be the one to get it... i had this feeling that there was a chance i could be picked. but i shrugged it off.
my colleagues wanted to leave already after a bit coz we were supposed to go to pier one in ortigas to drink and stuff, but then something happened between me and this other person so nawalan ako ng gana and just wanted to stay with this friend from the company who was also from ateneo but things got ugly blah blah blah so to avoid any more issues, i just went with them. around half an hour after we left, that friend called me and said my name was called! i was supposed to get a N6600!!!!! punyeta to the nth power talaga. that is just like adding salt to the wound. its insult to the injury. panget na nga ng araw, ganon pa. i really really really really freaking wanted a new phone, that model as a matter of fact. and now that i was gonna get it for FREE, it slips. punyemas. sobrang nabad trip ako, ang tindi. i was snapping at everyone. sobrang nanghihinayang lang ako... and i really hate the feeling. regret and loss is something i totally suck in dealing with. i can deal with anger, depression, sadness, happiness, name it, all except those two. coz there really is nothing you can do about it.
potek talaga. i practically just threw 20 grand away. damnnnnn. tagos sa buto yung pagsisisi ko. im not being materialistic here... its just that the situations and events that culminated to that one was really pushing me over the edge already and actually, were the reasons why i missed the phone. tapos may mokong na hirit pa ng hirit buong gabi sakin, sarap na upakan. i really hate getting into fights, especially if it's for no reason and if wala talaga sa lugar yung tao sabay namamaliktad pa. leche.i felt so bad, i ended up drinking 3 shots of cuervo and beer. had to take my mind off the things but just being with those people was not helping.
buti na lang, i met up with bea, pam and tony. they made me feel so much better. thanks so much guys for putting up with me even if i was so bitchy and i made you wait pa. lifesavers. i still feel rotten and i hope this fades away fast coz it's really putting me in a sour mood, i just hope i'd be able to find a way to just forget things and act like this stupid night never happened. i've never hated a night as much as i do this one. everything was just plain downright wrong. i'm really sorry if this is such a negative post, i just had to let it out coz i'm really pissed. i wish i just stayed home like i wanted to, and slept or something. much safer. i'm not saying i hate the people i'm working with na now, all i'm saying is that what happened made me lose amour for my job and for my colleagues, especially one of my closer friends there. idiot. i could keep ranting here but in the end, i'm the one who's the dunce in this whole picture. i hate being the imbecile... it sucks big time.
on loop: my thoughts
fart. i had the suckiest night... i just got home and everything, and i mean everything, just went wrong today. as in big time wrong. it's the kind of night that'll haunt you till you get old and die or something like that. i won't elaborate anymore on the details since some other people are involved with the events but one of the things that really sucked about this night was that during our company christmas party in rockwell, everything was just baaaddd shit. the day started out allright, things were cool and cozy but as the night wore on, everything just flopped. big time belly flop. anyway, during the party, they were calling out ticket stubs to receive prizes like appliances, laptops, entertainment systems and the like. they were gonna give out dvd players and when i heard about that, i really wanted to be the one to get it... i had this feeling that there was a chance i could be picked. but i shrugged it off.
my colleagues wanted to leave already after a bit coz we were supposed to go to pier one in ortigas to drink and stuff, but then something happened between me and this other person so nawalan ako ng gana and just wanted to stay with this friend from the company who was also from ateneo but things got ugly blah blah blah so to avoid any more issues, i just went with them. around half an hour after we left, that friend called me and said my name was called! i was supposed to get a N6600!!!!! punyeta to the nth power talaga. that is just like adding salt to the wound. its insult to the injury. panget na nga ng araw, ganon pa. i really really really really freaking wanted a new phone, that model as a matter of fact. and now that i was gonna get it for FREE, it slips. punyemas. sobrang nabad trip ako, ang tindi. i was snapping at everyone. sobrang nanghihinayang lang ako... and i really hate the feeling. regret and loss is something i totally suck in dealing with. i can deal with anger, depression, sadness, happiness, name it, all except those two. coz there really is nothing you can do about it.
potek talaga. i practically just threw 20 grand away. damnnnnn. tagos sa buto yung pagsisisi ko. im not being materialistic here... its just that the situations and events that culminated to that one was really pushing me over the edge already and actually, were the reasons why i missed the phone. tapos may mokong na hirit pa ng hirit buong gabi sakin, sarap na upakan. i really hate getting into fights, especially if it's for no reason and if wala talaga sa lugar yung tao sabay namamaliktad pa. leche.i felt so bad, i ended up drinking 3 shots of cuervo and beer. had to take my mind off the things but just being with those people was not helping.
buti na lang, i met up with bea, pam and tony. they made me feel so much better. thanks so much guys for putting up with me even if i was so bitchy and i made you wait pa. lifesavers. i still feel rotten and i hope this fades away fast coz it's really putting me in a sour mood, i just hope i'd be able to find a way to just forget things and act like this stupid night never happened. i've never hated a night as much as i do this one. everything was just plain downright wrong. i'm really sorry if this is such a negative post, i just had to let it out coz i'm really pissed. i wish i just stayed home like i wanted to, and slept or something. much safer. i'm not saying i hate the people i'm working with na now, all i'm saying is that what happened made me lose amour for my job and for my colleagues, especially one of my closer friends there. idiot. i could keep ranting here but in the end, i'm the one who's the dunce in this whole picture. i hate being the imbecile... it sucks big time.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
ngeks...
ngeks...
on loop: wag na wag ~ kitchie nadal
hrmmm... nothing new today. just bumming around at home, catching up on sleep and the going-ons on tv. actually, the reason i blogged again this morning is 'coz i wanted to delete my previous post but then decided against it. i thought it seemed so nonsensical but it's allright, i guess. posted it kasi right after i got home from congo grille and i was still drunk... so, it's the alchohol talking harhar. please bear with me... este, it pala. i wanna watch a movie tonight! but i have no money and no one to watch it with me hehe. owell. maybe next time :)
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SHOUT-OUTS:
mari's back! hey mari, let's just plan something after your sister's wedding since bea's play will be ending around that time as well. plus, Christmas break falls around that time as well, so by then everyone will be free :) and of course, the Christmas dinner hehe. and to bea, hope your first night went well! congratulations... i'm sure you did great and will continue to do so. hehe dapat sa 19 magaling na magaling na ha ;p jk. shine, hope your trip did you good and cleared your mind. sana you are now more sure of yourself in order for you to make sound decisions based on concrete reasons hehe. ingat ;p see you when you get back.
on loop: wag na wag ~ kitchie nadal
hrmmm... nothing new today. just bumming around at home, catching up on sleep and the going-ons on tv. actually, the reason i blogged again this morning is 'coz i wanted to delete my previous post but then decided against it. i thought it seemed so nonsensical but it's allright, i guess. posted it kasi right after i got home from congo grille and i was still drunk... so, it's the alchohol talking harhar. please bear with me... este, it pala. i wanna watch a movie tonight! but i have no money and no one to watch it with me hehe. owell. maybe next time :)
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SHOUT-OUTS:
mari's back! hey mari, let's just plan something after your sister's wedding since bea's play will be ending around that time as well. plus, Christmas break falls around that time as well, so by then everyone will be free :) and of course, the Christmas dinner hehe. and to bea, hope your first night went well! congratulations... i'm sure you did great and will continue to do so. hehe dapat sa 19 magaling na magaling na ha ;p jk. shine, hope your trip did you good and cleared your mind. sana you are now more sure of yourself in order for you to make sound decisions based on concrete reasons hehe. ingat ;p see you when you get back.
Friday, December 10, 2004
tama na yan...
tama na yan...
on loop: emotion ~ destiny's child
... inuman na! haha. handled my three first ever calls at work today. damn it was hard... i got rattled so much since there were so many things to do on the PC and so many things to say to the customer. it's really tough to understand pure american accents, and they easily get pissed if you keep asking them to repeat what they've said. but it's all good. i loved it! i totally enjoyed it. i'm looking forward to taking in more calls. the rep who was assigned to be my mentor is so cute pa harharhar. he came with us to breakfast after and he asked mfor my number! nyahahaha. lalang. cutie :) but he's really nice and really, really, REALLY helped me a lot. if he wasn't there, i would blacked out hehe. starting next week, we'll be taking in calls everyday for about 2 hours just to help us get a feel of the floor. i'm looking forward to that ;p
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after our shift ended at 1pm kanina, we headed to congo grille in el pueblo for lunch and a few drinks. we were 12 in the group, including our 3 supervisors and a trainer. they're so cool. but they left early, only one guy stayed and super astig nya. he doesn't seem like a boss outside of the office... basta he's super fun. we ended up staying till a little past 6! we had about 6 rounds of beer and 2 rounds of hard drinks. exagg. your timeframe really goes berserk with this job. parang night gimick na yun samin eh hehe. got a bit drunk... tsk tsk. but i didn't mind drinking since one of the guys said the drinks are on him. shemay big spender... ang bait. including pulutan pa yun ha! hehe i'm in good company.. joke :D when the others were getting drunk na talaga (they had about 15 rounds of beer), they were getting so rowdy! jahe sa ibang tao hehe but ity's all good. fun pa rin :) one of the gay guys in our group started a spin the bottle game... and my ex-crush was dared to kiss me! exagg. wanted to leave na nga eh. but that's so kj naman... so yun. harhar. score! just kidding :D it was nothing like that. but it was one of the best inuman sessions i've ever had. happy happy.
*****
during a part of our training kanina, i was slightly dozing off and my supervisor noticed. he's the same guy who hung out with us after. next thing i knew, there was already a certain something in my shoulder... when i turned to look at it putangna it was an ipis!!! pucha talaga... it was as big as an empanada, no kidding. my supervisor placed it there to supposedly "wake me up"! leche i cried tuloy. hahaha dyahe. it was a madagascar cockroah according to them, and it was a pet of one of the american trainers there. punyemas, yun ang wake up call! i felt like i was gonna pass out na nga eh. hay nako. but he was sorry about it since he didn't realize i was DEAD scared of cockroaches... much more humungous ones like that. damn. he trested me my lunch in congo grille since he felt so bad that he made me so scared harhar.
next friday, they already planned a party in one of the guys' house in novaliches. all out na daw, medyo conservative pa kanina eh since public place daw hahaha. saya yun :D the guy who owns the house is gonna foot the food and all we have to do is provide the drinks. jake (the supervisor who placed an ipis on my shoulder) is coming as well. the other bosses aren't sure just yet, since they had already left when the plans were being made. ayos yun... wala nanamang gastos hehe.
tomorrow they'll be going to cloud nine in antipolo and though i really want to go, i opted not to since i would want to rest and spend time with my friends if ever they're free hehe. plus mari (one of our friends who migrated to australia) is back for the holidays! yay!!! hopefully, we'll get to hang out tom :) anyway, it's been a great day and it got me thinking... if i didn't get out of school, i wouldn't be making such great friends and having such a blast. silver linings nga naman... that's why my new philosophy in life is that, no matter how bad and hopeless things seem at times, i am absoutely sure it will be for the better. it's not made to break you... but to make you :) cheers! hehe. have a great weekend everyone!
on loop: emotion ~ destiny's child
... inuman na! haha. handled my three first ever calls at work today. damn it was hard... i got rattled so much since there were so many things to do on the PC and so many things to say to the customer. it's really tough to understand pure american accents, and they easily get pissed if you keep asking them to repeat what they've said. but it's all good. i loved it! i totally enjoyed it. i'm looking forward to taking in more calls. the rep who was assigned to be my mentor is so cute pa harharhar. he came with us to breakfast after and he asked mfor my number! nyahahaha. lalang. cutie :) but he's really nice and really, really, REALLY helped me a lot. if he wasn't there, i would blacked out hehe. starting next week, we'll be taking in calls everyday for about 2 hours just to help us get a feel of the floor. i'm looking forward to that ;p
******
after our shift ended at 1pm kanina, we headed to congo grille in el pueblo for lunch and a few drinks. we were 12 in the group, including our 3 supervisors and a trainer. they're so cool. but they left early, only one guy stayed and super astig nya. he doesn't seem like a boss outside of the office... basta he's super fun. we ended up staying till a little past 6! we had about 6 rounds of beer and 2 rounds of hard drinks. exagg. your timeframe really goes berserk with this job. parang night gimick na yun samin eh hehe. got a bit drunk... tsk tsk. but i didn't mind drinking since one of the guys said the drinks are on him. shemay big spender... ang bait. including pulutan pa yun ha! hehe i'm in good company.. joke :D when the others were getting drunk na talaga (they had about 15 rounds of beer), they were getting so rowdy! jahe sa ibang tao hehe but ity's all good. fun pa rin :) one of the gay guys in our group started a spin the bottle game... and my ex-crush was dared to kiss me! exagg. wanted to leave na nga eh. but that's so kj naman... so yun. harhar. score! just kidding :D it was nothing like that. but it was one of the best inuman sessions i've ever had. happy happy.
*****
during a part of our training kanina, i was slightly dozing off and my supervisor noticed. he's the same guy who hung out with us after. next thing i knew, there was already a certain something in my shoulder... when i turned to look at it putangna it was an ipis!!! pucha talaga... it was as big as an empanada, no kidding. my supervisor placed it there to supposedly "wake me up"! leche i cried tuloy. hahaha dyahe. it was a madagascar cockroah according to them, and it was a pet of one of the american trainers there. punyemas, yun ang wake up call! i felt like i was gonna pass out na nga eh. hay nako. but he was sorry about it since he didn't realize i was DEAD scared of cockroaches... much more humungous ones like that. damn. he trested me my lunch in congo grille since he felt so bad that he made me so scared harhar.
next friday, they already planned a party in one of the guys' house in novaliches. all out na daw, medyo conservative pa kanina eh since public place daw hahaha. saya yun :D the guy who owns the house is gonna foot the food and all we have to do is provide the drinks. jake (the supervisor who placed an ipis on my shoulder) is coming as well. the other bosses aren't sure just yet, since they had already left when the plans were being made. ayos yun... wala nanamang gastos hehe.
tomorrow they'll be going to cloud nine in antipolo and though i really want to go, i opted not to since i would want to rest and spend time with my friends if ever they're free hehe. plus mari (one of our friends who migrated to australia) is back for the holidays! yay!!! hopefully, we'll get to hang out tom :) anyway, it's been a great day and it got me thinking... if i didn't get out of school, i wouldn't be making such great friends and having such a blast. silver linings nga naman... that's why my new philosophy in life is that, no matter how bad and hopeless things seem at times, i am absoutely sure it will be for the better. it's not made to break you... but to make you :) cheers! hehe. have a great weekend everyone!
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
hallerrr..
hallerrr...
on loop: if the feeling is gone ~ kyla
wow. life is so fast paced nowadays. everything's like a whirlwind of activity for me. i hardly have time to recover from incident then the next one comes rolling in already. but it's all good... bring it on kumbaga. update on my supposed ultimate labs op my life. i was wrong pala. either the moment passed already, or it just faded, or i was just too carried away by the hype and all, or maybe i was successful in suppressing whatever it is i felt before. what's important is that it is all gone now... kaput. even if you ask me if i do still like him even for just an eensy-teensy bit, i could say with full conviction and honesty, that i don't. and it feels even better than when i did like him. harhar. last night, i got to talk to lisa and she shared some really wise words with me... she said that a probable reason as to why i met a guy that fit perfectly in to my definition of "the one" was for me to realize that that sort of guy is actually not what i would want after all. i mean, if i never met the epitome of everything i consider spectacular in a guy, then i would been left wondering how my life would be if i had. i mean, i'd probably end up saying that if i only found my dream guy, life would be a bed of roses or something. now i know that it is not. there is always a lesson to be learned in every experience.
*****
was with shine and bea in the GH night market earlier this night. and while we were walking around, my cellphone rang. it was an unknown number... the same number whose calls i missed earlier during the day. when i picked up, it was someone from convergys (another call center, a really good one actually), and the guy informed me that they had somehow obtained a copy of my resume and status reports from teleperformance and that they would want to recruit me to be part of their company. in short, pirate me even if i'm already committed to teleperformance. that piqued my interest of course, and he then went on to ask me if i were willing to have him conduct an interview over the phone. and so i had my first interview over the phone amidst the chaos in the night market. hahaha comedy. i was in the middle of salesladies screaming "ma'am bili na kayo! may size mura lang!", trying to sound convincing and confident in a malupet english accent. hahaha labo. i totally bombed the attempt but fortunately, anthony (the dude's name) was quite satisfied with my answers etc. he then scheduled me for an exam on friday hahaha.
i agreed because i just wanted to see for myself if i would be able to make it past the rigorous screening of convergys (from what i've heard) and for the fact that my friends are planning to get into that company as well. well well well. they offered a higher price pa naman! hahaha temptation... i admit i had second thoughts but teleperformance is already endeared to me, so there. we'll see hehe... maybe if they offer a higher price. joke! anyway, need some rest... had a rough time fixing my nbi clearance with shine and karl kanina. looking forward to work later! hehe i love my job hehe. and i had a great time being able to hang out with my friends earlier tonight... and it didn't matter that i was dead tired already and that i needed all the sleep i could have gotten instead of going out with them (and actually, blogging here and chatting hehe). it's all good :)
on loop: if the feeling is gone ~ kyla
wow. life is so fast paced nowadays. everything's like a whirlwind of activity for me. i hardly have time to recover from incident then the next one comes rolling in already. but it's all good... bring it on kumbaga. update on my supposed ultimate labs op my life. i was wrong pala. either the moment passed already, or it just faded, or i was just too carried away by the hype and all, or maybe i was successful in suppressing whatever it is i felt before. what's important is that it is all gone now... kaput. even if you ask me if i do still like him even for just an eensy-teensy bit, i could say with full conviction and honesty, that i don't. and it feels even better than when i did like him. harhar. last night, i got to talk to lisa and she shared some really wise words with me... she said that a probable reason as to why i met a guy that fit perfectly in to my definition of "the one" was for me to realize that that sort of guy is actually not what i would want after all. i mean, if i never met the epitome of everything i consider spectacular in a guy, then i would been left wondering how my life would be if i had. i mean, i'd probably end up saying that if i only found my dream guy, life would be a bed of roses or something. now i know that it is not. there is always a lesson to be learned in every experience.
*****
was with shine and bea in the GH night market earlier this night. and while we were walking around, my cellphone rang. it was an unknown number... the same number whose calls i missed earlier during the day. when i picked up, it was someone from convergys (another call center, a really good one actually), and the guy informed me that they had somehow obtained a copy of my resume and status reports from teleperformance and that they would want to recruit me to be part of their company. in short, pirate me even if i'm already committed to teleperformance. that piqued my interest of course, and he then went on to ask me if i were willing to have him conduct an interview over the phone. and so i had my first interview over the phone amidst the chaos in the night market. hahaha comedy. i was in the middle of salesladies screaming "ma'am bili na kayo! may size mura lang!", trying to sound convincing and confident in a malupet english accent. hahaha labo. i totally bombed the attempt but fortunately, anthony (the dude's name) was quite satisfied with my answers etc. he then scheduled me for an exam on friday hahaha.
i agreed because i just wanted to see for myself if i would be able to make it past the rigorous screening of convergys (from what i've heard) and for the fact that my friends are planning to get into that company as well. well well well. they offered a higher price pa naman! hahaha temptation... i admit i had second thoughts but teleperformance is already endeared to me, so there. we'll see hehe... maybe if they offer a higher price. joke! anyway, need some rest... had a rough time fixing my nbi clearance with shine and karl kanina. looking forward to work later! hehe i love my job hehe. and i had a great time being able to hang out with my friends earlier tonight... and it didn't matter that i was dead tired already and that i needed all the sleep i could have gotten instead of going out with them (and actually, blogging here and chatting hehe). it's all good :)
Monday, December 06, 2004
nick of time
nick of time
on loop: steep ~ lauren christy
thank god i caught myself in the nick of time. it's like teetering on the edge of the cliff only to have you pulled back to safety. i already saw the crashing waves of the ocean below and sharp edges of the rocks. haha good thing i didn't fall. just slipped and almost did. good thing i saved myself. his girl finally made it official between them just last night. and this is the most suprprising thing, she finally got together with him because of me. i won't elaborate on the reasons anymore but it will suffice to say that i brought them together. and if this had happened yesterday or the few days before that, i would have fallen to pieces and died. but i have integrated into myself the reality of the situation.. and i genuinely feel happy for him. no more heartaches whenever i hear of the girl. i can actually relate to him better as a friend. i can feel for him... his kiligs, his frustrations, his doubts. it's as if my mind has cleared and i can think and feel better. i want to congratulate myself for being mature and level-headed about this hehehe.
it totally hurts me to see the few girls whom this guy totally hit hard. they have been reduced into sad shadows of their former happy and inspired selves. they have begun avoiding him and dropping their good rapport with him, simply because they cannot deal with the fact that he is now taken. they had hopes, i know. i did, too. only i got over it before things got out of hand. it feels as if a big load had been taken off my shoulders... and it shows. everyone and i mean everyone told me i looked different today. like refreshed and... (harhar eto na yung malupet) blooming. as if i were in love daw. hahaha. what a load of crock. i was actually just relieved... and i did feel better. and i realized na there are many other guys pala around me. hehe i was too focused on this guy that i turned a completely blind eye on the others who were also around me pala all this time. when a door closes, windows open ;p
i was actually with him the entire day (and night) today. we went to ateneo together... he wanted me to meet his girl personally. coz they said they owe their relationship to me or something, so i went. i also got to hang with lisa a bit and i enjoyed it! i missed her so much pala. she also got to meet this dude and they got along well. his girl was really nice and though simple, she was pretty in her own way. and tall... simple beauty :) they're so happy and i'm happy as well that i don't feel any adverse reactions to what's happening. if i still crushed on him, i wouldn't have been able to pull through this day. hahaha. i go, girl. thank you, Lord, you have saved me again :) life is beautiful... and in some ways, everyone also is. harhar. it's just a matter of knowing that for oneself.
on loop: steep ~ lauren christy
thank god i caught myself in the nick of time. it's like teetering on the edge of the cliff only to have you pulled back to safety. i already saw the crashing waves of the ocean below and sharp edges of the rocks. haha good thing i didn't fall. just slipped and almost did. good thing i saved myself. his girl finally made it official between them just last night. and this is the most suprprising thing, she finally got together with him because of me. i won't elaborate on the reasons anymore but it will suffice to say that i brought them together. and if this had happened yesterday or the few days before that, i would have fallen to pieces and died. but i have integrated into myself the reality of the situation.. and i genuinely feel happy for him. no more heartaches whenever i hear of the girl. i can actually relate to him better as a friend. i can feel for him... his kiligs, his frustrations, his doubts. it's as if my mind has cleared and i can think and feel better. i want to congratulate myself for being mature and level-headed about this hehehe.
it totally hurts me to see the few girls whom this guy totally hit hard. they have been reduced into sad shadows of their former happy and inspired selves. they have begun avoiding him and dropping their good rapport with him, simply because they cannot deal with the fact that he is now taken. they had hopes, i know. i did, too. only i got over it before things got out of hand. it feels as if a big load had been taken off my shoulders... and it shows. everyone and i mean everyone told me i looked different today. like refreshed and... (harhar eto na yung malupet) blooming. as if i were in love daw. hahaha. what a load of crock. i was actually just relieved... and i did feel better. and i realized na there are many other guys pala around me. hehe i was too focused on this guy that i turned a completely blind eye on the others who were also around me pala all this time. when a door closes, windows open ;p
i was actually with him the entire day (and night) today. we went to ateneo together... he wanted me to meet his girl personally. coz they said they owe their relationship to me or something, so i went. i also got to hang with lisa a bit and i enjoyed it! i missed her so much pala. she also got to meet this dude and they got along well. his girl was really nice and though simple, she was pretty in her own way. and tall... simple beauty :) they're so happy and i'm happy as well that i don't feel any adverse reactions to what's happening. if i still crushed on him, i wouldn't have been able to pull through this day. hahaha. i go, girl. thank you, Lord, you have saved me again :) life is beautiful... and in some ways, everyone also is. harhar. it's just a matter of knowing that for oneself.
Sunday, December 05, 2004
bridge over troubled water
bridge over troubled water
on loop: falling ~ keahiwai
now that i think about it, i think i feel in love not with "him", but with the "things" that make the "him" up. and i think i loved the "idea" of being with him, not really the "relationship". those are too shallow. but i know that if given the chance, i would love him for real. but the important thing is the NOW. and it's too soon (and stupid) to be talking about love and shit like that right now. sure, what i felt may have been something akin to love but not the real thing. that, i am sure. but it's real and deep enough to hurt me as much as it did. and to give me doubts and regrets and wants that nothing else could have. but i'll get over it. i realized the other day that i myself am the one who is hurting myself (and i try to not make too much of a fuss about it... coz i don't want to be melodramatic and stuff... wouldn't wanna look back and think myself idiotic and silly :s).
he has no idea about how i feel for him, and if i'm hurting, it's because i want too much from him. more than what should really be. in short, my frame of mind is playing tricks with me. so the best remedy to this is, stop thinking of the person as something he's not. though it just totally breaks you up inside to see the person you would never have thought to exist just drift away. at least i have the next best thing, his friendship... genuine and real. it may not be what i wanted, but it's something very valuable. i shouldn't mess it up. darn. life nga naman... and all it's lessons.
*****
bea and i watched Bcoz of U last night. nyahahaha. i enjoyed the film. it was actually funny and ligh-hearted (an d quite kilig na rin as well). i liked hero and sandara's story the best hehehehe. very cute. had fun bey! thanks Ü
*****
last friday night, andrea, shine, bea, and i went out at around 830 i think. we had coffee in ortigas then ate a TON of oysters in oyster boy greenhills hehehe. fun Ü though i must say that i wouldn't really appreciate seeing another oyster for the next few weeks or so ;p
prior to that, shine went with me and my friends from work to megamall. we ate out at the foodcourt. then we went drinking in dencio's. had tequila... sarap! hehe. best tequila shot i've had ever. i'm so happy with my job. and i don't have any regrets that i chose teleperformance. thank God. and i'm doing good so far, according to our trainer. hehe nothing like a little bit of appreciation for your hard work. the following weeks are going to be tougher for all of us, and i hope i get by just fine. enough distractions. i don't need it. love will come when it should... i shouldn't press it.
lately, there seems to be too much issues about love going around with almost everyone i know. what's up with that? my friend said it's probably the cold weather talking hehe. the only thing i can say is that... it's always hard to fall into mud baths. and the toughest part is always when more than half your body is submerged in it. but when you get enough leeway to hoist yourself out, things'll get better. sure, you may come out all muddy and stinky, but you can always wash that off and clean up. but you don't only leave with muddy clothes, but also with the lesson to never fall into that hole again and the lesson of how to get yourself out.
on loop: falling ~ keahiwai
now that i think about it, i think i feel in love not with "him", but with the "things" that make the "him" up. and i think i loved the "idea" of being with him, not really the "relationship". those are too shallow. but i know that if given the chance, i would love him for real. but the important thing is the NOW. and it's too soon (and stupid) to be talking about love and shit like that right now. sure, what i felt may have been something akin to love but not the real thing. that, i am sure. but it's real and deep enough to hurt me as much as it did. and to give me doubts and regrets and wants that nothing else could have. but i'll get over it. i realized the other day that i myself am the one who is hurting myself (and i try to not make too much of a fuss about it... coz i don't want to be melodramatic and stuff... wouldn't wanna look back and think myself idiotic and silly :s).
he has no idea about how i feel for him, and if i'm hurting, it's because i want too much from him. more than what should really be. in short, my frame of mind is playing tricks with me. so the best remedy to this is, stop thinking of the person as something he's not. though it just totally breaks you up inside to see the person you would never have thought to exist just drift away. at least i have the next best thing, his friendship... genuine and real. it may not be what i wanted, but it's something very valuable. i shouldn't mess it up. darn. life nga naman... and all it's lessons.
*****
bea and i watched Bcoz of U last night. nyahahaha. i enjoyed the film. it was actually funny and ligh-hearted (an d quite kilig na rin as well). i liked hero and sandara's story the best hehehehe. very cute. had fun bey! thanks Ü
*****
last friday night, andrea, shine, bea, and i went out at around 830 i think. we had coffee in ortigas then ate a TON of oysters in oyster boy greenhills hehehe. fun Ü though i must say that i wouldn't really appreciate seeing another oyster for the next few weeks or so ;p
prior to that, shine went with me and my friends from work to megamall. we ate out at the foodcourt. then we went drinking in dencio's. had tequila... sarap! hehe. best tequila shot i've had ever. i'm so happy with my job. and i don't have any regrets that i chose teleperformance. thank God. and i'm doing good so far, according to our trainer. hehe nothing like a little bit of appreciation for your hard work. the following weeks are going to be tougher for all of us, and i hope i get by just fine. enough distractions. i don't need it. love will come when it should... i shouldn't press it.
lately, there seems to be too much issues about love going around with almost everyone i know. what's up with that? my friend said it's probably the cold weather talking hehe. the only thing i can say is that... it's always hard to fall into mud baths. and the toughest part is always when more than half your body is submerged in it. but when you get enough leeway to hoist yourself out, things'll get better. sure, you may come out all muddy and stinky, but you can always wash that off and clean up. but you don't only leave with muddy clothes, but also with the lesson to never fall into that hole again and the lesson of how to get yourself out.
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
punyetiks
punyetiks
on loop: love of my life ~ southborder
hay nako. bad trip ako mehn grabe. this day is so full of crock. first it started out bad, then good, then bad, then good, then hella bad! fart. i know that my crush is cute (he wouldn't be my crush if he weren't) but i had no idea that every girl was crazy about him as well. i'm lucky since we're good friends already (i swear, di ako nagfifeeling) and it's so friggin' ironic talaga. the more we become closer as friends, the more i think i'm falling for him. sobrang lakas ng tama mehn. as in whapaakkk straight to the heart. i can't stand it... i'd rather i lose this feeling already. it's driving me crazy. we sit together all the time and he really treats like a good friend... holding hands, he punches me (sometime mwahehehe pero joke lang), he high-fives me, and he expects me to understand him. so in short, chums nga. that should be great but i can't stand it! it's really eating me up seeing all the girls (and gays) make googly-eyes at him and trying to fence him (meaning, inaangkin). i know its selfish but arrgghh. we had a great day... we spent about 5 hours talking about anything under the sun and i really, really think i love him na! mwahehehe just kidding ang baduy but hey.
i really can't deal with it. but what broke the camel's back (camel nako ngayon eh harhar) was the fact that he's actually single... but taken. he's not officially with anyone but he said they had an understanding already. and hearing how much he loved the idiot girl was equivalent to falling off a cliff, landing on sharp rocks, being swept away at sea then devoured by sharks. only worse. our group went to mega to sing karaoke then we had a late lunch. i can't help my growing (ang cheesy nito, get ready! hahaha) attraction for him. but what's worse is that, wala na kong pag-asa dun. i'm sure. and that sucks. and it bites. and it totally kills. anyway this was just meant to be a hort and quick post... just got home and i need to do a lot of things still and i also need to get some sleep. shet talaga. hay nako why can't i ever get the guy i want :s oh and a postscript... i was thinking while i was walking home kanina. i was wondering what makes me feel this way about him. then i realized the very reason: he is the exact guy that i would have wanted for myself...
some people call it their dream guy... or their ideal man or perfect boy. he's all that pala to me and more. i remember the movie where sandra bullock and nicole kidman were witch sisters and sandra made a spell that asked for the most impossible kind of man. actually, i sort of have something like that. and this guy fits everything to a t, i kid you not. down to the soft hands, brown eyes, basketball varsity player, singer and dancer, humor and wit. he's the epitome of a too good to be true guy. he is the man i would marry in a wink... no questions asked. because i know that he would never hurt a girl. i really know that for a fact. plus he's gwapo! my type exactly :_( how sad... makes me wanna cry. anyway, gotta go off first. be back soon as i can.
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hay nako. bad trip ako mehn grabe. this day is so full of crock. first it started out bad, then good, then bad, then good, then hella bad! fart. i know that my crush is cute (he wouldn't be my crush if he weren't) but i had no idea that every girl was crazy about him as well. i'm lucky since we're good friends already (i swear, di ako nagfifeeling) and it's so friggin' ironic talaga. the more we become closer as friends, the more i think i'm falling for him. sobrang lakas ng tama mehn. as in whapaakkk straight to the heart. i can't stand it... i'd rather i lose this feeling already. it's driving me crazy. we sit together all the time and he really treats like a good friend... holding hands, he punches me (sometime mwahehehe pero joke lang), he high-fives me, and he expects me to understand him. so in short, chums nga. that should be great but i can't stand it! it's really eating me up seeing all the girls (and gays) make googly-eyes at him and trying to fence him (meaning, inaangkin). i know its selfish but arrgghh. we had a great day... we spent about 5 hours talking about anything under the sun and i really, really think i love him na! mwahehehe just kidding ang baduy but hey.
i really can't deal with it. but what broke the camel's back (camel nako ngayon eh harhar) was the fact that he's actually single... but taken. he's not officially with anyone but he said they had an understanding already. and hearing how much he loved the idiot girl was equivalent to falling off a cliff, landing on sharp rocks, being swept away at sea then devoured by sharks. only worse. our group went to mega to sing karaoke then we had a late lunch. i can't help my growing (ang cheesy nito, get ready! hahaha) attraction for him. but what's worse is that, wala na kong pag-asa dun. i'm sure. and that sucks. and it bites. and it totally kills. anyway this was just meant to be a hort and quick post... just got home and i need to do a lot of things still and i also need to get some sleep. shet talaga. hay nako why can't i ever get the guy i want :s oh and a postscript... i was thinking while i was walking home kanina. i was wondering what makes me feel this way about him. then i realized the very reason: he is the exact guy that i would have wanted for myself...
some people call it their dream guy... or their ideal man or perfect boy. he's all that pala to me and more. i remember the movie where sandra bullock and nicole kidman were witch sisters and sandra made a spell that asked for the most impossible kind of man. actually, i sort of have something like that. and this guy fits everything to a t, i kid you not. down to the soft hands, brown eyes, basketball varsity player, singer and dancer, humor and wit. he's the epitome of a too good to be true guy. he is the man i would marry in a wink... no questions asked. because i know that he would never hurt a girl. i really know that for a fact. plus he's gwapo! my type exactly :_( how sad... makes me wanna cry. anyway, gotta go off first. be back soon as i can.