nick of time

nick of time

on loop: steep ~ lauren christy

thank god i caught myself in the nick of time. it's like teetering on the edge of the cliff only to have you pulled back to safety. i already saw the crashing waves of the ocean below and sharp edges of the rocks. haha good thing i didn't fall. just slipped and almost did. good thing i saved myself. his girl finally made it official between them just last night. and this is the most suprprising thing, she finally got together with him because of me. i won't elaborate on the reasons anymore but it will suffice to say that i brought them together. and if this had happened yesterday or the few days before that, i would have fallen to pieces and died. but i have integrated into myself the reality of the situation.. and i genuinely feel happy for him. no more heartaches whenever i hear of the girl. i can actually relate to him better as a friend. i can feel for him... his kiligs, his frustrations, his doubts. it's as if my mind has cleared and i can think and feel better. i want to congratulate myself for being mature and level-headed about this hehehe.

it totally hurts me to see the few girls whom this guy totally hit hard. they have been reduced into sad shadows of their former happy and inspired selves. they have begun avoiding him and dropping their good rapport with him, simply because they cannot deal with the fact that he is now taken. they had hopes, i know. i did, too. only i got over it before things got out of hand. it feels as if a big load had been taken off my shoulders... and it shows. everyone and i mean everyone told me i looked different today. like refreshed and... (harhar eto na yung malupet) blooming. as if i were in love daw. hahaha. what a load of crock. i was actually just relieved... and i did feel better. and i realized na there are many other guys pala around me. hehe i was too focused on this guy that i turned a completely blind eye on the others who were also around me pala all this time. when a door closes, windows open ;p

i was actually with him the entire day (and night) today. we went to ateneo together... he wanted me to meet his girl personally. coz they said they owe their relationship to me or something, so i went. i also got to hang with lisa a bit and i enjoyed it! i missed her so much pala. she also got to meet this dude and they got along well. his girl was really nice and though simple, she was pretty in her own way. and tall... simple beauty :) they're so happy and i'm happy as well that i don't feel any adverse reactions to what's happening. if i still crushed on him, i wouldn't have been able to pull through this day. hahaha. i go, girl. thank you, Lord, you have saved me again :) life is beautiful... and in some ways, everyone also is. harhar. it's just a matter of knowing that for oneself.