punyetiks

punyetiks

on loop: love of my life ~ southborder

hay nako. bad trip ako mehn grabe. this day is so full of crock. first it started out bad, then good, then bad, then good, then hella bad! fart. i know that my crush is cute (he wouldn't be my crush if he weren't) but i had no idea that every girl was crazy about him as well. i'm lucky since we're good friends already (i swear, di ako nagfifeeling) and it's so friggin' ironic talaga. the more we become closer as friends, the more i think i'm falling for him. sobrang lakas ng tama mehn. as in whapaakkk straight to the heart. i can't stand it... i'd rather i lose this feeling already. it's driving me crazy. we sit together all the time and he really treats like a good friend... holding hands, he punches me (sometime mwahehehe pero joke lang), he high-fives me, and he expects me to understand him. so in short, chums nga. that should be great but i can't stand it! it's really eating me up seeing all the girls (and gays) make googly-eyes at him and trying to fence him (meaning, inaangkin). i know its selfish but arrgghh. we had a great day... we spent about 5 hours talking about anything under the sun and i really, really think i love him na! mwahehehe just kidding ang baduy but hey.

i really can't deal with it. but what broke the camel's back (camel nako ngayon eh harhar) was the fact that he's actually single... but taken. he's not officially with anyone but he said they had an understanding already. and hearing how much he loved the idiot girl was equivalent to falling off a cliff, landing on sharp rocks, being swept away at sea then devoured by sharks. only worse. our group went to mega to sing karaoke then we had a late lunch. i can't help my growing (ang cheesy nito, get ready! hahaha) attraction for him. but what's worse is that, wala na kong pag-asa dun. i'm sure. and that sucks. and it bites. and it totally kills. anyway this was just meant to be a hort and quick post... just got home and i need to do a lot of things still and i also need to get some sleep. shet talaga. hay nako why can't i ever get the guy i want :s oh and a postscript... i was thinking while i was walking home kanina. i was wondering what makes me feel this way about him. then i realized the very reason: he is the exact guy that i would have wanted for myself...

some people call it their dream guy... or their ideal man or perfect boy. he's all that pala to me and more. i remember the movie where sandra bullock and nicole kidman were witch sisters and sandra made a spell that asked for the most impossible kind of man. actually, i sort of have something like that. and this guy fits everything to a t, i kid you not. down to the soft hands, brown eyes, basketball varsity player, singer and dancer, humor and wit. he's the epitome of a too good to be true guy. he is the man i would marry in a wink... no questions asked. because i know that he would never hurt a girl. i really know that for a fact. plus he's gwapo! my type exactly :_( how sad... makes me wanna cry. anyway, gotta go off first. be back soon as i can.